ps : i heart you ♥

ended up i stayed home. i regret not going out... the weather was not too bad lor...

and i didn't sleep the whole day also. i was wide awake by 1pm. so much for sleeping in the whole day if i am not going out huh.

did some work and then watched ghost whisperer. started season 5 today. (:


ate a whole box of shapes' vintage cheddar and chives and when i was towards the last few ones, i realised it was way over the expiry date... HAHA!



aunt went out and i slept from 7pm till like 9.30pm. i feel so restless today laaa.. don't know why also.

think i'll be going to bed soon also. dreams are unreal but at least i don't recall having crappy feelings and thoughts when i am out of them. when i have the good ones, it would keep me smiling even if i was already awake.

i am still talking myself through what happened last night. i really don't know. i am coming up with all sorts of funny and weird explanations. just cause of one word. insecure.

was talking to cherly last night and reminding myself of how horrible i used to be. i mean all the emo period last time. i used to be like that everyday before, and yesterday one night i also wanna cry already.

seriously.. how did i survive through months of those pain before.. i am amazed right now.

i call this an episode of my life.

once in a while i would get days like yesterday. unhealthy i know but i don't seem to be able to run away from it somehow?

maybe it meant abit too much than it is suppose to. you scare me now. this feeling i have towards this, scares me. alot. feeling very unlike myself..

i have to quit saying what i'll do and don't do anymore. because one day, i feel like not doing this and doing that and be very sure and certain about it but the next day, i don't feel like it anymore. it is like i am going round the stupid bush.

shereena.