its better to let things lose.
i dont know whether whatever i've said,
it is understandable or not.
but i seriously need to say something.
keeping everything inside is making me worse.
recently, i dont know what kind of person i have became.
i became someone i dont like.
emoer.
a wonderer.
a person full of dislikes.
the first thing in mind.
i really really want to help you out but it is out of my league. i cant do much because i am not you.
i know that i have to care about this friend of mine. i am trying my very best to say everything i could to help. if you want to take my advice, take it. if you dont, go ahead with whatever you are going through.
if you think its best for you then do it. at least i know i cared about a great friend.
i really want to see you happy than being disturb by all this problems. i envy being treated so nice but its not me.
sometimes whatever i say may not be right but its what i think it is. its up to you to walk the path of your life.
i know i havent been helping much but i really tried.
be happy my dear friend and live your life well. hope that whatever your decisions and instincts are, it brings you far.
second thing.
smsing you everyday doesnt make us any closer. i admit that those sms i first sent to you was just to fill myself up with someone to chat with.
you are so committed in it but i am not sure if she does.
to make great decisions and a happier life thrust upon yourself, you have to make a matured decision.
dont go back to a past you hate. be proud of the present and future of yours.
but first, grow up a little. it helps.
third.
you have to realise about what is going on. how are people treating you. sometimes it is not a must that a good friend treats you more than a friend.
sincerely saying a thank you would be soo good. only these two words pays of all the hard work that is done.
people dont treat you nice for nothing. people cares alot thats why.
treating a friend too good is not a something that a person should do. its because they want to and thats why.
do not think its a should. think its a caring thought.
try to notice things around you. dont just live your life for the sake of living it. be observant of what is going on.
it'll bring you a better life.
fourth stuff.
i dont know why i still care. i really dont know why i chose this in the first place. you are every part in my life already.
every single tiny detail really reminds me of you.
i passed by a building today, and the words you said to me about it just voiced out in my mind. i was staring out the windows of the hotel in genting, i see your face. i see that smile.
i am trying so hard to really let go.
the advice i got was to control and forget. i know i should but i cant seem to do it. maybe a new lifestyle is really really needed.
finally.
jealousy is the big word. but why? and i have trouble letting go the feelings.
most of everything i have in mind is all here. i hope this helps me to be better.
i dont like being disturb by all this. i dont like being someone i dont like whenever i am alone. i dont like being that person that thinks about crap when i am alone.
i am losing everything.
hope it'll be fine. starting tomorrow at least.
tomorrow is prom. had to go and get the hair done and also the make up. just had the nails done just now.
i am still thinking too much.
love,
sher xoxo.
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