ps : i heart you ♥

michelle commented that she likes my pose in this picture. :D

and i somehow miss the S9 days.

photo credit to michelle.

slept till 11 am this morning. its been qute a while since i woke up so late. cause we planned on going for breakfast at 11 something. which was me, cherly, teck wei and khai shien.

khai shien was suppose to come and fetch all of us but suddenly he say he got no car. so instead cherly came to fetch.

we rounded ss15 for 3 times till we got a car park. and settled down at the hawker near KFC. cherly wore something that was sooo not right to see in a hawker centre. she look like she was going to the mall or something.

maybe because she was really hoping that teck wei would say yes to going pyramid for sushi. but in the end, he refused to go.

started work at 2 pm so cherly dropped me at pyramid.

met wei xiang, siew yung and FELIX! damn long since i last saw him. since last year's prom man. and he still look the same. still so skinny still so blur.

during my break i went to chit chat with them for a while then went to jusco to eat early dinner alone. how sadd.

the time today at work seemed to pass so quick. before i actually noticed, it was already 8 pm then it was time for closing. fast le.

but today there seems to be some conflict at work. somebody should be resigning soon. but what the hell right? i mean why so sensitive wor. working life also it is meant to tolerate and be patient one laa.

and even today MAYBE your last day so what laaa?! so you can just sit inside the storeroom and dont help us with house keeping? if it is your last day also try help us out lo. whats so hard.

somemore 10 oclock sharp straight away punch card then ciao? i guess from the start i shouldnt have even considered on treating you nice.

and people give unexpected judgements. i really understand what is so RUDE? rude people dont even considered giving discounts and helping you out.

whatever la. as long is you dont get onto my nerves that bad, then fine. but for me to actually continue to treat you nice.... sorry laa. dream on.

had a new colleague yesterday though. to be honest when i first saw him he look kinda lanci le. but after talking to him today, and joked around, he seems like someone fun.

btw, his name is Valent. first time hear such name. lets just hope that he is really that nice. i miss the nice boy, Seah Jia Chen laaa.

out of all the colleagues, he is the nicest in terms of everything. somemore dont know how to get angry and scold people one. ahaha!

as long is work today seems like got alot of drama. i dont understand people these days. bully? rude? ACT nice?

whatever.

i feel like i am being treated diffrently since then. i feel like the talks we have is different. i feel like i am being answered just for the sake of me talking first.

i miss the times when i used to be a priority person when it comes to stuff about you or your problems.

i just miss it all about you.

loves,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : Waking Up in Vegas - Katy Perry

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 1:32 AM | 0 comments |

i hope this wont happen.

work was fine today. despite that i was really really feeling damn tired. woke up at 7 am this morning and slept at 2 am last night.

i was seriously damn sleepy during work. but when i found out i was going back at 6 pm, it freshened me up. :D

mum and cousins came over to pyramid to find for me before i finish work. i requested for an early birthday present from my mum. i want the Nike Monika Club bag.

and i'll be getting it soon. mum already said yes in a way.

this month's salary i would probably use abit more of my clothes for aus then thats it. i have to pay my debts and my air ticket to Melbourne.

went to Yuen's steamboat for dinner and reached home feeling damn full. ate damn alot lo. reached home around 9 pm and now watching AOD and chatting.

and also doing my Nike Online Training thing.

tomorrow i'll be starting work at 2 pm. soooo i can sleep longer. it feels great just thinking about it.

everyday without fail questions about you pops up in my mind. questions which i will always give myself a happy answer but in the end waking up to it by realising there wont be happy ending for those questions.

it will only be an answer that pleases you but hurts me. i cant change the fact that things wont work. i can only accept the fact that things isnt going my way.

i guess by realising it, it is the first step to letting go. i hope things will just turn out fine. i dont want it to be an ending which in 10 or 20 years time i think back, i will regret my decisions.

i hope i wont.

with love,

sher xoxo.

music addction : Survivor - The Search is Over

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 1:12 AM | 0 comments |

today was my day off. and the cousin came back from sabah for 4 days. and my aunty and other cousins was here soo i decided to treat them lunch at the Curve. since i already got my first pay soo its okay laa.

