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i can't believe i slept for like 13 hours straight. since 4am this morning. so yeah guess what time i woke up? OMG rightttt hahaha! my whole day entirely gone. nevermind kinda acceptable lah... i only slept 3 hours yesterday.

okay a little recap back to a couple of days. second day of exam, thursday,


my exam venue is at the Melbourne Park function rooms which is over at the Rod Laver Arena. its about 10 minutes away from flinders by tram. butttt.....,


and the trams couldn't go through. and everyone had to walk to our exam hall. thank god i wasn't late. seriously... thank god!

but exam was meh... =/


spent some time downstairs with aunty D watching masterchef. haha... plus i won't be seeing aunty D for the next one week cause i'll be at dear's. and saturday i'll be back in malaysia already.

yesterday, friday,

i was up the whole night from 1am.. and went straight for exams.


then hopped onto the tram and train and got over to clayton. i was so hungry by that time and there isn't much choices to eat here in clayton.... ):


and spent the night catching up with dear, cherly came over to study, watching movies and in the end fell asleep on the chair while sitting beside dear while he was playing diablo.

eventually migrated over to the bed. haha and slept straight till today when the sun is no longer bright and sunny. hahaha!


only managed to finish two. the last one is leftover for supper :D hehehe


okay have to start studying after this!

and tomorrow morning head to ikea for breakkie. must must! no more waking up late anymore. the whole day feels totally wasted.... ):

bye peeps!

much love,
sher xoxo.

i've been up at 1am for the past two three nights and there is no way of me going back to sleep. every night i'll be like worn out by 10pm and i'll be off to bed and then 1am i'll be awake. tonight, no exception. my alarm was set for 3am so that i could have a decent 5 hours of sleep then wake up and study and go for exams. but now, only 3 hours.. =/

tomorrow will be my third paper. one more next week and i'll be done. but for the past week my stress level is so high and i am barely myself.. i am bringing myself to tears every night.. i've been distant and somewhat clingy. feel like saying it all but no. yet i want my loved ones to be by my side. it has been so depressing... god knows why i chose this and why the hell am i putting myself through all this pain and agony... but i am more than half way through, what else could i do? i guess i chose this path, i gotta walk it to the end but don't matter how much i want to turn back, i can't. the end is the only way out.

this is what people say as life obstacles i presume? i've never ever actually faced any obstacles in life till i am few thousand miles away from home, everything involves a heavy load of cash, everything at a fresh start and it is called University.

i see people, friends, slowly one by one getting their degree and working but i on the other hand? still doing my degree and still no where near to being a graduate. why did i have to choose something so tough and what i seemed to have not been excelling in at all...? if i would have went for something simpler, easier, cheaper, i might already be a graduate right now.

everything was so much simpler back then. now, i struggle with one thing only. acing uni. and everything is so much more complicated as time passes..

just called my mum not too long ago. and i woke her up from her sleep. before when she called, i was distant because i wanted to put a strong and calm but yet sounded stressed up tone to her. she always knows me better than anyone. i felt bad for being so distant and i really wanted my mommy to be around... so i called her just now. as i've already knew, tears were trickling down my face while i was still acting tough and trying to sound okay.

i still have 4 more semesters of all this bullshit. please god, someone or anyone, tell me how to go through  2 more years of this? ):

i am at my weakest during exam period. never at my strongest. that's why i need everyone i love to be around me... it is the comfort that i get. but if not, when i am by myself, i tend to break down very easily. i know i know.. you don't always have the ones you love around you all the time, and we gotta learn to stand on our own two feet, but.... just.. you know.. wishful thinking.

tomorrow after my paper i'll be spending the week at the bf's. right till after my last paper. at least i have him eventho my mum isn't. but brightside, i'll be seeing my mum next saturday. i'll be heading back to malaysia. but first, i'll be spending a week with the bf before i head home. which i'll be home without him.. AGAIN... ): for a month... ): i think i have separation issues! HAHA!

and one more thing, i feel so bad that there isn't more time for me to spend with aunty D. i'll only be back home next friday and on the same night, she'll be sending me to the airport... ): i am sorry.. i'll try to make up to her when i am back after the winter break :D hehe

okay.. now back to studying. and please god, don't be too harsh on me tomorrow. thank you.

I am suppose to be in the midst of preparing for tomorrow's paper but, I am carried away with the music playing through my headphones and it feels as though I am in a world that only I exist where time just stays and the music continues playing...

