ps : i heart you ♥

i could bearely sleep these days. i slept around 6 something 7 this morning. i cant help it. its taking over my mind.

was awake around 10 because of the texts. was chatting halfway with cherly which is around 11 until i fell asleep. i guess it was a good thing that i could actually sleep.

got up around 12 something.

mum was sick so i had to fetch her out to the clinic. and i was suppose to go out with cherly to yam cha after i am home.

came back and rested then cherly came. then i drove out to Oldtown for our yam cha session.

i guess the advice i got to have a girl to girl talk was probably something good. i said stuff that i wouldnt say normally.

it was better to open up than to keep inside.

i've got to know more than what i had to. had quite a long talk with cherly. and had some good advices and gave some too.

no doubt i did feel better.

around 6 plus i fetched her back home. came home and lazed around until i got a phone call from tim asking me to go out makan.

it seems that ferns was at his place so they came all the way from kk to taipan for dinner. ferns came to fetch and his honk is soooo funny laa..

he had to do it more than once. but well.. its amusing. soo okla.

was at station one for some catching up session. then jia shen dropped by, then enlin, then cherly and jo ann and her cousin.

came home around 10 p.m.

and now, i am doing nothing. i am bored and not feeling too well. my heart hurts.

its not like the real pain kind of pain. its something that i cant even describe. and my mind is like in this total shutdown.

everything seems so blank. and so numb.

i dont know what i did just now was something right or wrong. i cant say no but when i say yes, its getting worse.

i've never felt like this before. since when i cared so much about a person?

i love you as a friend but not as someone that i like. you are driving me up the wall and making me go crazy soon.

i care but yet i dont want to.

with love,

shereena.