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first, i changed my blogskin, blog header and the fonts. ((((: i was getting sick of my plain white old blogskin already.

but i am not sure whether you people manage to see it like the way i do or not. cause i am not sure how long it'll take to load or whether will it even load.

up above is how it should look like. :D

yesterday by the time i realised i didn't blog, it was already 1 am. so i guess i shall combined today's post and yesterdays short recap together.

lets start with yesterday. i went down to the city to meet up with sheau tien and jia shen. had japanese food for lunch. finally to me, it feels more proper japanese lunch. (:

i think i haven't seen tien for almost a year already lo. before jia shen came and join us, we were talking about the old tuition times. last time don't matter how bad a day is at school, at tuition it was always fun.


after lunch, went to loong's apartment sit down and talk then walked over to supre to have a look cause tien wanted to find some dress but didn't manage to.

walked over to flinders and took a train back. it was a sunday so i had no bus service and i had to walk home. ): and the sun was soooo hot! argh.

in the evening something triggered my mood till i was so piss. but in the end felt bad and apologized. hmmm.. to others i am usually not that nice.

at night was just the usual. dinner, tv and online. ooh ohh and skype with my family back home cause cousin had his house warming and everybody was there and i am here alone. )))): seriously EVERYBODY!

now i miss family gatherings. ):

i slept at 4 oclock in the morning. hence waking up at 1.30 pm today. hehee. i feel so shy to walk to the toilet knowing julian would know i just woke up. ahaha!

spent the whole afternoon fixing my blog in my pajamas and ate nothing at all. finally went downstairs at 6 something cause i smell food. :DD and then had dinner.


watched vampire diaries on tv just now. seems not bad. now those are hot vampires. not like the on screen edward cullen. that one is only describable in one word, EWW!

then watched one episode of supernatural. and now i am already in my room, thinking of what i could do for the night. cause i realised today i've used up 500mb already. don't know how the hell it is so much when i didn't even stream or download any movie. )):

okayy la. maybe i'll watch the remaining series in my hard disk.

nights yo!

lots of love,

went out with jia shen today. his bro and him came to fetch me cause they were on their way back from the airport and my place is kinda near to the airport. (:

jia wei dropped us off at the city then we both went to st. kilda beach. just went there to sit down, enjoy the breeze and talk. they got me an egg tart. it was hot yet cold? the wind is cold but the sun is really hot.

i felt like i've gone darker. yaya you people out there don't talk so much. you know who you guys are.

after that we went to eat fish and chips. then left back to the city. cause i had to go back earlier in order to catch my bus.

we went our separate ways from bourke street. cause i wanted to go to QV to get some stuff and jia shen was heading back to loong's apartment at unilodge for some rest.

mum had been asking me to get a laundry bag for my room. and after so long i have been told, i only got it today for $5. and i bought two packets of chips for $5 and two bars of chocolate for 75c each.

hehee.

came home and went out for a jog. i really need it.

got home and fed sparky and went up to my room and fell asleep infront of my laptop for an hour.

i figured i shouldn't each so much after the jog so i only had two eggs and some mangoes. but mana tau when aunty doris got home, she was baking little quiches and i helped and also ate like 3.

but its niceee. and simple to make also. (((:

watched titanic on tv. it's so sad. it's an epic love story and it's really sad. but leonardo dicaprio was cutee then. now more man but not cutee anymore. hmmm...

i think i am going to continue episode 32 of born rich. i am gonna stream it online. then go to bed.

i am meeting jia shen and sheau tien at melbourne central at 12pm.

currently talking to tim about making my shopping experience more fruitful. hmmmm... but also waiting for him to go and ta pau his mcd. ahah! :D

today, i saw so many of it. i guess around 3? it's like whenever the thought comes to mind, i suddenly see one in front of me.

why does it has to mess with my mind like that? sigh.

aiyoyo. ini celine ahh always about food only ah. chatting with her makes me hungry already. apa laa..


with lovee,
sher xoxo.

i never thought i would still tear over a post i posted 5 months ago. i think if i wouldn't have so much of empty times by myself where it gives me sooo many chances to think and think and thus jumble up all my thoughts and make the worse out of it, i don't think i will actually tear anymore over that.

it wasn't anything significant anymore as far as i could tell.

now i have a new goal. hopefully i will achieve it. i need to start looking forward and aim for something and work towards it and stop sitting there lazily and watch my series.

i was saying to a friend that i wasn't ready to feel again what i felt a few months back. i guess i am being afraid to commit to anything. afraid of the outcome because time after time it always proves my predictions right.