reached Curve around 1 something then went for lunch. at first wanted to go to ikea's restaurant for their swedish meatballs but mana tau damn alot of people lo.

so we settled down at Little Penang Kafe. the whole 10 of us managed to get a space for lunch.

my beef curry rice.

spent around 170 plus for lunch. and it was my treat. (:

then went walking around. went to MNG, then Daiso then FOS, then Nike Women then it was already 5 something and mum really wanted to try the ikea swedish meatballs so we went for somemore food.

my chicken chop from ikea.

after food at ikea, we went walking at the ikea's showroom. bought some stuff. even bought one candle which was exactly the same smell of the ones in jia shen's mooncake box. but i bought the big one.

mum liked the smell and i am starting to like it too. but still abit too sweet.

after the showroom we went to buy karipaps. i tell you ikea's karipaps are the best for me. (: superbly nice. and highly recomended.

then went walking around ikano power centre. and i went to Padini Concept Store. by the time i was done there, it was 6 something 7 already. and mum was already tired so we headed for home.

but we detoured to uncle's house for a while. and had laksa. aunt's laksa is the best laaaa.

i ate damn alot today. but i feel like eating the karipap on the table now. hmmmm. yummy...

here is my buys today. two jeans and four tops. :D

jeans from FOS and padini top.

same jeans and MNG top.

black jeans from FOS and padini top.

same jeans and nike top.

i love all my buys today. it is with my own heart earned money. it felt sooo good spending money that i earned myself. oh ya! and i bought the skirt from nike already. (:

the buys from daiso.

its all 5 ringgit. the green or the blue case was actually for my external hard disk. i cant make up my mind which is better. one of it for the hard disk and one probably my calculator. hmmm.

thats about it today. i got everything that i wanted. and burned a big hole in my pocket. nevermind laaa. kinda worth it.

tomorrow i'll be working from 10 to 10. saddd.

sighs. i kept on looking into the courtyard beside TGI. i guess i really miss the day and miss the times.

k laaa~ nights people.

loves,

shereena.

music addiction : Kellie Pickler - Best Days Of Your Life

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 1:26 AM | 0 comments |

happy birthday adrian~!

i remember i knew you in form 2. through pui teng but heard about you since hazel onwards. as time passes we got closer.

you gave me advices and perceptions which were so true and so right. i thanked you for those words you've said to me when i needed it.

happy 19th! i guess almost the last wishes of the day already. :D

lots of love,

shereena.

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 1:23 AM | 0 comments |

but it was also the same day that you met someone new.

somebody that was someone in your life.

i took this picture during my training yesterday. i remember the place and the date. it brought me back alots of images of that particular day it started. some that involved you, some that involved others.

luckily i had my camera with me that day. i just miss the days where all of this started. as far as i could remember, the feeling and everything started on that particular day.

it felt like a sign or something that day. just made me hold on even more. i dont know why but i feel that i am holding even more firm onto this. how am i going to let go when i leave? i really really wonder.

on my way back in the taxi from Curve that day, i saw an Audi TT. its feels connected to me somehow. it just reminded me sooo much of everything.

today's work was pretty fine. had sooo many people coming to visit me. first walter, then dickson, then sheng loong and wey liam, then steph, then cherly, then hau yang, keng yew and shelaine.

not bad laaaa. i even met wui yang. he went to UK for studies and is going back to UK tomorrow. and i met him today. talked for a little while only laa.

was suppose to go makan with jack but mana tau he ffk me. sooo i went makan with walter. it was nice talking to him after soooo long. and when dickson came to visit, i had quite a long chat with him too.

long enough laa cause i was working while talking to him.

met two lengzhai's today. one i serve one just walk in the shop and left. the one i serve seriously damn lengzhai lo. he may not be tall but seems attractive in a way. and with that cap, he look cute le.

oh ya! got people wanted to steal stuff today. they tore the pants just to take out the sensor. damn stupid and desperate lo people these days.

and piaget called me gay cause i say i wanted to buy somemore stuff from nike. mana tau he is gayer than me. he wants to buy two pairs of shoes and one polo tshirt and one tshirt. i think all together got about 700 plus. rich fella man.

finished work at 10 and i have to start at 9 am tomorrow cause i have to check new stocks. and had to work up till 10 pm. saddd..

