ps : i heart you ♥

just got back from melur a while ago. went with steph, yao yun, tim, ferns, cherly, jia shen and en lin. the usual yam cha sessions.

talked so much, laughed. the typical mamak sessions. crapping. talking horny jokes. stupid racist jokes on me.

i will really really miss all this. australia is coming soo soon for me.

sigh. i am so disturbed.

i dont know what to say or what to do to make things better abit. it really hit me when i read those words. i really really felt sad for him.

i dont know why but i've always took notice of this matter. i always try so hard to think of a way to make things better but i was just never able to.

as much as i look i didnt care, i really do. just that maybe its in a different way. i dont know. since before, i always cared in a different way.

everything seems so fine on the outside but in the inside, its not. its sad. sigh. i really dont know. i cant be asking cause i wasnt informed. i can only be worried of her.

i guess my problems were never near all this. this is sad. i dont know laaa.

tim is leaving in 3 days? another friend leaving. then once and for all i'll leave everyone. i had a dream earlier this evening when i fell asleep for only half an hour.

it was unpleasant. that feeling at that moment in the dream was horrid. but how.. its coming very very soon. sigh.

screw it la.

*edit*

luckily around 3 am like that i had yao yun, en lin, and tim to chat with. they were all at yao yun's house doing stupid things and i skyping with them.

tim was too afraid to go home since he will be home alone and we were talking about ghost and horror movies before we left melur. that explains why he is in yao yun's room but en lin???? aiya finding an excuse to go yao yun's room only la. stupid fella. :D

but the stupid skype on my mac cant take snapshots of the conversation. luckily yao yun's can. dont matter how stupid the pictures look, i still want them.

i dont do this often and it occupied my quite emo moments. its a good thing though. slept at about 5.15 am?

i now have one picture though. my shocked face is soooo fake. the boys flashing us with their half exposed underwear and boxers.


shereena.