I woke up in shock when i glanced at the bright red LED clock, it appears to be exactly 1:00pm. I slept right through from 4am straight till 1pm. Closed my eyes and the moment I opened them it was already 9 hours later. And the dreams I had during the 9 hours are so jumbled up and weird and already fuzzy right now. I always dream about this particular place that doesn't exist. At least not the way I dreamt it to be.

Dragged myself out of my warm quilt to wash up and get ready for today. The day that I am supposed to prepare fully for tomorrow's paper. first thing, I went into aunty D's room to take out the weighing scale to weigh myself. Wishing and hoping I won't put on more than what I've expected to. Turns out, I kept the scale back with a slight tint of smile (:

Went into the kitchen, opened the fridge and see whats there for lunch. ate a piece of cold chicken schnitzel with barbeque and tomato sauce over it and also sliced two pieces of chocolate cake. Aunty D made them last night.

Happily munching away up in my own room while surfing through the blogmosphere. Now, it is 2 and a half hours since i've been up and i haven't done anything productive. But yet, I feel like the need to rant through things by typing them out first before I go all gung-ho and start studying.

The bf is still asleep in his very imaginative dreams. I on the other hand wish that he would be within my reach. 10 steps at most. But no, it doesn't work that way. At least not right now. I am very amazed and surprised how I've actually grown towards being so attach to someone. Some tell me that it is no surprise to them. They have already seen it coming. But to me, I never knew. Yesterday, I was only home for less than 10 hours, I found myself texting the bf ".... I miss you." The reply was "Me too.." There is just one kind of comfort when we're around each other. Though, I'll be doing stuffs on my own and him in another world of his own, it just boils down to having the presence of one and another within reach.

I am looking through the pictures I have up on my wall that has the both of us in it, at that time there was a big distance between us, all we were was just classmates, and nothing but ordinary friends. Its funny how time and effort makes everything fall into place. Falls in the right and the best place. I've never been so overwhelmed, in a good way, about how I feel towards one particular person. Seems like my life at this moment, in this particular subject, have painted out fairly colourful and priceless.

I am nothing but grateful and filled with contentment.

Lots of love,
Shereena.


"...... people say I am crazy. They don't understand who I am..." - If I Had It My Way, happily admiring my new headphones (:

back to my own room. haha! i am rarely home nowadays.. was so close to not coming back today but its been awhile since i saw my aunt. so must must come home. one week is pretty long lah..

i am suppose to be studying very obediently right now but oh wells... i can't seem to master the skills of sitting down quietly and just study continuously.. sorry my bad XD
a little back in time... thursday,



this meal was the first time i got an applaud from dear. he ate so much rice simply cause of the asam fish. he really liked it and he hasn't had this in like more than a year already.. so yeah :D i was happy that i cooked something he super loved and he was happy too :DD

been trying to cook dishes and rice for us for dinner. home cooked dinner is always nice (:

but the washing up super not nice lo.... ): and its MY job.... ))):


i kept tempting dear with this while he is playing his diablo... cause i know he has a thing for sago. hehehehe =DDD

the boys (the bf, khai shien and jia shen) were playing diablo together and about 2 something in the middle of the night.. i just felt like munching on food and i went oven this...


i tell you ahh... this past week i haven't been eating so so much okay.. and i am eating all the time. even if i am not hungry... i just kept on munching and munching... ): there goes my mission of losing weight before i go back to malaysia.... aihhhh hehe :P


yesterday,

because i slept around 5 ish the night before, i was only out of bed around 4pm... then my whole afternoon like gone already... ):


dinner i cooked mee hoon. the bf seems to really like my mee hoon alot. he says i can somehow make the meehoon taste so nice in an unhealthy way. HAHA! i think if his mum sees how i cooked it, she'll faint. HAHAHAH!

while the boys were playing diablo i went to study with cherly in her room. till about 4am? slept at 5 something close to 6am again...

today,

woke up at 345pm. and 430pm i have to ciao. had to be home for dinner. so yeahh... ): i don't like leaving dear's place when i am already there for like a week. cause whenever i am back to my own room, it feels so quiet. cause usually i'll be disturbing him and feeding him and stuff.. =/

anyways i was back home around 6 ish. just in time for dinner..

and my parcel from catch of the day arrived.


hmmmm...