much love,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : Palm Print - Elanne Kong

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 1:21 AM | 0 comments |

after all the craving, i finally had it.

today was EKIN training. i had to wake up at 7 in the morning. cause i was suppose to meet up with vanessa in front of pyramid at 8 am. but the traffic today was rather smooth sooo i reached like half an hour earlier. smsed vanessa saying that i reached and then waited for her.

took a taxi to the Curve. seriously lo today traffic was damn nice. reached the Curve within 15 minutes. damn fast lo. and then went straight up to Nike office.

i didnt know that the office was just above TGI Fridays there. we were the earliest so Ah Wong which is our trainer opened the door for us.

vanessa ta pao-ed nasi lemak so we were sitting in the pantry talking and eating. then more and more people turned up. cause the training suppose to start at 9 am. but you know laa malaysian timing, we started at 9.15 am yet there are people coming in late after that.

met teresa from sungei wang and ah seng from times square. both hytex people. we sat one table but it was only the 4 of us soo had to share with those that came in late. which was another two more guys from AL-Ikhsan.

the training started and it was mainly about shoes. Men's Training, Women's Training, Football, Basketball and the Nike Free. was rather intresting though some of the things.

as usual laaaa.. when it comes to football, we will see Cristiano Ronaldo's face. damn blardy lanci lo. especially when ah wong showed us that video of ronaldo beat the Bugatti Veyron on the speed.

obviously laa right... the car had to change gear only can reverse and he is a human that changes direction. when he won, his face cannot be seen one. lanci like shit.

got to see another colour of Mercurial Vapor V. and touched the super expensive, Mercurial Superfly. that boots cost RM 1390. expensive like mad but damn damn damn light. seriously damn light. i was amazed. (:

saw some video that onkly nike people has. the one that they were showing how the italians make custom made boots for the players, the video made me want to go there and visit the factory in Italy and really see how they make the boots. the custom made thing is called Nike ID but only for the footballers.

when it comes to basketball, it is always about Lebron James. nike purposely made a shoe for him to play during his NBA playoffs. its the Zoom Soldier III. that shoe quite nice. but i couldnt remember how much was it.

got to know abit more about the basketball shoes and the players. i feel a little bit more pro knowing it. at least can explain to people. har har.

had our short 20 mins break. then 5 mins toilet break and then continued with the training. did some quiz session and thought that we can win some damn chun prize but mana tau everybody get the same thing. the RM 39 polycarbon water bottle. somemore pink colour. sooo not my colour lo.

by 12.45 pm the training was over so we left lo. i tell you ahhh that training no lengzhai one laaa. the only one that is kinda not bad was our trainer. actually i find him quite lengzhai and kinda yeng. :D

after training we went Curve to jalan jalan. walked into the Nike culture shop and the Nike Womens. i saw something in nike womens already. and sunday i will be going to Curve with family sooo i want to buy!

79 bucks punya top. oklaaa. should be fine. and also saw something in MNG that costs 55 bucks. (:

teresa and ah seng left back to work while me and vanessa walked inside ikea for food. i ate the famous swedish meatballs. damn nice le.. and free refill of soft drinks.

ta pao-ed food for nick then we left back for work by taxi. while working i met Alex Osborne. had a little chat with him on what i'll be doing next and whats he doing now. i was suprised he actually pronounce my name right both times. when he said hi and when he said bye. not bad not bad.

he came in with his girlfriend though. he used to be that one guy which i was sooooo into looking when i was in Taylor's last year. now that i am actually looking upclose, nothing is really that eye catchy anymore other than him being a guai lou.

wait. the guai lou part was the part where it caught my attention. hmmm.. but... he is a nice and friendly guy laa.

oh ya! i served this Australian white guy two days back. omg man. that fella damn lengzhai lo. and those blue eyes was soooo damn nice and he was hot. (:

th rest of the day wasnt that happening and i worked till 6 pm. came home and ate and i fell asleep on the couch from 8 pm till 11 pm. so means... i just woke up only. haha!

but signing into msn seems kinda hard now. sob sob. there goes my chat with the one i want to. sighs. the internet nowadays suck big time. stupid Telekom.

