ps : i heart you ♥

say hello to SAM results later.
it will be out in 2 hours and 40 minutes. as now is 3.50 a.m.

is it really that hard?
i am really really afraid of losing you as the heng dai in my life.

i would do anything to get us back to who we were before.

i'll need a talk soon.
still friends is all i want.

~

12.12.2008

those by car : me, cherly, jia shen, chun kit, ferng lin, kah tim, steph and en lin.
those by bus : dickson, jo ann and her cousin.

woke up at 4.50 a.m cause ferng lin ask me to wake him up so he could wake jia shen up. as he is sleeping over at jia shen's.

jia shen came to fetch at about 5.40 a.m. cause the plan was to meet at SMK USJ 12 front gate at 5.5.0 a.m.

but en lin ran late. we only left the place at about 6.10 a.m. then off we went on our journey up to penang.

stopped by some rest area along the way before we could make it to Ipoh for breakfast. and ferng lin was lot in Ipoh. somemore say Ipoh is his hometown.

the reason to it is "he cant decide where to eat."

settled down at some coffee shop. ate and talked for about an hour or so. then we continued our journey to penang.

had some wrong turning here and there. especially the one that we missed the Penang bridge. jia shen was too focused with cherly handling my ipod while he missed the turn.

had to make some pokai U-turn and get back to the turning. en lin then leaded the way because they had tim's phone which has some GPS thing.

halfway on the way to our hotel, en lin stopped his car at the petrol station. but we didnt see them stopping. suddenly chun kit appeared beside our door and knocked on it hard.

it was in the middle of a jam you know! scared us. he hopped in the car with tim's phone and left the other car with no directions.

with the help of chun kit and ferng lin, we found our hotel. where as the other car got directions from the lady at the petrol station. it seems laa.

Evergreen Laurel Hotel

i went to the reception desk hoping to check us in but mana tau government came up with a rule that BELOW 21 CANT CHECK IN FOR THEMSELVES. i thought it was below 18.

so i had to make some phone calls to my cousin to get their penang friends to come and help me with the check in.

finally we got into our rooms. one was 1016 and the other was 1022. the girls one was the 1022. it was nearer to the lift. we dont have to walk so far. hahah!

and the girls room is bigger than the boys. haha! some say the want to have some rest so we girls went shopping at Gurney Plaza.

which is about 10 minutes walk from the hotel. it was along the coastline. and the three who are suppose to come by bus, didnt make it yet.

me, cherly and steph went walking at Gurney Plaza. cause it seems MNG was having some sales. but ended up didnt even buy anything from MNG.

the boys called and said that there are coming over to the plaza to find us. which were jia shen, chun kit, dickson and kah tim.

lingered around the place for a while. then we took off back to the hotel.

went back at got ready to go out for dinner. and also waiting for en lin and ferng lin to get back from visiting pei yen.

then all of us headed to Gurney Drive for dinner. where as en lin, ferng lin and pei yen went to Gurney Plaza.

i had fried oysters for the first time. had alot of talking to a few people. especially jia shen.

then we all walked back to our hotel. some were stuck somewhere. some were in the room. and i went downstairs in front of the hotel to have a sit.

sat there for nearly 2 hours all by myself. saw alot of nice cars which brought up my mood. especially that BMW 323. was superbly hot.

damn alot of RX-8. and a BMW Z4 right infront of my eyes.

sat there till the off the lights at the fountain. and the lobby. it got kinda dark. so i went back up to the room finding out that cherly was already asleep.

went to bath and change then i went over to the guy's room. they were watching Zorro. and i complained hungry.

ferns said after the movie they will go makan with me. jia shen who was asleep also woke up and went makan together.

me, en lin, ferng lin, dickson and jia shen was suppose to walk out and find food but it was late and shops are mostly closed. it was 1 something in the morning.

so we decided to drive to the 24 hours Mcdonalds. and en lin's car has cockroaches!! small little ones. not one not two but three!! or more.

ate beefburger at Mcd.

came back about 2 something but only fell asleep at 3 something.

will be back with day 2 soon. sorry about the no pictures. i only have pictures for day 2.

i am sooo tired and sick. i feel so hopeless. now that our SAM results will be out tomorrow, i am even worse.

i am so tempted to start the conversation. but.. i dont know how you would take it.

with love,
sher xoxo.

i have no mood to blog about penang yet.

i'll be back with the update when i am ready to write something happy.
i am struggling hard already.

