ps : i heart you ♥

its a really cute movie.

and fun too.

just came home from pyramid. was there for a movie. its been quite a while that i am out with yao yun together with cherly.

watched the Confessions of a Shopaholic.

the show was fun to watch. the clothes, the venues, the moving mannequins. new york is that one place with i am dying to go since i was in primary school.

and.. somehow the guy is charming to me. he may not be the perfect looking guy but there is something about him that made me looked more.

after the movie we just went walking around and met up with jack and hong jiun. after yao yun went back, i decided to go back too. there was nothing much in pyramid for me anymore.

went back to nike to visit the colleagues. then left for home.

hmmmm..

sometimes i really really wonder. does all guys really need it? i dont understand lo. maybe thats why i am not a guy. enough of this. its a topic which i wont understand yet.

sighs... no one had officially made me think soo much in one day and the thinking goes on every single day. i even came up with questions that whether am i being stupid or ridiculous that i am caring too much?

i care soo much until it gets unreasonable. but i am only like this towards one person.

dont matter what sort of positive or negative thinking you have on me, to me you are a an awesome person. i wont want to not have you as my close friend.

i wont want to get rid of this feeling yet. i am in a way enjoying parts of it but yet sometimes i just feel like throwing everything away.

at this point, i am enjoying it. maybe i wont enjoy it tomorrow but at least i enjoyed it today. i love it that i am having you in my life.

you are someone important to me. i know you know it but well... its better to keep things as it is. its easier.

you will always be someone important.

i wont want to throw all this feelings i have in me yet. not until i leave. when i leave, i am prepared to leave everything behind. i dont want to suffer over there with these feelings in me.

and i miss you. i miss the presence and the everything.

much love,

shereena.

music addiction : Fly on the Wall - Miley Cyrus

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 8:39 PM | 0 comments |

the new addition to my blue family of gadgets. (:

woke up around 11 am this morning then left to digital mall around 12.30 pm. the main aim to go over there was to look a blue hard disk.

and i found it! RM 269 for 320gb. not bad hor?

left back to work after that. and wasnt late for the 2 oclock shift. was working yet thinking soo much. the whole day that picture in my mind and the regret was in me. i kept on seeing and thinking.

was hoping that work was going to end fast. and it did suprisingly. plus its bryan's last day. well... nick calls him the bitch.

at work i am laughing more and more each day. which is a very good thing.

tomorrow is my off day! and i going out for a movie with cherly and yao yun. we are going to catch the confessions of a shopaholic. (:

its been so long that i actually went for a movie. hmmm...

no doubt i am happy, things are still bothering me. i know that when i am going to see him last before i leave, i'll definitely cry soo much. he is my good friend. and i dont like leaving friends and family behind.

thinking too much and falling too hard is not healthy. but i really really cant stop it. it just comes to me and when it appears in front of me, i just soften up and give in to my feelings.

but i was happy. and still is somewhere in me.

with love,

shereena.

music addiction : Beyonce - Halo

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 1:15 AM | 0 comments |

my gift to you my dear.

glad you love it. (:

i was really expecting things works out the way i wanted to. but when the clock ticks at 10 pm, i thought everything i hoped for the remaining day wont happen.

but miracleously, i received a message from ferns that we are going. (:

ferns drove me all the way to kota kemuning and we reached tim's house. went in and had a chat with his dad about overseas studies and stuff.

then left to oldtown in kk. talked soo much till it drifted off to politics. but i had fun talking with the guys because i got to know something new and they made me spill secrets.

ahaha! i havent been having much of this kinda chats for some time. talked and talked and drank ice lemon tea. and continue talking.

sitted at oldtown till around 1.20 am. then tim drove in circles finding a place to continue talking. like really circles all over. and i finally told him to go back to his place and continue talking.

went back there and watched the liverpool and fulham match. it was fun laaa seeing tim watching the match. should see how he reacted when they scored. (: liverpool trashed fulham by 1-0.

sat for some time somemore and talk but it was getting really late and i had to go home. sooo i was kinda rushing ferns to go back. so sorry!

