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i am currently sitting in my freshly vacuumed room and rather neat and tidy because it is all cleaned up and ready for me to leave it for over a month. will be heading back to malaysia tonight. i am having all this anxiety right now worrying whether my bags are too heavy. hahah!

sometimes i wonder what the hell i pack. every single time i'll be heading back with at least 30kgs. but at least this time i know half of it are clothes which i am giving away to my cousins because i won't be wearing them anymore. haha!

just had dinner. aunty cooked noodles. and i finally have time to blog about the past week right now. wanted to do it last night but i was too occupied with stuffs.

anyways.. lets rewind back to Sunday,

woke up early to go over to Ikea for breakkie with my dearest, the bf. hehehe :D only slept for 4 hours and the bf hasn't slept all night. hahah!


i tell you... whenever i am out eating with him, i always end up eating so much. so not good! but somewhat fun whenever i am out eating with him. hehehe

then went over to clayton to buy groceries. after that went back and slept until it was enough for me. studied a lil bit then cooked dinner.


Monday,


Tuesday,

the bf had a paper that afternoon so i went over to monash first to have lunch at their campus centre with cherly and ck and tai then went over to the library to study.


once the bf came back from exam, we went back to his place and i prepared dinner.


slept quite early that night because my last paper was the following day at 6pm. had to wake earlier to study.

Wednesday,

woke up at about 9am to study. the bf only went to sleep at 11am. his body clock super messed up already one...


exams are finally over for me! the last paper was not too bad.. hehehe after eating i straight slept till the next morning. was super tired. haha!

yesterday, Thursday,

went down to the city to meet up with Yao yun for lunch. she wanted to try Cookie for sometime already and finally we went there yesterday.


spent a fair bit yesterday but was super duper happy with my buyings. scroll down a little more and you'll see the pictures. hehe

dinner was with the bf at Ipondo. bought the scoopon vouchers two months back i think?


and the food was not bad (: i was quite pleased actually. thank god i didn't go when the deal first started. apparently it was very bad according to loong and celine. thank god it was really alright yesterday! and it was so worth the price okay!

both of us ate so much! i wanted to take pictures of everything but my phone battery died before any food was placed on the table.. so sad ): i think in total we ate like slightly over $50 worth of food. damn dai lah!

i love my makan dates with him ♥

then went over to yao yun's and wei ping's place. and chilled for an hour watching stupid videos. haha! i had to go over to collect something from wei ping. so yeah...

finally back to MA in clayton at 11pm? then i was packing and washing dishes and lazing on the bed which i fell asleep for like less than an hour then bathed and washed my hair.. then cooked. yes cooked at 3am.


hehe so so, my buyings,

hehehehe so so happy with all the stuffs i bought yesterday!!! :DDDD and went to sleep almost 6 in the morning cause i was watching a tvb drama with the bf.

woke up around 9am today. dear came and wake me up with kisses (: oh so happy! but i was so grumpy cause i needed more sleep... ): left MA around 930am and dear walked me out to the bus loop. i won't be seeing him till end of july! )))): i told you i have separation issues....

then went back to uni to settle some stuffs and was home by 12pm. did all my packing and i am going back with so much stuffs. all sorts of things...

was so tired after packing, straight fell asleep till it was time for dinner. just got my web checkin done. and now just lazing till it is time to head to the airport.

maybe watch my tvb drama. haha

klah, next post, i'll be back in malaysia already. most prolly posting bout foods. hehehe! can't wait to be back! i'll be heading to hong kong on monday and i'll be back with the family! awesome possum hehehehe

lots of love,
shereena.

i can't believe i slept for like 13 hours straight. since 4am this morning. so yeah guess what time i woke up? OMG rightttt hahaha! my whole day entirely gone. nevermind kinda acceptable lah... i only slept 3 hours yesterday.

okay a little recap back to a couple of days. second day of exam, thursday,


my exam venue is at the Melbourne Park function rooms which is over at the Rod Laver Arena. its about 10 minutes away from flinders by tram. butttt.....,


and the trams couldn't go through. and everyone had to walk to our exam hall. thank god i wasn't late. seriously... thank god!