i am very tired of being that person. that person that gives so much and also hope to get something in return but the hopes will always end up with a disappointment.

all that happened really scared me. stuffs that happened gave me very bad judgements and made me so afraid to feel again.

my choices and judgements were already bad for myself. now it is getting worse. how am i going to trust myself in making anymore decision or even just to choose anymore?

it is just so hard to keep up with the pace of life nowadays. its like i am dreading over whatever that is going to happen next.

dreading over people i'll meet, studies that are coming along, feelings that i would feel. its like i am making the worse out of all this. like the success won't be significant at all.

i always take in everything by myself and try my hardest to digest it all but how long would i manage by myself?


but this thought always hides behind my mind. "becareful of what you wish for"~

i guess all this obstacles and thoughts and happenings just makes out life. life is full of crap yet full of the unexpected and also full of hopes.

shereena.

does this consider being home sick?

i really really miss my friends. those that i am close with yet don't talk often with. now is the time of the year where everyone is having their holidays and their free. it's usually the time where we will meet up and talk and talk and talk and get sick of each other.

it is just different here. maybe the fact that i barely knew a new friend here. all i have is jia shen being around to prolly go out with for lunch during weekends.

other than that, my friend is my laptop, my aunt's dog sparky. i am always in my room either surfing the net or watching my shows. back at home, i rarely spend time in my room.

once the phone rings to wake me up, we will go for lunch or just out of the house. at night once the phone rings as well, i'll be out sitting somewhere and crapping away with the rest.

i don't only miss the feeling of that but i really miss the people.

i am not the person that makes friend easily and get close with them. well there are some exceptions but the big part of it is i am not that person.

everything about melbourne is great. everything except that i don't have much friends.

i am really not the person that gels with people soo easily. it's been 4 months plus. but yet i haven't got use to this fact yet.

in short, i just miss everybody back at home. ):

woke up at 9.15 am today. cause i had to check up about the weather and transfer money before i could get out of the house. i printed the two vouchers thingy then left the house to catch the 10.06 am bus.

mana tau reached essendon only i realised i didn't take. so i took a bus came home and ran out to catch the 10.46 am bus. 11 something i was already in the city.

whenever i am at the city, alone and with the thought of going to shop, i will definitely go in supre. go and look through the $5 rack and start searching for stuff that are worth it for $5.


and and... i bought 2 dresses and one top. or more like a long top. $5~

now ahhh i have been buying alot of bold coloured clothes. usually last time i wont wear one. i guess i need more colours in my life. :D

then went to the adidas store on bourke street to check things out. but it was like chaotic in there. so many people grabbing shoe boxes, tonnes of tshirts and accessories. well, if you were to earn aussie dollar, it is sooo worth it i tell you.

after that went up to rebel sport to check out jersey sizes just in case if i wanted to get a spain jersey online.

then hopped onto the 96 tram to get to the new dfo at south wharf. on tuesday i already had my eyes on a hoodie soooo lastly i bought it today.


i likeeee the colours. very colourful and i have been looking for a white hoodie. i even met alicia there too. ferns friend from sam.

walked around to get the dress for my cousin from jeanswest. then headed for home. i restrained myself from entering anymore shops. later see see then want to buy again.

but but the adidas store in dfo is a factory outlet so things are cheaper there. since i had the voucher i might as well get something.

i bought a tshirt for lim qi hong as early birthday present. then get cherly to take it back for me. just in time for his birthday. (((:

then i came home. was home around 4 pm.

first thing i did was switch on my laptop and started downloading 90210 and one tree hill. it was done within an hour then i watched it.

had daal and prata for dinner. aunty cook.

now, i just finished watching two episodes of born rich. and i shall continue watching somemore till i get tired then go to sleep then tomorrow continue again.

oklaaaa. too much words already i find.

bye!


lots of love,
sher xoxo.

hey hey!

today was just like any other days to start off. woke up almost 12 pm and had to go downstairs and get my laundry done.

cooked TWO packets of indomie and and egg for brunch. i loveee it. typing this now makes me hungry pula. ahah.

took out all the clothes to shine and went online don't know doing what also. i was looking through ugg boots website. but nehh i don't think it'll get it.

then around 3 something jia shen said he is coming to pick me already. but only like 4.45 pm only he reached cause of the jam and stuff.

went with him to the airport to fetch his dad then went to the city to fetch his brother. then off to richmond's pacific house for dinner.

