just a normal friday afternoon.

woke up at 12 pm today. i feel so like back home but yet not. i slept at 3 am and woke up at 12 pm. well.. its so typical of me back home in malaysia. but... now i wake up late and i am not alone at home and everybody else is already awake.

it just feels awkward to walk down the stairs when everybody is at the kitchen lingering around. and having the cousin to say "good morning shereena" at 12 pm? weird somehow...

ate instant noodle for brunch. i always had a thing for instant noodle. (:


watched bones for a bit. its actually quite an interesting series. the cases are so rare and the technologies are soo good plus they have more than normal conversations on sexual things?

watching it with my mum and uncle when they say those things are sooo awkward. seriously. i dont know whether should i laugh at it or pretend i didnt catch the dirty jokes. hmmm...

watched two episodes on season 4 and went upstairs and start reading my book.

five people you meet in heaven? sounds interesting.

in fact it is my present from tim that ferns went to buy and came late to the airport to send me off. and it seems the book is a life changer? according to tim, its a good book. lets see about that.

jo ann smsed me saying that she is out shopping cause she has an international ball tomorrow. its been quite a while since i actually talked to her. i guess everyone had been busy.

around 5 something 6 i helped mum to prepare dinner. she was making wantons. i actually really helped. unbelievable? just believe it.

had a good dinner, bathed and saw a miss call on my phone from jia shen. so i called him back. i am meeting him tomorrow at melbourne central at 12 pm.

but before that i think i am going out with the family to footscray and to some shoe shop. with cheap prices. i am really looking for a pair of boots. :D

watched so you think you can dance and now i am here. thought of catching some 90210 before i sleep since i am not chatting with anyone at the moment.

and i think i am only able to catch one episode maximum. i have to wake up at 8 am tomorrow. thats early!

oklaaaaa. ciao people! goodnight!

love,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Here Comes Goodbye - Rascal Flatts

day 4 in melbourne.

left the house by 10 am to catch the 10.05 am bus. well the bus stop is just around the corner which take less than a minute to reach. (:

the nearest bus stop.

hopped on the bus and stop at Essendon train station. then took the train down to Melbourne central. cause i needed to go to QV's three phone shop to get my phone and my new number.

the nokia e63 is actually kinda cool. there is wi-fi. (:

then went to Victoria market. cause needed to get some food to cook for dinner. some meat and some asparagus.

their wet market is soooo clean. unlike those is malaysia.

walked around Vic market for abit and i bought another woolen cardigan. i've been eyeing on this since my last trip here which was last year march. $25.

ate spanish donuts. churros! i love them. i kept on eating and eating. 7 for $6. not too bad.

on the way walking back to Melbourne Central station, i stopped by Hudsons Coffee to try out White Hot Chocolate which tim's sister, sue yee said it was nice.

it was kinda good but i am just not so keen to hot drinks yet.

took the train back and stopped at Essendon and then ran for the bus and came home. i notice the buses are actually kinda empty all the time. hmmm...

messaged a few people to try out my number and see. the few people was sheng loong and jo ann. its been so long since i've heard from jo. at least i had one reply from her.

i slept from 3 up to like 6 something. it was a good sleep. but halfway through, jia shen called me saying that calling him would be cheaper than smsing. in fact i think its free? not so sure of the rates yet.

had pasta for dinner. i so love it. aunt cooks good pasta! and i hope i wont put on much weight. i wonder...

watched some tv shows and now i am here blogging. had a chat with my cousin, joyce. i guess the fact that i left hasnt quite got her into yet.

the woolen cardigan that i bought today.

oklaaa... i think i am off to somemore 90210. i like that show. since i dont have to wake up early tomorrow. i can stay up late tonight. (:

much love,
shereena.

music addiction : Always Be My Baby - David Cook

direct factory outlet.

woke up around 9 something. had breakfast. something so unusual for me back home in malaysia. i dont have breakfast back home. and now i am having half boiled eggs which i hated back home. weird.

walked down to the train station.

the hill i dread to walk up.

thats the hill i have to walk up whenever i take a train home. these few days that i am here, i havent walked up yet cause i've been taking the bus home. but seriously lo. tiring. ):

the train station.

the nearest stop to get to my aunt's house.

reached melbourne central within 20 minutes. its really not a far journey to travel. seriously.