i shall now resume to studying.. ): first paper on monday afternoon. so don't like exams......!! aihhhhh but not like i have a choice..

oklahh nights!

shereena.

hellos!

i am in the middle of reading calculations example for monday's exam but i am constantly being distracted by all sorts of things. either me being sleepy or refreshing facebook or refreshing instagram or constantly craving for food and desserts.... i know i am like totally side tracked.. not good not good XD



cousin sent me a video of him and he is so cute! can tell that my cousin is a super duper happy dad today! welcome to the family, my little nephew =D

went to uni this morning for my Communication Principles revision class.


revision class lasted for about 2 and a half hours and i was like so sleepy. slept for 4 hours then went to uni.... =/


came back around 2pm, reheated food for dear, caught up with mum through viber and then i completely snoozed off. till about 630pm. the sky outside was already dark when i opened my eyes.. so don't like the short days!!

about 7 ish i think.. we went out to the Taste of Singapore for din din.


been home since 8 something 9 and i am trying to make my studying productive. but aiyooo... i just ate mashed hard boiled egg with mayonaise, cheese, black pepper and soya sauce. and boiled some meatballs. i am not hungry but just keep wanna munch and munch on food! omggggg.... ))):


today after reheating, tasted even better! plus it is so easy to make!! hehehehehe =P


oklah back to studying. bye... )): bye bye peeps.... very reluctant to leave.. hahaa

with love,
NA.

hello people!

haha i have been MIA-ing for damn long already. okla about a week but it feels long to me... been so busy last night till i was so sick of it. everything had to be due on the last week of the semester all at once. damn crazy man. finally submitted my last assignment this evening. now this whole week i am just suppose to study and study for exam. first exam is next monday!

anyways lets go back to.... last tuesday?

when i am emo, i'll eat. eat all the comfort food and that's when all of my cravings will start coming out one by one. this time i was emo over the hectic week..



somehow the colours made me feel a little happier. hahah!

on wednesday,

i had a presentation in the morning. it went alright la i suppose. after lecture i went to talk to my lecture over some issues and i was feeling so down after that.


i remember the day ended quite late for me. i stayed back in uni to finish up a group project that was due on friday.


i was so dotted that day. my iphone cover had polka dots on them. so does my laptop sleeve and my scarf. ahahah! i think by now you guys should notice that i am like super into polka dots. heheheh!

thursday,

finally got my traffic light system for my digital electronics design subject working. and the demonstration we got 5/5! awesomeeeee! and handed in the report on the same day itself as well (:

after classes, i stayed back in uni with a bunch of friends to do my lab report.


was in uni till about 5 something. by the time reach home about 6 something, the sky was like pitch black already. so annoying..... don't like the days to be so short lah!!!


friday,

suppose to not have classes on friday. and it was like super duper heavy rain and i had to go to uni to do assignment with a friend.


went over to clayton after that. thank god it stopped raining when i was on my way there..


dear's diablo 3 arrived that morning and he was like super duper happy... hahah and i was curious what is so nice about it so i pulled the chair and sat beside him while he plays and me with my laptop doing my work.

to my surprise, diablo 3 quite fun ler... hahaha! been watching him play for like ever. since friday. ahha! even i know what everything is, whats going on and all that already. hahaha!

saturday night,

me and the boyfie went to khai shien's room for mahjong while waiting for our pizza delivery. saturday got some deal that 3 pizza is only for $24. hehehe


yesterday,

went down to the city for brunch with boyfie, cherly, jia shen and yao yun.


after brunch was dessert time! went to Chatime cause it was nearer and i haven't had it in a long time.

thankfully the conversations we had over bubble tea was amusing and a nice catch up (:


today,

dear went to uni in the afternoon to meet his lecturer and then bought back sushi for me for lunch (((: hehehe

handed in my last two lab report and assignment this afternoon then about 5 ish we went out to clayton to do grocery shopping. grocery damn expensive ler... like seriously...

came back and cooked dinner. this time it was a 3 dishes dinner and there isn't anything that was from the packet.


i think the chicken can be so much better if i would have used chicken thigh. breast fillet is just too dry. not so nice.. but taste wise it was awesome!

okay.... now back to studying. aiyo exams lahhhhh....!! sigh... ): bright side, i am going back to malaysia in less than 3 weeks. yay! but noooo.. downside, i won't be seeing the boyfie for a month plus.. ): hehe

nitee peeps!

mwahs!
shereena.