before leaving tim's place, i gave him the present i prepared. and then we left. and reached home at 3.20 am. mum had been superbly nice today. :D

i guess it was a good outing. i miss having those chats with the both of them together. i really missed it. their both my great friends. nice guys. which tim already claim he is a nice guy.

finding out people's secrets and thoughts seems fun. (:

received a message from tim saying that he likes the present and the card. well.... thats the best part of everything.

and i am really happy. thanks for making my gloomy day sooo much much better. i am just happy enough to smile soo much.

welcome~!

much love,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : The Strollers - Do What You Gotta Do

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 5:24 AM | 0 comments |

happy birthday my dear!

may you have a great day ahead. and all your wishes and dreams would come true. i have more to say but everything is written in the card.

sooo you'll know when you receive it. you've been a great friend Tang Kah Tim. (:

happy 19th!

lots of love,

shereena.

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 3:20 AM | 0 comments |

i may think soooo much but the results is empty.

work was fine today. had really alot of chats and laughed alot. plus i am falling in love with the external hard disk ferng lin showed me today. damn nice lo.

philbert came to visit me today. after sooo long of not seeing him. i think almost a year plus. i miss him so much and got a hug from him. he is still the same. still so skinny but look more good boy with the hairstyle.

and also talked to jin young today. this is really damn long. since form 3 i think. finally had a short chat with him.

saw kah tim too. he came by cause i think he was celebrating his birthday with some classmates. happy birthday in advance. (:

before work was over, i had this terrible headache. i dont know whats wrong man. and my eye sight like got problem already lo.

waited for ferns to finish work and then left for home. and we detoured to buy ramly. while he went down to get his ramly, i was thinking soo much of things in the car. i wasnt sure of what it is. but its defintely not something happy.

i had been waiting for that day soo much but it ended up to turn up like that. i really really dreaded for all of this to happen.

now i am home, resting. i am tired. slept at 3 am this morning. suppose to sleep at 1 am then i was chatting with teck wei then at 2 am i went to bed but was smsing somebody sooo i ended up sleeping at 3 am.

tired~!

nights people! will be back after 12 for a birthday shoutout.

loves,

shereena.

music addiction : Cookie Jar - Gym Class Heroes ft. The Dream

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 2:32 AM | 0 comments |

my new loves. <3

just got back from starhill cause i went over for dinner at jogoya. i find that if i am going to pay a 100 bucks for that, it is soooo not worth it. luckily i had that buy one free one voucher.

anyway what is sooo special about that place? until everyday it is full? hmmm.. i wonder.

and as you can see.... i bought two pairs of nike shoes! ahahah! this is the part which i was looking for the whole day.

i love my new shoes. (:

tomorrow back to work from 10 am to 10 pm. lets hope things are fine and sales are good. and hope things goes on fine with whatever i am having in mind.

i still cant get over it. i just cant. things just never seem to work out fine for me. i pulled through soo many things but not this. maybe not yet.

*edit*

Kris Allen amazes me! his voice and his looks. omg.... melting. if there is a guy like him singing in front of me and serenading, gone laaaaa. okayy i am dreaming. :D

lots of love,

shereena.

music addiction : 心跳 - Wang Lee Hom

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 2:22 AM | 0 comments |

to me you were the good friend and also more than that.

i didnt mean to tell or write or let you know. but whatever thoughts that is bothering me, it will definetely be posted up here.

i dont know how to feel anymore to make sure things will be right. i am not sure what to do anymore to not make the wrong moves.

those three words is soo simple to say but not simple to maintain. it gets deeper and the problems are getting more and more unsolvable.

this 1 year and 9 months had been a period which i had this feeling in me. but recently... i mean since end of last year, things got soo rough for me. i am trying soo hard to solve it and make it simple for me to digest but..... i really cant help but to think.

thinking too much kills me. it really does.

but no doubt, i love you too much as my good friend and hoping that things would turn out right between the friendship we have but..... it doesnt mean i love you as my good friend, you'll feel the same too.