Nokia E63.

went to get my phone thing done today but i had a chat with my cousin yesterday and he wanted the Nokia E63 instead of the samsung. and apparently it can be change but i have to wait for a couple more hours.

had to redo the whole agreement thingy so i needed to get a new number. the new number seems not bad. :D

after that me, mum and uncle walked down to southern cross sation. the DFO is just there. went in and hunt for my boots and just browse through some shops. was keeping an eye on a white pair of Ck jeans but i dont see them.

in the end i bought stuff for myself. (:

lunch. lipton red tea. <3>

speaking of red tea, ferns, remember we will buy this to drink for lunch whenever we are at jusco? i know i like it. i heard tim likes it too.

perfume in melbourne is cheap. wayyy cheaper than home. not way cheaper but cheaper. i saw this blue one thinking i should get it for a birthday present so it should remind her of me. but lets see how. i can go there anytime to get it.

then walked down the docklands. its a waterfront sort of place. the breeze from the sea was good. so chilly yet nice. (:

the waterfront.

the stadium facing the waterfront.

after that we took train back to moonee ponds from southern cross station. nice station though. very umm... i dont know how to say. well most of the trains leaves from there. like to sydney or ballarat. i am not sure if they have it in flinders. maybe they do? since flinders is also like the main one?

southern cross station.

the craigieburn line. the line i had to take.

went off the train at moonee ponds station. then walked along the row of shops again. i like going into thir chemists. its like guardian and watsons back home. but they sell perfumes. genuine yet cheap. so many varieties. (:

the bus stop to wait for the 501 bus to get home.

came home and watched more of 90210. i am starting to like it. hot hot guys! and girls are pretty too. somehow this is the only series i am agreeing in pretty girls.

the stuff i bought.

scarf for $5. the black cardigan for $10. good buy eh? i like them. (: thats all for today.

now, i am trying to find out what is stupid tang kah tim lying to me about. he is making me thinking that he really lied.

stupid fella. where are you? in china or back or somewhere else? i am sure he is hiding something to make me annoyed. hmmm..

but i am feeling honoured cause he said "i miss u shereena" when he never said it to anyone else? but well.. thats just what he says. anyway it really did sounded gay for a bit. ahah! (:

k laaa~! off to bed soon. i am getting tired easily here. you see, things i dont do back home i do it here. i dont sleep early back home! and now i am. amazingly hard to believe.

with love,
shereena.

music addiction : Her Diamonds - Rob Thomas

meeting a friend! :D

woke up around 9.30 am cause had to be at flinders street station at 11 am to meet up with jia shen.

my room.

a huge big mirror.

got ready and left for the train station. had to walk down though. but i dont mind the walking down. i just dont like the walking up.

the road taken almost everyday?

either here for the train or the one around the corner for the bus.

was there on time and waited for him. was with my mum and my uncle. its fun meeting a friend over the seas. i guess the same excitement i had went i met up with qi hong in singapore?

but well these excitements will go away soon enough since this isnt a vacation trip for me.

went to open my bank account at Westpac bank at 90 collins street. the guy there is pretty friendly. settled everything. have one normal daily use account and a savings account. banked in my bank draft too.

went for lunch at chinatown. they all had duck rice and i had beef noodles.

and then went to get my phone number and sign up for the plan. had jia shen to refer me so we both get $25 credit? i suppose? not sure.

my new phone. samsung F480.

same as jia shen but i dont think i'll be using it. i guess i'll give it to my cousin to use back in malaysia. i am happy with my blue phone! ahaha! (: blueeeee..

then went with jia shen to get his groceries at safeway. but all he got was a packet of cereal. i am really fascinated with the self check out counters. cool!

got my new sets of keys. one of the key is BLUE and the other is flowery red? the flower is yellow. but damn expensive. hmmm..

jia shen left after that though. it was already 2 something 3.

from melbourne central we walked back to flinders station and took the Craigieburn line back home. stopped at Moonee Ponds though cause wanted to try to hop on the bus to get home.

had to walk through this row of shops before reaching the bus stops so as you know me, i was window shopping-ing. ahah!

saw some boots. wanted to buy though but i guess i should keep my options open before i decide? later i see something nice, i regret. the boots aint cheap. $100 or $150 per pair?

went to the chemist to get some stuff. they have nice perfumes there with cheap prices! seriously. i now like the fantasy from britney spears. 50ml for $25. cheap!

at the bus stop.

in the bus.

buses in aussie is wayyyy better. bus in subang sucks. seriously. they stink and people in the bus are weird excluding me. well just some are weird.

the bus trip home was nice. i am considering to take this more often.


stayed at home and watched 90210. the room became dark as the sun was setting down. it was around 6 pm?

ate dinner and continued my 90210. i now like that show. there are hot guys!! (:

well.. me and my hot guys. melbourne seems to be the place for me to scout hot white guys. everywhere i go, i'll see one. :D

k laaaa. i am sort of getting sleepy. yes i know. its early and unlike me but seriously. i guess my sleeping time are finally going back to normal?

bye people~!

loves,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Thunder - Boys Like Girls

quiet.

its 12.35 am. i feel a sudden quietness. really damn quite lo here. everyone else in the house is asleep. i shall now get use to sleeping slightly earlier.

its good that i get to go online. i get to catch up with people i am missing already. yay! i am seeing jia shen tomorrow. :D :D

good night malaysia. good morning australia. <3

say hello to melbourne!

finally i get to go online.

qi hong drove me to airport yesterday. talked to him as much as i could. ferns, steph, yao yun and cherly came after that. then jack, chun kit, hong jiun, adrian, keng yew and shelaine.