~

i am worrying so much.
dreading that we will fall apart as that one thing i treasure most.
as friends.

i cannot imagine the day we are not friends anymore.

if it was because of that mistake i made,
things fall apart,
it will be my regrets for life.

i've never wanted all of this to happen.
i've never wanted to lose the friendship at all.
i've never wanted for me to feel like this now.

i couldnt help but to think.
thinking so much till i dont know whats right or wrong anymore.

i am already torturing myself with all these thoughts.

will we really fall apart?
what about that deal we made?

there is no way i can joke around with you like i did before.

i feel the heartache and i feel the tears.
and it was because of that 6 texts long confession.

i was so stupid to think that it will make things better.

fuck it.
please leave me alone.

i feel like crying out loud.
i feel like screaming out loud.

the tears are starting to roll down
and the thoughts are starting to fill up my mind already.

this is what appears in my mind now,
"we don't fit together anymore. not even as close friends already."

~

was out to some salon in Ampang today. went to aunt's house for lunch after the hair do. all i did was wash and blow dry.

came home and slept. while sleeping, so many phone calls came in. first, the hotel from penang. then ferng lin. twice it was him. then my cousin.

woke up and was thinking of going to taipan to check out some phones because i am in need of getting a new phone.

but today is a public holiday for Selangor people. so yeahh.. the shops are closed.

watched some new show on Astro on Demand and laughed alot. well... it was hilarious. and after that was Gem of Life.

i am in love with that red Audi TT.

i saw the new BMW X6 today. it looks kinda nice for a four wheeled drive. and i saw a BMW 6 series at taipan just now. blardy nice.

people are rich and can afford these nice cars. well... i am having fun just by looking at it. (:

came online and talked to adrian. i was really in need of advices at that moment. he gave me alot of stuff. things that are so true.

but yet i cant do it. i am sick and tired of being in all this dilemma.

i am still that person which has so much to think in mind and in the end, making myself all emo over it.

even my mum sense the changed person in me. she kept asking whats wrong with me these days.

at least i am getting back on my sleepy days. i can still sleep. but i still cant help myself for thinking sooo much.

sighs.

i'll be going to penang tomorrow with my high school buddies! altogther 11 of us. we will have fun! trust me!

the 11 people : me, cherly, jia shen, steph, chun kit, ferng lin, en lin, kah tim, dickson, jo ann and her cousin.

i hope i'll be fine.

off to some late night chats. ciao people.

with love,
sher xoxo.

just came back from yam cha session at Old Taste in SS15.

woke up at 11 a.m this morning. because i was suppose to go out with my family to Mont Kiara for lunch.

was at Solaris Mont Kiara or known to some, Soho KL. some place with only has food, food and food.

something like taipan. a bunch of shops. but smaller and alot more high class. seriously mean it. ALOT more high class.

obviously laa. its surrounded by properties of blardy rich peoples.

settled down at Michaelangelo's. the place was soooo comfortable and the waiter is hot! and also the food is nice!

a great choice. i like that place.

i am sure the night life there is chaotic. everything seems to be bars and pubs.

reached home around 4.30 p.m. then cherly said we were going out at 5 p.m to pyramid for Transporter 3.

but 5 p.m was abit too early. cause the show is only at 7.40 p.m. so i told her we go around 5.40 p.m laaa. so i can have a short nap.

i was the driver for the day. went to fetch sean then cherly then wey liam. went to pump petrol too. and i had great friends to do that for me. (:

went to pyramid and walked around. went for a short period of window shopping.

jia shen was joining us. but he wanted to suprise cherly soo none of us said anything that he was joining.

he gaved her a shock when he appeared beside her in the cinema. hahaha!

watched Transporter 3.




Jason Statham is damn blardy yeng. serious soooo yeng. and his voice is oh-my-god-so-sexy.

and the Audi was superbly nice!!! i tell you i am soo in love with the car and the driver.

i became a car craze. i saw a Porche today. it was a Cayman. yesterday i saw a Ferrari. the Cayman was damn nice. freakingly sleek.

after movie, me, cherly, liam, sean and jia shen went to Old Taste for some food. sat there and talked. jia shen left earlier.

the remaining four sat there and talked about the past. and laughed sooo much. then mun hoe came to join us.

sat and talked a while more. then saw wei nian there. said hi and bye when we left.

i fetced cherly home. where as mun hoe fetched liam and sean back. cherly was like some mad woman like that. whenever mun hoe's car was beside mine, she waved like crazy.

on my way home after fetching cherly back, i saw the three guys again. they were in front of sean's house.

came back and took my hot bath and rested. and now, i am blogging. (:

tomorrow will be out to Monash and One Utama with cherly, jia shen and sean. i guess things should go on pretty good tomorrow.

nights people.

with love,
sher xoxo.

and blardy hell, why does it have to appear so much?
Audi TT is so much in front of my eyes.

and it made my mind wander.
wtf.

while waiting for cherly, sean and mun hoe visiting their toilet.

ate and chit chatted. while most of them there cant stop saying Bumi or Malay. board the bus at 10 a.m.


in the bus.