i've already seen the bitter part and trying my best to forget about how bitter it was. i dont want to be reminded again.

all i want for me is to have more sweeter moments in my life now rather than making everything turned out sooo bitter. and i hope things will be more solvable for me.

there wont be a day that i wont love you anymore as my friend. i will only treasure the friendship and hope for the best everyday.

no doubt hope sucks but, hoping is always the start.

work was fine today. had my first breakfast with the colleagues. woke up at 6.30 am and went to work at 7 am. reached mamak around 7.15 am and had breakfast with them. which is nick and bryan.

then had to be at work at 8 am cause we are having the stock take session. sooo far work has been fine. i even went break with vanessa to kim gary. it was a quite good day.

there are new part timers today and they seem to be really nice people. sooo... lets see laaa.

i am not over with what i just heard. well... not just but still recent enough. maybe i should really learn to let go and forget.

but i really cant. but i dont want you to know it either.

much love,

sher xoxo.

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 2:44 AM | 0 comments |

all the reasons matters.

all the past matters.

all of you matters soo much to me.

everything happens for a reason. i like you at the start was with a very simple reason but as time passes the reasons became more and more complicated and more not understandable.

but those reasons seems to keep me going on in some way. things never comes easy. it never comes the way you wanted. that is why wishes are for. but a gentle reminder i always tell myself, becareful of what i wish for.

people has destiny ahead of them. how everything is going to turn out is fated. just make the best out of whatever you do.

maybe that i was at melbourne for my first ever overseas trip when i was eight, it was destined that i'll wish for what i am getting today.

my biggest dream i had in me was to work towards to studying in melbourne. but now that it is fulfilled, i feel so heavy hearted leaving. i am seeing more details in my life. my mum. my family. my friends. those that i love and care for.

the details are coming more and more obvious.

i love whatever i had back here. i am hoping i would love things over there as much as i loved mine back here. but certain things can never be replaced. the memories i had with my darling ones back here. the stuff i went through.

it may have been bitter or even really sweet, but it is still something that happened and made a mark in my life.

from kindergarden friend that i am still good friends with which is steph and primary school bits and pieces and high school laughters to college fun and work.

everything marked something amazing in my life. especially having friends that i went on my first whole bunch of friends trip to genting then to going college together then to late night yam cha sessions then to movies nearly every week and then to sleepovers.

a whole new chapter of things and people is coming up for me on the 3rd of august onwards. i wonder how it will be like. i am curious and excited at the same time.

but i'll really miss whatever i have here that i treasure sooo much. ):

coming to think of all my past, i thought i had forgotten it already. its good to be refreshed once in a while. it brings some smiles in me. (:

but whatever i had these recent years were unbeatable. friends i've newly met and friends that i got closer to and things i've done, its just priceless. i love it all and i love all of you.

i'll make it a habit to blog about my chapters of life every week. from wherever it started. kindergarden?

lets see.

work was good today. maybe a bit boring but it was fine. had alot of time in between to joke and laugh and even play. it had been so far so good.

i just finished supernatural episode 15. i somehow liked the show even the concept is wayyy off.

had to go to bed soon. since my astro died, no tv for me for at least 3 days. how sadd. tomorrow i have to be at work at 9.15 am. soooo.... nights people~!

with love,

shereena.

music addiction : 心跳 - Wang Lee Hom

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 2:44 AM | 0 comments |

goodbye.

something new is coming ahead.

i cant get it out of my mind. i heard it and it is still stuck in my mind. i am not only thinking about just now. i even thought about the ones before. the ones that was few thousand miles away but yet i was the only one who received it from you.

will i ever get the same thing that happened before and get it when i am in australia? i miss the mics and the lags.

and my dates the melbourne is fixed. bought the air ticket already. if things goes on as planned, i am leaving on the 26th of july at 11 pm.

my darling friends please come and just see me or something before i leave. at least i can say bye and give you guys a goodbye hug. it doesnt have to be on that day but as long is i say bye before i leave.

i am starting to get quite again. maybe its the phonecall. maybe its the air ticket. maybe its because i am leaving everyone behind.