it was uncle's treat. (: got home around 7.30 pm. if i wouldn't have went out with them, i think i will be at home cooking another two packets of indomie or prolly fried some rice.

oooh and jia shen was kind enough to download Born Rich for me. hehe. thank you!

i have to check out some motel rates on phillip island cause i think we are going there for two days when cherly and ferns gets here. hmmm.. penguins~~

now, i just done with america's next top model cycle 13. i am so tempted to stream 90210 episode 11 online cause i am waiting impatiently for the torrent to be uploaded. maybe i'll stream after this then download it later. :D

and i'll be up early tomorrow to go down to the city and go shopping again.



all i have to do is print this out and bring it with me tomorrow. and my cousin asked me to get her the dress i bought from jeanswest. and i need to get 10x2 ticket and also go check out jersey sizes.

oklaaa.. tengok series dulu. bye bye!

with love,
shereena.

hello!

finally..... my internet is up and going again! 20gb of data not enough la. uploads and downloads mana enough. if only for me one person prolly can la. but sharing with julian as well sooo its abit limited.

hopefully he'll upgrade it or something.

quick recap. Saturday i went over to jia shen's to get some shows then had japanese lunch at carnegie then just went walking around the city. went over to the new dfo.

Sunday i met up with jia shen for lunch. supposingly wanted to go lunch with audrey but she wasn't free so was only jia shen. had mcd at melbourne central. wanted to catch a movie but it was not that cheap and not many seats left. went over to docklands, lygon for freddo ice cream.

yesterday, stayed at home watching Born Rich. tvb drama that i got from jia shen. ((((:

today, i was out from 10 oclock in the morning right up till 5 something in the evening. i went shopping! alone. ):

cause when i was at the new dfo with jia shen i couldn't shop. that fella is sooo boring to shop with. soo today i went to supre on bourke street and the new dfo.



bought this two dresses from supre for $5 each. but i lost one side of my earring in the fitting room. )): my heart shape earring from chiang mai. ))))):


and this is also $5 from jeanswest. it is a two piece. bought it from the new dfo.

feels sooo weird that i haven't been blogging for a few days when i want to but i can't. was trying to check my blog on my aunt's laptop yesterday while i was transferring money but her work laptop block blogger.

dicky is in australia already! but i don't think i will meet up with him also. but it sounds good having a friend in the same country as you. feels nearer.

tomorrow i need to wake up earlier to do laundry. and then going out dinner with jia shen and his bro and his dad. ahaha! i know. very out of the blue.

oklaaaa. i ciao dulu. need to skype with mum to see how my house is after some paint work and some renovation. and catch up with my shows.

i can't wait till cherly comes here! my shopping kaki! and my best friend! ((((:

hmmm... sigh.. i never knew love was this hard and tiring. i'll never let myself go through such pain. all of this, seriously totally opposite from my believes to love. sigh.

loves,
sher xoxo.

js is hot <3 NO!

he perasan and blog himself. my internet limit reached already. ))): only the start of next month i could get back online.

currently blogging off jia shen's computer. stupid fella!

maybe later go city makan and i want to shop a while. saw advertisement said a pair of ballet flats from rivers only $15. wanna go see see. (:

ciao!

oh yes! uh-huh! oh yea!! IT'S OVER!!

no words can possibly describe how relieved i am that exams are over. i couldn't sleep yesterday night because i kept on thinking about my programming paper today.

i answered all the questions but doesn't mean that whatever i answered was right. and if i pass, that is seriously one hell of a miracle.

okay enough of that. it's over!

after exams around 12 pm i took a train to box hill and met up with jo ann. (: gosh it had been so long since i last saw her. january i think?

went for lunch and had a good catch up. she is still the same. no difference. after that she had to rush for her dentist appointment so she had to leave at 2 pm.

it wasn't a long catch up but it was still a catch up. :D by now, she should be at the airport on her way back to malaysia already.

the next i'll see her is prolly next june?

now i have no idea what to do since it is holidays. maybe one day i'll go back uni and download all the movies i want and stream online series and watch or something. or i could go shopping. (((((:

but the coming days of melbourne's weather seems to be very wet. alot of rain. until saturday or sunday i think. then maybe i'll only go out next week.

damn, i am seriously very very very relieved!

oklaaaa. i should either catch up with my sleep or watch some movies and make my sleeping time go haywire again.

love ya'll.
shereena.

today's exam was not bad. the paper was abit tough but i know i will definetely pass. BUT will i get the credit or a distinction? i don't know...

tomorrow's paper is the most crucial. i am feeling all kinds of emotions. seriously all kinds. i feel like crying. i feel my heart is beating out of my chest. i feel butterflies in my stomach. i am feeling cold sweat starting to form.

ughhhhhh!

please just let me get over and done with it soon. i will wake up at 3 something in the morning to study more. and then leave the house by 7 am.