loves,

shereena.

music addiction : Jai Ho - Pussycat Dolls

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 1:26 AM | 0 comments |

i feel like buying. lets see. maybe soon.

work was fine. had our daily talks and laughters as usual. and i had my clothes trying on session too. (: i want to buy laaaaa.

at first i thought of buying both and one soccer shorts. but now.... i just want the skirt. i got tooo many jackets already. and jia chen say the shorts dont suit me. soooo i just want to skirt.

tomorrow i'll be going to the EKIN training with vanessa. which ekin is nike when it is read the other way around.

lets hope it will be fun there. its going to be at the Nike head office which is in the Curve. and lets hope there are cute hot guys there. cause all nike people from whatever company will be there. (:

after the training i have to head back to work. i think i am working till 8 oclock at night.

my baby is sick. it keeps popping up stuff which is not closeable and it never ends. it had to force me to restart it again.

this baby is going to follow me to melbourne one le.. it had to be perfectly fine. i need it to function properly. it has be the only one that stayed up with me through day and night and my one and only close friend.

i hope it recovers. ferng lin i need you to treat it. (:

sometimes i wonder was it because of what i posted before that it turns out like this? i dont know laaa. maybe i am soo well known of thinking too much? that i complicate things myself?

i feel like getting a new one because i dont see it hanging anymore. when i saw it hanging before, i felt like it was something that reminds me of.

but there isnt a point anymore. it wont matter. it wont make a difference.

the problem with me is this. thinking too much and too far ahead. then realising that things just dont turn out the way i thought it would be. all this thoughts just made me drift too far and couldnt go back to my original position anymore.

i feel drifted even further away cause of things now. i wish i could go back. i guess its until a point of no return. i miss the old days. i miss the days when you didnt know the truth.

i miss it. i really did. things was just simpler. happier.

loves,

shereena.

music addiction : Halo - Beyonce

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 1:40 AM | 0 comments |

the first cheque which i earned with my own hands.

my first pay man. i tell you i've worked so hard and standing soo long and smiling all the way serving customers to get that much of money.

was suppose to get somemore about 700 plus ringgit. but those will only be credited in my account end of this month.

wei ping came with jia wen today to visit me. and i didnt know wei ping was in the hospital last week. felt soo bad that i didnt even ask how is she. thank god she is fine now.

i have sooo much to buy with my pay. two semi formal shirt from padini, one white short and a skirt from nike. that also will cost me 200 plus already.

then have to pay my debts to my mum then i doubt i will have anymore left. well... there should be somemore for me to belanja some people makan. (:

work has been so far so good. its fun and i am enjoying it. this one month plus of work seems to pass sooo fast.

that means its nearer to the leave that you'll leave and to the day that i'll leave everyone behind. omg. its scary and sadd.

i have that thought in my mind that even after years, i will still remember you as that someone in my life. i just dont feel like letting go and forgetting all of this just like that and expects something better turns out in front of me tomorrow when everything about you is erased.

things may get blurry after years but i definetely wont want to erase all of it that i have went through and i've felt about.

that was what i have thought in my mind. i guess i always think far and whatever i thought about just wont happen as how i imagined it to be.

so is it better not to dream? or dreaming is the start of something good?

its like a never ending thing when it comes to this. it always had been about this. i just wont get rid of it whether is it i want to or i dont want to.

its too much inside me already.

and how long it is inside just wont matter to anybody but myself. but to me it really matters somehow. its makes everything stronger.

much love,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : Pussycat Dolls - Happily Never After

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 1:38 AM | 0 comments |

its a really cute movie.

and fun too.

just came home from pyramid. was there for a movie. its been quite a while that i am out with yao yun together with cherly.

watched the Confessions of a Shopaholic.

the show was fun to watch. the clothes, the venues, the moving mannequins. new york is that one place with i am dying to go since i was in primary school.

and.. somehow the guy is charming to me. he may not be the perfect looking guy but there is something about him that made me looked more.

after the movie we just went walking around and met up with jack and hong jiun. after yao yun went back, i decided to go back too. there was nothing much in pyramid for me anymore.

went back to nike to visit the colleagues. then left for home.

hmmmm..