i dont know.

goodnight~! off to some one tree hill to get me back into the mood or something.

loves,

shereena.

music addiction : Pink - Sober

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 2:56 AM | 0 comments |

the new couple i like in gossip girl. (:

and omg~! chace crawford really damn hot lo.

work was fine. everything was in order. just that we have damn alot of customer but not enough of people to serve them.

at least our sales is quite good today.

and... i think today is the only day that i actually laughed till the extend of tearing in work today. that nick laaa go pin the sensor on clement before we finished work.

then he made clement walk first and had to pass through the sensor thingy and it started beeping like mad. clement pula panic cause dont know what happen.

and i am sitting there laughing till my tears were out. i dont know how nick managed to pin on him without him noticing. funny laaa that two.

earth hour was just now. it seems like a usual hour only laaa. nothing happened also. all i see is tgif is participating and jusco. can you imagine that. jusco weihh.. the lights were dimmed. look even more malayish kinda area. (:

and whatever insult en lin or jia shen is going to come up with.. shut up!

oklaaaa. i want to continue watching my gossip girl episode 18 then go to bed. i am sleepy. tomorrow going doctor. didnt make it today cause i couldnt wake up.

nights people.

shereena.

music addction : Beyonce - Halo

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 2:19 AM | 0 comments |

the three yam cha kaki.

i just finished the series EU. finally it came to an end. a good ending though. but it was a hanging one. i am sure there will be another continuation.

first i couldnt get enough of the guys and second i couldnt get enough of the love they had. i want them to be together. they've been through soo much so they have to. (:

tomorrow i am working from 10 to 10. wait. i mean later. yesterday i sold 4 pairs of shoe in one shot. some foreigner guy bought 4 pairs of shoes together that cost RM 1152.

i damn proud.

and.... i should be getting two pairs of shoes from nike. i hope it will be the last things that i'll get from there. ever since i started working there i have been eyeing onto sooooo much of things. sighs. :D

went yamcha with cherly and qi hong after work. had a good talk and some good catching ups. especially with cherly. well... she should understand this. (:

i'll always love her. dont matter what.

and qi hong had been that gentlemen. he helped me to carry the 3 heavy water bottles into my house. cause it was heavy for me.

not bad hor having such great friends in my life.

welll... life has its ups and downs. soo far my downs have turned better. but... i am not sure when the other downs will come up again.

lets hope for more and more ups to come. first, getting my first pay. second, my shopping spree for australia preparation. third, me leaving to australia and staying there for the next 4 years. i am looking forward to it yet feel that heavy heart of leaving.

oklaaaa.. i am going to bed. tomorrow i have to wake up early cause i need to go see doctor. sien lo. then have work from 10 am to 10 pm. how saddd.

loves,

shereena.

music addiction : Love is Gone - David Guetta

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 4:00 AM | 0 comments |

feeling lighter. happier.

everything got better. i said it all out. i even told it to the person itself. and saying it out is sooo much better. i feel a relieve.

and so happen we were both disturbed by the same matter. coincidence huh.

facing it is always better than hiding away from it. leaving it at a corner and not solving the matter wont bring any good.

eventhough at the process of solving there was tears, i guess it was for a good cause. (:

and en lin maybe right. i am complaning too. i may had expected too much. but well... things got better. alot better in fact.

and i am happy.

i love you. and you know that. :D

okayyy... i am leaving to work. waiting for ferns to come over and fetch me. ahahahaha! my driver.

tonight i'll finish at 8 pm and by the time i get back its probably 9 pm. and i might be going out for yamcha with cherly they all. we need alot of catching ups.

bye people!

loves,

shereena.

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 12:10 PM | 0 comments |

the rain.

i love looking out at the rain. everything that was dark and gloomy becomes bright and chilly after the rain.

i love after rains. its soft and touchy. the wind that blows is chilly.

but i hate thunders. it destroys the mood. it brings out the moody part of me. i guess in everything in life, nothing comes happy in every single way.

there has to be something i love but yet come with something i hate.

its my off day today. i had all the sleep i can because i had the trouble of falling asleep this morning.

as much as i want to say it all out. i cant.

i hate this. but i love you. seeee... its always.. ALWAYS like that. i just had it shared out a little to a friend i just known for a year.

hope by telling things out, i hope it works.