but exam was meh... =/


spent some time downstairs with aunty D watching masterchef. haha... plus i won't be seeing aunty D for the next one week cause i'll be at dear's. and saturday i'll be back in malaysia already.

yesterday, friday,

i was up the whole night from 1am.. and went straight for exams.


then hopped onto the tram and train and got over to clayton. i was so hungry by that time and there isn't much choices to eat here in clayton.... ):


and spent the night catching up with dear, cherly came over to study, watching movies and in the end fell asleep on the chair while sitting beside dear while he was playing diablo.

eventually migrated over to the bed. haha and slept straight till today when the sun is no longer bright and sunny. hahaha!


only managed to finish two. the last one is leftover for supper :D hehehe


okay have to start studying after this!

and tomorrow morning head to ikea for breakkie. must must! no more waking up late anymore. the whole day feels totally wasted.... ):

bye peeps!

much love,
sher xoxo.

i've been up at 1am for the past two three nights and there is no way of me going back to sleep. every night i'll be like worn out by 10pm and i'll be off to bed and then 1am i'll be awake. tonight, no exception. my alarm was set for 3am so that i could have a decent 5 hours of sleep then wake up and study and go for exams. but now, only 3 hours.. =/

tomorrow will be my third paper. one more next week and i'll be done. but for the past week my stress level is so high and i am barely myself.. i am bringing myself to tears every night.. i've been distant and somewhat clingy. feel like saying it all but no. yet i want my loved ones to be by my side. it has been so depressing... god knows why i chose this and why the hell am i putting myself through all this pain and agony... but i am more than half way through, what else could i do? i guess i chose this path, i gotta walk it to the end but don't matter how much i want to turn back, i can't. the end is the only way out.

this is what people say as life obstacles i presume? i've never ever actually faced any obstacles in life till i am few thousand miles away from home, everything involves a heavy load of cash, everything at a fresh start and it is called University.

i see people, friends, slowly one by one getting their degree and working but i on the other hand? still doing my degree and still no where near to being a graduate. why did i have to choose something so tough and what i seemed to have not been excelling in at all...? if i would have went for something simpler, easier, cheaper, i might already be a graduate right now.

everything was so much simpler back then. now, i struggle with one thing only. acing uni. and everything is so much more complicated as time passes..

just called my mum not too long ago. and i woke her up from her sleep. before when she called, i was distant because i wanted to put a strong and calm but yet sounded stressed up tone to her. she always knows me better than anyone. i felt bad for being so distant and i really wanted my mommy to be around... so i called her just now. as i've already knew, tears were trickling down my face while i was still acting tough and trying to sound okay.

i still have 4 more semesters of all this bullshit. please god, someone or anyone, tell me how to go through  2 more years of this? ):

i am at my weakest during exam period. never at my strongest. that's why i need everyone i love to be around me... it is the comfort that i get. but if not, when i am by myself, i tend to break down very easily. i know i know.. you don't always have the ones you love around you all the time, and we gotta learn to stand on our own two feet, but.... just.. you know.. wishful thinking.

tomorrow after my paper i'll be spending the week at the bf's. right till after my last paper. at least i have him eventho my mum isn't. but brightside, i'll be seeing my mum next saturday. i'll be heading back to malaysia. but first, i'll be spending a week with the bf before i head home. which i'll be home without him.. AGAIN... ): for a month... ): i think i have separation issues! HAHA!

and one more thing, i feel so bad that there isn't more time for me to spend with aunty D. i'll only be back home next friday and on the same night, she'll be sending me to the airport... ): i am sorry.. i'll try to make up to her when i am back after the winter break :D hehe

okay.. now back to studying. and please god, don't be too harsh on me tomorrow. thank you.

I am suppose to be in the midst of preparing for tomorrow's paper but, I am carried away with the music playing through my headphones and it feels as though I am in a world that only I exist where time just stays and the music continues playing...

I woke up in shock when i glanced at the bright red LED clock, it appears to be exactly 1:00pm. I slept right through from 4am straight till 1pm. Closed my eyes and the moment I opened them it was already 9 hours later. And the dreams I had during the 9 hours are so jumbled up and weird and already fuzzy right now. I always dream about this particular place that doesn't exist. At least not the way I dreamt it to be.