sometimes i really really wonder. does all guys really need it? i dont understand lo. maybe thats why i am not a guy. enough of this. its a topic which i wont understand yet.

sighs... no one had officially made me think soo much in one day and the thinking goes on every single day. i even came up with questions that whether am i being stupid or ridiculous that i am caring too much?

i care soo much until it gets unreasonable. but i am only like this towards one person.

dont matter what sort of positive or negative thinking you have on me, to me you are a an awesome person. i wont want to not have you as my close friend.

i wont want to get rid of this feeling yet. i am in a way enjoying parts of it but yet sometimes i just feel like throwing everything away.

at this point, i am enjoying it. maybe i wont enjoy it tomorrow but at least i enjoyed it today. i love it that i am having you in my life.

you are someone important to me. i know you know it but well... its better to keep things as it is. its easier.

you will always be someone important.

i wont want to throw all this feelings i have in me yet. not until i leave. when i leave, i am prepared to leave everything behind. i dont want to suffer over there with these feelings in me.

and i miss you. i miss the presence and the everything.

much love,

shereena.

music addiction : Fly on the Wall - Miley Cyrus

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 8:39 PM | 0 comments |

the new addition to my blue family of gadgets. (:

woke up around 11 am this morning then left to digital mall around 12.30 pm. the main aim to go over there was to look a blue hard disk.

and i found it! RM 269 for 320gb. not bad hor?

left back to work after that. and wasnt late for the 2 oclock shift. was working yet thinking soo much. the whole day that picture in my mind and the regret was in me. i kept on seeing and thinking.

was hoping that work was going to end fast. and it did suprisingly. plus its bryan's last day. well... nick calls him the bitch.

at work i am laughing more and more each day. which is a very good thing.

tomorrow is my off day! and i going out for a movie with cherly and yao yun. we are going to catch the confessions of a shopaholic. (:

its been so long that i actually went for a movie. hmmm...

no doubt i am happy, things are still bothering me. i know that when i am going to see him last before i leave, i'll definitely cry soo much. he is my good friend. and i dont like leaving friends and family behind.

thinking too much and falling too hard is not healthy. but i really really cant stop it. it just comes to me and when it appears in front of me, i just soften up and give in to my feelings.

but i was happy. and still is somewhere in me.

with love,

shereena.

music addiction : Beyonce - Halo

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 1:15 AM | 0 comments |

my gift to you my dear.

glad you love it. (:

i was really expecting things works out the way i wanted to. but when the clock ticks at 10 pm, i thought everything i hoped for the remaining day wont happen.

but miracleously, i received a message from ferns that we are going. (:

ferns drove me all the way to kota kemuning and we reached tim's house. went in and had a chat with his dad about overseas studies and stuff.

then left to oldtown in kk. talked soo much till it drifted off to politics. but i had fun talking with the guys because i got to know something new and they made me spill secrets.

ahaha! i havent been having much of this kinda chats for some time. talked and talked and drank ice lemon tea. and continue talking.

sitted at oldtown till around 1.20 am. then tim drove in circles finding a place to continue talking. like really circles all over. and i finally told him to go back to his place and continue talking.

went back there and watched the liverpool and fulham match. it was fun laaa seeing tim watching the match. should see how he reacted when they scored. (: liverpool trashed fulham by 1-0.

sat for some time somemore and talk but it was getting really late and i had to go home. sooo i was kinda rushing ferns to go back. so sorry!

before leaving tim's place, i gave him the present i prepared. and then we left. and reached home at 3.20 am. mum had been superbly nice today. :D

i guess it was a good outing. i miss having those chats with the both of them together. i really missed it. their both my great friends. nice guys. which tim already claim he is a nice guy.

finding out people's secrets and thoughts seems fun. (:

received a message from tim saying that he likes the present and the card. well.... thats the best part of everything.

and i am really happy. thanks for making my gloomy day sooo much much better. i am just happy enough to smile soo much.

welcome~!

much love,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : The Strollers - Do What You Gotta Do

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 5:24 AM | 0 comments |

happy birthday my dear!

may you have a great day ahead. and all your wishes and dreams would come true. i have more to say but everything is written in the card.

sooo you'll know when you receive it. you've been a great friend Tang Kah Tim. (:

happy 19th!

lots of love,

shereena.