*EDIT*

talked to yao yun too. maybe she is right.

i tired of caring soo much already. there wasnt even a point. no one bothered. as she said, i shouldnt stress myself up anymore since i've tried anyway.

it does feel better after telling it to someone that knows me well enough.

shereena.

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 10:20 PM | 0 comments |

i dont feel fine.

but i wont show.

work has been fine. the only person that came to visit me today was hong jiun. and steph came yesterday. i havent been seeing her so long. i miss her.

sorry i didnt blog that you came yesterday. things had been bothering me lately.

i just read jo ann's postcard. i have soo much to say to her. things i cannot blog about anymore. and things that i can say to nobody at all. some wont understand. some wont care.

everyone complains about their problems. complains about how sucky life is. complains about how terrible things went in their lives.

what about me huh? i have my own set of problems too. but because of not wanting to be the next person that complains, i just cant speak out my problems to make myself feel better.

i cant speak to anybody over here. i dont want to make things worse.

i have soooooo much to say now. i just typed something soo long but i just cant seem to post that up. i'll ruin things even more. making things even worse.

i am really scared. really scared. does crying or tearing really helps? because it is not helping now. i feel as though the things i treasure soo much is slipping off my fingers.

i am still here yet things are already like that. i am so scared. things is definetely going to change when i leave and it is not going to be changing to something better.

i dont want to lose all this.

do you really have to see each other everyday to be close? i dont get it. i wonder if ever anyone feels like what i am feeling.

i feel the distance soo badly. jo, when you see the postcard that will be delivered to you, you'll understand this post of mine.

not only you people have fucked up problems okay? i am also a human.

i am trying sooo hard to make things better with my emotions. trying so hard to laugh to talk at work to make myself feel better.

yes indeed at work i feel much better but i dont like being home and being alone. i feel as though it just all hit me in one shot. it hurts soo badly.

i dont only feel alone physically, i feel alone in the inside.

and crying nor tearing dont fucking help. i feel stupid caring over something that people dont. i am really scared. i am scared of losing things i treasure soo much. people that i treasure so much. the relationship that i treasure so much.

i guess this is life. it never goes your way every time. everything is fated.

shereena.

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 3:51 AM | 0 comments |

it is love at that moment.

finished work at 8 pm. supposingly was 6 pm but the new stocks came so i had another 2 hours overtime. but mainly during the overtime period, i was just lingering around and talking to the rest of them and laughing over their condo's condition.

even the new guy bryan we are fun people. but too bad he'll only be working till next sunday. and he only knew me for like few days, he said i was "very friendly". not bad hor.

and it seems fellest yan was in pyramid today tooo! and i didnt see him. even guys says he is hot. imagine that.

now i have all my colleagues msn. even the new dude, bryan. sooo... its easier to communicate. (:

i am trying so hard to write something right. write something happy. make myself think that things are fine.

but it isnt.

whats love? how do you know that you are loving a person?

to me it is simple. i would do anything for that one i love. i would make it as simple as possible. complications makes things worse.

if it is within my reach, i would do it. because i can so i will. but if i cant i wouldnt say i will.

missing them 24/7 isnt entirely love. claiming that you love them maybe not be entirely love either. you have to feel that you really love the person and the person has to also feel it back. thats relationship.

unless situations like what i have been through, i wouldnt use to term love. i've never loved a guy. i dont dare to claim i did. i dont want to get committed because i have not found someone i would be committed to.

so its not love.

but if you claim yo love a person, do as you claim. show them that you love them. dont just say, action always.. always speaks louder than words. dont just say.

i've only liked two person with all my heart. one made a scar in me. it became a fear.

sooo if you say you love a person, please really love them like you mean it. and dont say forever if you dont mean it. words are only nice to hear if their sincere.

shereena.

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 2:01 AM | 0 comments |