Dragged myself out of my warm quilt to wash up and get ready for today. The day that I am supposed to prepare fully for tomorrow's paper. first thing, I went into aunty D's room to take out the weighing scale to weigh myself. Wishing and hoping I won't put on more than what I've expected to. Turns out, I kept the scale back with a slight tint of smile (:

Went into the kitchen, opened the fridge and see whats there for lunch. ate a piece of cold chicken schnitzel with barbeque and tomato sauce over it and also sliced two pieces of chocolate cake. Aunty D made them last night.

Happily munching away up in my own room while surfing through the blogmosphere. Now, it is 2 and a half hours since i've been up and i haven't done anything productive. But yet, I feel like the need to rant through things by typing them out first before I go all gung-ho and start studying.

The bf is still asleep in his very imaginative dreams. I on the other hand wish that he would be within my reach. 10 steps at most. But no, it doesn't work that way. At least not right now. I am very amazed and surprised how I've actually grown towards being so attach to someone. Some tell me that it is no surprise to them. They have already seen it coming. But to me, I never knew. Yesterday, I was only home for less than 10 hours, I found myself texting the bf ".... I miss you." The reply was "Me too.." There is just one kind of comfort when we're around each other. Though, I'll be doing stuffs on my own and him in another world of his own, it just boils down to having the presence of one and another within reach.

I am looking through the pictures I have up on my wall that has the both of us in it, at that time there was a big distance between us, all we were was just classmates, and nothing but ordinary friends. Its funny how time and effort makes everything fall into place. Falls in the right and the best place. I've never been so overwhelmed, in a good way, about how I feel towards one particular person. Seems like my life at this moment, in this particular subject, have painted out fairly colourful and priceless.

I am nothing but grateful and filled with contentment.

Lots of love,
Shereena.


"...... people say I am crazy. They don't understand who I am..." - If I Had It My Way, happily admiring my new headphones (:

back to my own room. haha! i am rarely home nowadays.. was so close to not coming back today but its been awhile since i saw my aunt. so must must come home. one week is pretty long lah..

i am suppose to be studying very obediently right now but oh wells... i can't seem to master the skills of sitting down quietly and just study continuously.. sorry my bad XD
a little back in time... thursday,



this meal was the first time i got an applaud from dear. he ate so much rice simply cause of the asam fish. he really liked it and he hasn't had this in like more than a year already.. so yeah :D i was happy that i cooked something he super loved and he was happy too :DD

been trying to cook dishes and rice for us for dinner. home cooked dinner is always nice (:

but the washing up super not nice lo.... ): and its MY job.... ))):


i kept tempting dear with this while he is playing his diablo... cause i know he has a thing for sago. hehehehe =DDD

the boys (the bf, khai shien and jia shen) were playing diablo together and about 2 something in the middle of the night.. i just felt like munching on food and i went oven this...


i tell you ahh... this past week i haven't been eating so so much okay.. and i am eating all the time. even if i am not hungry... i just kept on munching and munching... ): there goes my mission of losing weight before i go back to malaysia.... aihhhh hehe :P


yesterday,

because i slept around 5 ish the night before, i was only out of bed around 4pm... then my whole afternoon like gone already... ):


dinner i cooked mee hoon. the bf seems to really like my mee hoon alot. he says i can somehow make the meehoon taste so nice in an unhealthy way. HAHA! i think if his mum sees how i cooked it, she'll faint. HAHAHAH!

while the boys were playing diablo i went to study with cherly in her room. till about 4am? slept at 5 something close to 6am again...

today,

woke up at 345pm. and 430pm i have to ciao. had to be home for dinner. so yeahh... ): i don't like leaving dear's place when i am already there for like a week. cause whenever i am back to my own room, it feels so quiet. cause usually i'll be disturbing him and feeding him and stuff.. =/

anyways i was back home around 6 ish. just in time for dinner..

and my parcel from catch of the day arrived.


hmmmm...

i shall now resume to studying.. ): first paper on monday afternoon. so don't like exams......!! aihhhhh but not like i have a choice..

oklahh nights!

shereena.