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 3:20 AM | 0 comments |

i may think soooo much but the results is empty.

work was fine today. had really alot of chats and laughed alot. plus i am falling in love with the external hard disk ferng lin showed me today. damn nice lo.

philbert came to visit me today. after sooo long of not seeing him. i think almost a year plus. i miss him so much and got a hug from him. he is still the same. still so skinny but look more good boy with the hairstyle.

and also talked to jin young today. this is really damn long. since form 3 i think. finally had a short chat with him.

saw kah tim too. he came by cause i think he was celebrating his birthday with some classmates. happy birthday in advance. (:

before work was over, i had this terrible headache. i dont know whats wrong man. and my eye sight like got problem already lo.

waited for ferns to finish work and then left for home. and we detoured to buy ramly. while he went down to get his ramly, i was thinking soo much of things in the car. i wasnt sure of what it is. but its defintely not something happy.

i had been waiting for that day soo much but it ended up to turn up like that. i really really dreaded for all of this to happen.

now i am home, resting. i am tired. slept at 3 am this morning. suppose to sleep at 1 am then i was chatting with teck wei then at 2 am i went to bed but was smsing somebody sooo i ended up sleeping at 3 am.

tired~!

nights people! will be back after 12 for a birthday shoutout.

loves,

shereena.

music addiction : Cookie Jar - Gym Class Heroes ft. The Dream

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 2:32 AM | 0 comments |

my new loves. <3

just got back from starhill cause i went over for dinner at jogoya. i find that if i am going to pay a 100 bucks for that, it is soooo not worth it. luckily i had that buy one free one voucher.

anyway what is sooo special about that place? until everyday it is full? hmmm.. i wonder.

and as you can see.... i bought two pairs of nike shoes! ahahah! this is the part which i was looking for the whole day.

i love my new shoes. (:

tomorrow back to work from 10 am to 10 pm. lets hope things are fine and sales are good. and hope things goes on fine with whatever i am having in mind.

i still cant get over it. i just cant. things just never seem to work out fine for me. i pulled through soo many things but not this. maybe not yet.

*edit*

Kris Allen amazes me! his voice and his looks. omg.... melting. if there is a guy like him singing in front of me and serenading, gone laaaaa. okayy i am dreaming. :D

lots of love,

shereena.

music addiction : 心跳 - Wang Lee Hom

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 2:22 AM | 0 comments |

to me you were the good friend and also more than that.

i didnt mean to tell or write or let you know. but whatever thoughts that is bothering me, it will definetely be posted up here.

i dont know how to feel anymore to make sure things will be right. i am not sure what to do anymore to not make the wrong moves.

those three words is soo simple to say but not simple to maintain. it gets deeper and the problems are getting more and more unsolvable.

this 1 year and 9 months had been a period which i had this feeling in me. but recently... i mean since end of last year, things got soo rough for me. i am trying soo hard to solve it and make it simple for me to digest but..... i really cant help but to think.

thinking too much kills me. it really does.

but no doubt, i love you too much as my good friend and hoping that things would turn out right between the friendship we have but..... it doesnt mean i love you as my good friend, you'll feel the same too.

i've already seen the bitter part and trying my best to forget about how bitter it was. i dont want to be reminded again.

all i want for me is to have more sweeter moments in my life now rather than making everything turned out sooo bitter. and i hope things will be more solvable for me.

there wont be a day that i wont love you anymore as my friend. i will only treasure the friendship and hope for the best everyday.

no doubt hope sucks but, hoping is always the start.

work was fine today. had my first breakfast with the colleagues. woke up at 6.30 am and went to work at 7 am. reached mamak around 7.15 am and had breakfast with them. which is nick and bryan.

then had to be at work at 8 am cause we are having the stock take session. sooo far work has been fine. i even went break with vanessa to kim gary. it was a quite good day.

there are new part timers today and they seem to be really nice people. sooo... lets see laaa.

i am not over with what i just heard. well... not just but still recent enough. maybe i should really learn to let go and forget.

but i really cant. but i dont want you to know it either.

much love,

sher xoxo.

Posted by SHEREENA. written at 2:44 AM | 0 comments |