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physics tomorrow.
i am damn blardy stress out because of stupid physics paper.

and its at 7 oclock in the morning.
this means i have to wake up at 3 to study?
help...

i have no time to think about other stuff anymore.
my mind has too much things to think about already.

i hate exams.

love,
shereena.

hellooo peoples :)

today the chemistry paper is over and done with. it wasnt so bad as i expected it to be but yet there are alot of question where i am uncertain of.

if they said the finals wouldnt be as hard as the trials then probably i should be relieved. i had actually alot more to answer than the one i did for my mid year which i pretty much sucked to the bottom as it could be.

i really hope it will be fine. i really do. my dreams on chemistry have not squashed to million pieces yet just into two.

SAM Chemistry is tough. damn alot of stuff involved. now, Form 4 Form 5 Chemistry is a piece of cake. seriously. my brightest and most proud of days was my chemistry results was back in Form 5 because i was certain of that A. but now, a B i would be sooo thankful already.

enough of chemisty. its over. :(

since tomorrow is the ESL paper, i watched two episodes of OC and the third episode of one tree hill. in case you guys are wondering, ESL is English as a Second Language.

i am actually watching the OC back again after leaving it for nearly 5 months in my laptop. i know i am slow with it, i am just at season 1. :D

one tree hill is the total opposite. i have been keeping track of it since god knows how long when i visited malacca. missed the first few episodes of the first season because i just started my first episode of it at the hotel in malacca. i think it was 5 years back.

now it is season 6. and i still am loving it so much till i download it every single week just to keep myself with its latest season.

it was pretty much a dull day. exams took the main part of it.

i wrote a letter hoping to send it out one day. as much as i want to stop it, the light is still green in my mind. i still cant yet.

with love,
sher xoxo.

helloo dears :)

went to college today and didnt do much also. everyone was busy talking and i dont know doing what. lecturers werent teaching already instead they gave us time to revise and ask questions.

going is the same of not going but it was better than staying at home. at least i made the time useful by going to college TRYing to study.

mum told me yesterday that she wanted to klcc today to shop and agreed to come to college and pick me up then go back down to klcc. it seems that my cousin came along too.

did quite alot of shopping. was actually suppose to go to isetan cause they were having some members presale thing. it was only for members. the 3 floors of isetan were close and only open for members except the supermarket was open to all.

going in is like going in a room full of womens. seriously. damn alot of people and mainly are womens. i cannot stand the crowd.

i thought i would at least get something from the pre sales cause thought of getting something from perlin's silver. eventhough there were some nice accesories, i still didnt get them.

it was too crowded already. i was wishing to leave the place as soon as possible.

left isetan and headed to nike. cause i had 20 bucks nike voucher so i thought of getting something. passed by levi's and saw that they are having sales.

Levi's is having sales you know?! its the first time i am hearing this. even when i was in hong kong, everything was on normal price eventhough it was sales season. the point is, Levi's NEVER have sales! maybe they had before but i never knew about it.

and after all they have sales so i bought another pair of levi's jeans and i am loving it. <3

so did my mum and my cousin. mine was only on 20% discount but my cousin's was 50% off. three pair of jeans less than 500 bucks. ok laa for a levi's.

and nike was just next door. hahaha! i bought a tshirt and i love it. i freaking love their logo laa.

after that was vincci. i've been wanting to get a pair of peep toe heels and i got it. and it is on sales. so i bought it! its a jeans material type. and another thing i bought which i love. <3

OMG! trials is next monday and i went shopping at klcc today. sighs. shit laaa... i guess its progressing well. i am still hanging strong on that decision cause i had to. i really had to. hope things would go well.

bye peeps,
sher xoxo.

have i mention how badly i missed hong kong?

the last time i went i didnt have that much fun as i expected i should. there was fun but as in the places they took us, it wasnt so grand. didnt do that much shopping also because it was winter sales. every clothes were just too thick to wear in Malaysia.

the company that went together was good. except for some. but the peoples that were around my age was quite fun to hang out with. especially my oh-so-hot cousin~!

he is blonde and he is good looking. well to me he is. but there is just one flaw. his shoulders arent broad. i mean the outlook he only has one flaw. the inside, i dont know.

talking about it, the peck on my cheek still makes me smile like a crazy girl until today. and his so red yet cute face. =D

wait, this was suppose to be about hong kong right? okayy... maybe i swayed off abit too far.

i cant wait to visit hong kong again. i really really want to go again. i hope my mum takes me there end of this year. i really hope so.

college was fine today. went to pyramid a while cause cherly said there was this student log in thing at topshop. only students with student card could go in.

i am not a topshop fan. seriously. their clothes just somehow dont go along with me and the price isnt cheap.

met a few schoolmates there. one of them is chong chin yau. let me tell u this compliment again chin yau, you looked better. seriously. alot better than before. according to him, its because of the hair "tail" he has. hahaa!

thats all today. :)

ciao,
sher xoxo.

trials is just next monday. i havent really been studying much and trials is supposed to be important. but there is too much in mind now. even if i would have picked up a book and read, i will get it but there is alot in my mind.

it had always been the time that i should once and for all clear youu out of my mind.

as much as i am saying that i like youu, i dont talk to youu. we dont communicate as we used to when we were friends. i mean we still are but we are just not talking like we used to.

even last time a small minor problem youu are facing, youu would come up to me and ask for my opinion. how i think about it or how youu should do to make things right.

now, none of this had ever happened. i know its because of the college life in a way but i didnt even dare to spend time talking to youu about anything.

and i am not going to tell youu how i felt at any point of time. but i would at least hope that i have the guts to communicate with youu like i did before.

i am going to make this sound like what i did to youu cause its what i treasured about youu last year. youu may know who youu are. but just act as though youu dont. if youu didnt notice, it would be even better.

i missed all of it.

