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I HATE HER AND HIM!! forever and ever.

i only hate one person in my whole life. and i am still hating.

i would say i dont like alot of people but thats just the feeling of dont like. you know? a simple feeling that gives you a pause when you look at the particular person.

even people i dont know i would not like them. somehow something on the outside of the person restrain you from liking them.

i know it is in the books that we shouldnt judge people based on their outlook, but the outlook of a person is the first thing you see. how to not judge?

whenever you look at this total stranger, your own instincts would tell you whether the feelings towards this person is good or bad.

sometimes it is also because of the rumours about this person that changes to way you look at them.

some when i have the first glance of them, i would say 'i dont like her' and some i would say 'she seems nice'.

but after knowing the person well only it is able to tell about how he/she really is. some from dont like may turn to good friends and some from someone nice would turn to someone that i dislike.

well this is life right? everyday you meet people and not all peoples are good. and even the good ones may not be the good ones towards you.

occasionally, you dont have to know the person to tell whether he/she is a good person or not. because from the outlook of that person you could tell how he/she really is. you maybe wrong but the gap wouldnt be too far apart.

i know that in my 17 years of life now, there are a large number of people i dont like. some are turning from dislike to a friend and some are getting worst.

i admit i dislike peopleS. as much as i am not like by alot people, i dont mind. =D if i could dislike people, why not them dislike me? its a give and take thing.

it would be so ridiculous if you dont like people but expects the whole world to be all over you. even friends you are having may not be sincere.

did i make it sound confusing? i know what i am trying to deliver but somehow the words i phrase them in dont sound right.

not liking a person can change as time passes. but hating a person will NEVER.

i only hate one HER. this hatred will never go off . she relates to this one HIM. thats why hating her is the same as hating HIM. if it wasnt her that intrude my life, i wouldnt be who i am today.

a part of me wants to thank HER. i am soo happy with what i have. if i am still sticking to that old thing in my life, i guess things would not have turn out as it is.

but the part of me hating the both of them outweighs the part of thanking them. as much as people tells me that hating a person is tired and i should not, i will never ever in my life forgive whatever they did.

i know i should not involve HIM. but he is related to HER. so dont matter how innocent he may be, dont matter how much he wants to know me, i will not give in even a cm.

i know it is not his fault, but too bad that he had such a pityful HER in his life. they dont stand a chance to even have a word that i'll say to them.

there will never be forgiveness towards them. thats just not going to happen. i dont even want to be involve with a tiny bit that has got to do with them.

but, something that belongs to them belongs to me too. i am already trying my best to get rid of it.

all this years, i always felt like cursing them to go through whatever i went through, but i just aint that bad yet. and.. i still HATE YOU PEOPLE!!

i really hope that one day, she trips on her own feet, falls onto the ground, smashes her face and loses her two front teeth. and forever there will be a scar to remind her about the bad deeds she've done. this is bad enough. =D anyway, its just a metafore.

the hatred is deeply in my bones!

with sincerity,
sher xoxo.