ps : i heart you ♥

just got back from penang. overall the trip was good. i had fun certain parts of the trip. the road trip, the food, the getting lost in penang, the walking alone, the hotel talks and the sleeps.

i havent been exactly the right person for the trip. i kept quiet alot. i didnt like the person i was. but there isnt any way to stop me from being who i was during the trip.

my laughters was for the sake of laughing. telling people i am happy. thats all. i have been thinking so much. so much till i cant diffrentiate anymore between the emotions and feelings i am having.

knowing the reason to it, i felt even worse.

i had to go on walks alone to clear my mind. sat in front of the beach and thought alot. i guess thats the emo part of me.

i wasnt entirely happy but i had to. and i cannot get the thoughts out of my mind already. its in it everyday.

i am sick and tired. unhappy and confused.

one part of me loves the trip. another part doesnt. there is always two sides to everything. but it was still a great trip.

friends that i have are friends that i could rely on. and i love you guys. (:

i'll be back with the proper update tomorrow.

i have to stop myself from being emo again. but i dont know how anymore. i forgot the feeling of being completely myself and completely happy.

and if the talk between us happens, i am not expecting anything good. i expect bad. but it still has to happen somehow.

ciao.

much love,

shereena.