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okay i now feel so distant away from other people. blog hopping is my only source of keeping up about other people even those that i don't know.

i finally survived a week without internet at home. but apparently, there will still be another 10-15 days or so! ughh that's really so long. mum has been calling my handphone quite often cause i couldn't skype with them and she knows i am going cuckoo without the internet at home. even aunty doris knows. )):

the weekend just came and went just like that. saturday was at home watching series.


i've been laughing non stop to myself watching this. but i only have till episode 17. hopefully jia shen would download more and then i get to watch the end. :DDD and and one of the guy in the show is kinda lengzhai. and kinda dai chek. :DDD

but he reminds me of someone i know. hmmm...

sunday went to dfo south wharf with aunty doris. bought a pair of skinny jeans from just jeans, a dress and a cardigan from cotton on. spent $39.95. (((((:

hopefully i will be able to achieve my aim to save some money this month. if i quit the buying, then yes, i will be able to save. (((:

yesterday was aunty doris's birthday. gave her the earrings and she likes it. :D but didn't celebrate much. just me and her went ta pao pizza and pasta at moonee ponds and ate it for dinner. there was three kinda cute guys at the restaurant. all three with caps and aviator style sunglasses. hot. :D

then she went out for meeting and i was alone at home watching the biggest loser couples and the mentalist and abit of nip/tuck.

went upstairs and watched my sister's keeper.


i cried so much. everything was so emotional. i knew it was gonna be sad so i left it to only watch it at night. then i can go to bed.

watched till like 1 something in the morning and had to wake up at 8 am this morning.

today, it is ju's birthday. ((((: if we are going for japanese dinner tonight, then i'll see him. but i already put the present on the dining table hoping he'll see it. :D happy birthday!

i still have half an hour to my lecture starts. my finals is in two weeks. hopefully i'll do fairly good. it doesn't have to be good good, but just good enough then i am happy.

now i am just cramping my days with sleep, shows, food and uni. i don't want any spare empty times.

sigh. everything is just so wrong.

i think till i see someone else in my eyes, you'll always be cute to me. i don't know. it just feels not right and i know it is not right. but i guess i can't help it?

and i have been afraid of one thing. i am afraid it would come back when i go back. i know i am very prone to this kinda stuff and i don't seem to be able to put a stop to it by myself. i always tend to let it be and just let it go away by itself. and thats scary. i am really scared already.

something else had also been roaming in my mind. something not very right at this point of time. ):

might be seeing jia shen tomorrow to pass him the polo tees that i need jia wei to bring it back to malaysia for me. :D

oklaa. i better go. class starting in a while. byee!

much love,
shereena.