))))))): i don't even know whether i can fall asleep later or not also.

i am sooo tired and sick of the feelings i am feeling. i ended up switching on the tv and watch Celebrity Masterchef.

and yay! remember the swimmer dude i blogged about? Eamon Sullivan? he won! the food they all cook looks so damn good.

tomorrow after my exam, i am going to buy something to release some of my stupid nonsense crap kind of stress.

time time please pass by as fast as could for tomorrow!

oh and i don't even know whether am i able to meet up with jo tomorrow after my exam or not. if i don't, i'll see her next year then. ):

k laaaa..

need to go and sleep. MUST.

wish me luck!
sher xoxo.

this coming four years would be the ladder to the tip of my life. but the starting base of this ladder doesn't feel steady or strong.

alot is sacrificed to try and make this a success. not to mention to cost and effort. the cost is huge and i can't afford to just keep trying and trying. i need to just have it only once and strike it.

programming is literally killing me and this is just the start. only the start. there is still more to come. i know if more time is given, i would nail it. but... there isn't much time.

this is just so annoying and it brings down my mood so badly. whenever people ask about it i tend to always say its okay. its not bad. but i really don't know anymore.

the exam is on thursday. i have to get at least 50% for the paper in order to pass the whole subject. if i don't, i don't know how to say or what to say to make me feel better and make things right.

no doubt after thursday i would feel slightly lighter cause exams are over but the results would be published on the 12th of december. what am i going to do then? it is just really frustrating knowing almost 80% of the chances of how it would turn out to be but yet hoping that the other 20% of chances would happen instead.

DAMN.

and it's only my first semester. great...

had to go down to the city to meet up with the rest of the s9s for lunch but it was raining so heavily for me to walk down to the station.

so i had julian to send me to the station. (: reached melbourne central then jia shen called. went to loong's apartment with him a while to check on some stuff then met up with the rest.

went to Ying Thai 2 at lygon street. the food was not bad. (:

reached home around 5 pm. cause i went to pancake parlour and had short stacks with jia shen and just went walking around the city.

it rained so much today. since yesterday's evening. it doesn't usually rain this much in melbourne. well its rare to see not don't happen.

i watched australian idol's finale. and Stan Walker won the australian idol. (:


he deserves to win. he can really sing. :D

the amount of fireworks on idol just now is like so much. malaysia's merdeka day's fireworks also not as much as this. i think the amount of fireworks at the sydney opera house just now can make two years of fireworks at the dataran merdeka on merdeka day.

well... the aussie's idol isn't as grand as the american one. soo not much performance la. there was mika, guy sebastian, wes carr, ricki lee and and.... michael buble. (((:

michael's songs seems to catch my attention alot these recent year. and i had no idea that he is like a joker. as in he jokes alot infront of live audience.


i used to not find him sexy. but he has an amazing voice and his songs somehow speaks for itself. that's a credit i'll definetely give him. he is sexy now. (:

i shall go to sleep earlier today. i am going to have three very long days coming up ahead of me. argh.... programming is literally killing me in my mind. i keep thinking and thinking when i have the time. )))):

going back to uni tomorrow. MUST. so i'll sleep early and make sure i could get up.

hmmm.. sometimes you wonder who or how "the one" will look like. would it be the person you least expect? hmm...?

well.... good night!

loves,
shereena.

yesterday's dinner was at Laksa King at newmarket. aunty didn't want to cook dinner cause she was going out so we had an early dinner at 6 something.

had their chicken curry laksa.

it was not bad. alot of santan though. and like not enough spices. not liek the authentic kind but still not bad.

i was watching Impact yesterday night. long movie though.


very typical story line. something like Armageddon. it was still nice to watch.

sometimes after the cousin finishes work, he would sit on the table at the living room and just talk to us. once in a while its good. (:

nowadays i wake up very late already. maybe cause i slept late kua.

today was boring. programming is killing me. maths is as usual. i have to start allocating my summer term classes on monday evening.

i had terrible terrible headache just now. DAMN bad. haven't had it for quite a while. and its horrible.

now is pouring in melbourne. had been raining since 6 i think.

tomorrow i will be out for lunch with the S9s. cause michelle and ernest is going back on monday already.