• the day we had a party and youu look like a lost kid which needed his friends. i knew it that day when youu asked for my help to get rid off her, that was the day i couldnt say no to youu. i would try my best to help dont matter what.

• the stories that youu told me about how your relationship worked out but mainly i was just wanting to talk to youu more.

• the days where i would stand at the walk way on the left side of the gate just to hear youu talk and just to say bye.

• smsed youu practically everyday and everytime it started by "heyy, what r doing?''

• convinced youu to go study together in school.

• waking youu up early in the morning cause youu said youu want to study.

youu've walked together with me through my spm month. i know youu have not noticed how much you've helped but i did.

i had adore youu in every single possible angle that i could. your eyes, your smile, your laughters, your words, and youu yourself.

and also the way youu look so high upon yourself in such a cute way. your goofy cute look and the hot sexy look. your eyes is enough to make me feel like i was sleeping on a water bed.

but i was always just an observer. never been the used of those looks.

all this had always been only about me. i dont expect anything.

and now, i should let it all go. i should stop having the word youu in my blog anymore. it should all stop.

i am tired already. tired of standing beside youu and act as though i dont like youu. i am tired of it.

dont worry about it, i am giving up. i was just another secret admirer of yours and now i wont be anymore.

with lots of love,
shereena.

it had been a rough weekend. well... it started off pretty well by me going back to my hometown for a weekend to celebrate the mooncake festival as i wasnt actually back there since chinese new year i guess. or probably not but i know i havent been back for a while.

going back is equivalent to good food, good rest and also more free times.

had my first driving without my instructor and also a kancil. and i did pretty well. it wasnt an auto but i had fun with a manual. won 4 bucks on mahjong. well.... i havent been winning much for some time.

the first day started off real well. staying up till 3 with the companion of my laptop and my movies. it was my only partner at 1 in the morning. everyone was too busy in their dreams. and also i had some other person to sms with but... after like 4 messages, he fell asleep. i dont know why, i just love talking to him. makes me feel not me.

unfortunately, i had a rough night. i couldnt sleep well and my nose failed me. terrible flu the whole night and also means terrible breathing problems that night also.

took abit too much of my inhaler and over dosed myself. yeah.... you know, all the trembling and fast heartbeats. that sort of thing.

mum had been trying to get my butt of the chair to get me to a doctor but i told i was fine which i know i wasnt but you know... the keep her of worrying about me.

i really thought i didnt have to visit a doctor because i havent blacked out yet. i was still surviving. but it was to the extend that i would really pass out on myself.

the breathing was bad. i could hardly feel myself anymore. i thought i was going to have my first pass out in my life. even a simple walk from the hall to the kitchen made me feel like i was floating on the floor.

not to say, up the stairs and to the room to get my stuff, my heart was about the beat out of my chest and air just dont seem to get in.

but after while of cooling myself down, i felt better. could at least still walk myself out to the car to come back home. in the car, i still had the time to sms lim qi hong to check out on him.

got home, and i knew i wasnt able to make it to college the next morning. college means stairs. stairs means a near black out. i better not take the risk.

so i was home the whole day after a visit to the doctor.

and now, i happily blogging without feeling a single problem. asthma had always followed me throughout my life. and i am sure i will make i through dont matter what.

after all, there are plenty of stuff that i wouldnt let myself leave behind. and alot other things that i didnt have a chance planting my fingers on. so yeah... i am fine and will be fine.

i dont need another person to get involve in my life anymore. she left you a sms to tell you that i wasnt feeling well and all you said was "i didnt receive the sms".

well... let me tell you this, pal?!, these are all plain bullshits. if you think you deserve my respect towards you, give me some respect as well. dont expect me to acknowledge who you are when you walk in my front door and act as though you were this noble fella that done nothing wrong.

and fyi, you dont earn my respect towards you. you are just equivalent to a nobody in my life. so live with it... pal?!

i know its just words but it is a piece of my mind.

youu, maybe it is time to just let go. but i still can bear letting youu go just yet. the feeling of youu in my sight, brought me twiching in my heart.

yours truly,
sher.

last time tuition was a really really fun thing to go for. with friends that had been together for years in the same place studying together and also other friends which we dont even know they existed before to a group of friends which was really close.

and the teacher was really really nice to give us so many extra classes without charging and when pmr arrived, she even lend us her room for us to study. talking about Miss Lim, i havent been hearing from her much. but i have to sincerely thank her!

i miss the group of friends. but once having such great people around is definately better than not having at all. its all great memories.

how nice if i was just a form 3 kid and dont have to worry about whatever i am worrying about now. but life has to go on somehow.

recently college had been really really off the hook. off the hook in the sense that things are getting more and more tough, exams is just a month and the half away, and the life is getting more and more boring.

its good hearing from qi hong especially after he went to malacca. eventhough our conversations are not long, at least i know he is doing fine. despite the complains he had been giving. hahah!

nowadays even if i want to come online and blog, i dont even know what to write already. life wasnt as intresting as it was for me before.

and now, i am seriously craving for landing my fingers on the steering wheel on an auto car. manual just isnt my type but it is exam type. sighs. and shit!

youu, words about youu dont seem to come out from my mouth already.

truly,
sher.