i can't wait till thursday's exam is over. i really really can't wait!

oklaaa. nights peeps!

much love,
sher xoxo.

it's the 600th post. (:

i started this two and a half years ago. before that i used to think blogging is a waste of time. now, i am practically posting almost every day.

it became a place where i rant my problems and the discomforts. also became a place where is type down my everyday life, the good and bad memories. memories that is just clicks away to be refreshed.

i hardly remember what happens on the exact particular day. and this helps me alot. brought me back to the person i was before and the difference between then and now.

six hundred seems like it had been a long way back.

anyway, yesterday i was too hooked on Oddee till it was like 1 am. and i just got too lazy to blog. nothing much happened yesterday anyway.

i went to DFO with aunty doris, came home, ate dinner with julian because aunty doris went out for a party and watched tv then came up to my room and was hooked on Oddee and some celeb gossips sites.

dinner was awkward i think? i don't dine with him alone at all before. was trying to avoid the awkward silence. but it wasn't that bad.

the melbourne weather is going from hot one day to cold one day. very fluctuating. its like dark and gloomy now already.

today is supposed to be 34 degrees and tomorrow is 23 degrees. see the big difference in between?

i was supposed to go to uni today to used the internet connection and get some notes. but i couldn't wake up so i lazy go already. now i am at home trying to study.

i can't wait till my exams are over man. been stressing my mind out like nobody's business.

i've been trying to get hold of my close friends to tell them personally about it. but i don't seem to be able to catch hold of them. bad timing i guess.

anyway, its already a done deal. i'll be back in june. (((((: for a month and ten days. :D it has been quite a few days already since i bought the ticket.

sooo... hello malaysia in seven months!

figured i should go back to see my grandparents and the rest of the family and to eat cheap food. my grandparents are getting less younger by the day so i figured i should go back.

anyway if i am here, i still had to spent like $500 a month? might as well get the ticket for $300 plus and go home and the remaining $100 plus convert it into ringgit and spent it back home. not so bad i guess.

well... there it is. home. (:

some will read this and already know. but as soon as i could get hold onto you people, i'll tell you again. ahahah!

damn, it is seriously getting dark and gloomy. it isn't very convincing for me to concentrate on the notes i am having now. siennnn.... ):

oklaaaa. bye you guys!

much love,
sher xoxo.

one down two more to go.

i didn't blog yesterday cause i figured i needed as much sleep as i can cause i planned to wake up at 4 am to study.

i went to bed at 11.15 pm, tossed and turned around the bed but i couldn't sleep. it's like i have to sleep but i just can't seem to fall asleep.

well... the last time i checked the clock before i actually dosed off was 12 am. my alarm went off at 3.15 am cause knowing myself i will snooze the alarm for another half an hour.

but no, it woke me up. it's too early anyway so i slept for another 45 minutes. and suprisingly, i woke up without even pressing the snooze button.

i think my mind is too focus about me having an exam today.

woke up at studied and got ready and left the house to catch the 7.06 am. i was at southern cross station at 7.45 am.

well... my morning didn't start off that well. felt a bit nauseous cause i think it was too early for me to have breakfast and then ran after that.

but it got better. thank god.

arrived at the venue an hour earlier yet i see soooo many people camping beside the road with their notes and highlighted slides.

the doors were open 10 minutes to 9 am.

the paper wasn't so bad. i definitely won't fail. its matter of a pass or a credit or a distinction. i left 2 hours after it started.

walked over to southern cross. went walking around DFO. then hopped onto the tram to swanston street. and mind me, i hopped it for free. (: i was scared that i was going to be unlucky and bump into a tram officer.

i mean i had my ticket but i just didnt want to validate it yet. you know just in case?

while i was walking to melbourne central, i bumped into michelle. she just had her last paper and she seemed rather excited and happy that she's going back to malaysia next monday.

i guess today will be last i'll see her till next year after she gets back.

walked around melbourne central and took the train home. went off at moonee ponds and walked along puckle street and caught a bus home.

by the time i was home, it was already 4 pm.

i was actually feeling so sleepy in the bus but when i got home, i couldn't sleep so i was blog hopping. ((:

and went to sleep at around 6.15 pm for an hour.

had pasta for dinner and watched celebrity masterchef. Eamon Sullivan. ((((: he was so close to getting eliminated off from the competition.

then watched NCIS los angeles and the normal NCIS. came up, skyped with mum for abit and here i am.

today is like a sorta day off for me? i shall continue the nerdy me tomorrow.

well....... good night. :D

loves,
shereena.