i cried. qi hong was the one who made me started crying. i will miss him alot. as he wont be coming to aus also. steph might be coming over for hols end of this year. yao yun and cherly coming over next year! ferns going for holidays maybe?

teck wei called me. i called qi hong. smsed the rest.

the whole journey here, i watched 90210 till 3 am malaysia time and slept for 2 hours. horrible two hours. i cant find a comfortable spot to sleep.

cherly got me a pair of earring. steph and her touching letter. kah tim gave me a book. those were the gifts i got at the very last moment so it was in my hand carry.

reached around 6.30 am malaysian time. which is 8.30 am aussie time. came home, ate breakfast, talked a little bit then left to Swinburne to check some things with the office people then went t walk around.

the campus is quite big. a train station right in the middle of the campus. Glenferrie station. orientation next monday.

shall see whether got hot guys and nice people to make friends with or not.

despite my oh-so-lanci-face, i have great people back home which are my close friends. wondering if there are friends like that here?

reading people's blog makes me emo abit. makes me tear. but well.... everything still has to go on.

no picture yet. need to unload my bags now. i'll update soon enough.

maybe meeting jia shen tomorrow?

oklaaaa... take care people!! i love all of you and missing my friends!!

lots and lots of love,
shereena.

goodbyes.

i should already left malaysia. provided the flight isn't delayed. this is a scheduled post.

i am leaving to melbourne to continue my studies. and should be there for 4 years or more (maybe?). sighs. as much as i want to be back for all my semester breaks, i dont think i will unless there are really special events happening back here or when there are really really cheap airfares or really really long holidays.

one year once. maybe? i dont know.

my first overseas trip was to Melbourne when i was eight. i absolutely loved the place. and made a vow to myself that i'll be back to study there. even if i am there for a year, its enough. as long is i am there. now i am going for 4 years. wayyyy more than what i expected.

but now that i really got what i wanted and what i wished for, i am sad that i am leaving. i am sad that i am leaving all my great friends, my families back here.


no doubt my mum is leaving with me and she will be spending 3 weeks with me there but she'll soon leave me there. i had been with my mum through the most joyable moments and through the most heart piercing pain ones.

she is the person that waits for me when i get back home from anywhere. even how sleepy she is, she'll wait. she always call to see how am i. she'll always notice the quiteness in me and always ask me why. she tends to know whatever i like and whatever i am about to say even before i could speak it out.

she had be the one and only one that means soo much in my life. if it wasnt for her, i wouldnt even had a chance to fulfill my study dreams.

i love her too much. now, there wont be me there to forbid her from making those calls, protect her from all the disturbance, watch tv together at night, having her to tug me in bed everynight.

but i know she is strong enough to be fine. i love you mum! my cousins, my aunts, my uncles and also, my grandparents. my grandma from my mum's side, my grandpa from my dad's side, i will miss all of you soooooo much!

lets hope everything will be fine, everyone is healthy and please always know that i love all of you!

my friends,

cherly, i will miss you sooo much girl. i wont be able to go out and shop with you anymore and always stand by the side and see how much you shop. i wont be there for you to tell me about your shopping adventures.

i wont be able to go out yam cha with you and talk about almost everything at all. i wont get to tell you my problems straight in front of you. there wont be anymore group gossips.


there wont be anymore movies watched together. i wouldnt sit in the car you drive anymore. your very scary driving skills. we wont be taking pictures together anymore. i wouldnt be updated of your life that instant anymore.

i wont laugh along with the rest when they laugh about your tummy, your orangeness. you wouldnt be there to insult me with the rest on the directions, the "invisible me" and stuff.

i am not there to nag on you. wouldnt have you asking me about any plans for tomorrow. having you to call me to wake up for any sudden outings, even there isnt anywhere to go, we'll just go out for lunch.


i am glad that the same class in form 4 brought us this close until today. make sure that we will keep in touch. we must and i know we will. i want to know every single detail about your life and i'll keep you updated as well.

i will miss you so much. really really alot! remember what you promised me. take care of yourself please..... and get there soon! i am looking forward to continue all that there with you.

steph, i am gonna miss you babe! i wouldnt have you to cycle to my house anymore for the slightliest thing. i cant just randomly sms you about stuff. i cant talk to you bout hot guys anymore. i cant go random shopping trips with you already.

i cant drive past your house and always have that tendency to look into your house and most of the time at night, i'll see you seated in front of the computer. i cant laugh so much with you already. we cant gossip about people anymore.


i miss the taekwando times last time. i miss going to the padang with you. i miss tuition. i miss all the fun we had. all the weird things we did. even the sitting bus together to pyramid or you showing up at my doorstep and shouting out my name. i will miss all of it. i will really really miss you!!

i am not going to see you for at least till next year end. i just dont know how to imagine that. sighs. i will never be there to hear your stories and i wont be the one that you tell stories to anymore. i wont be there to laugh at how people laugh about your hair or whatever. i just wont hear that laughter of yours for a long time. and i wouldnt be able to take part into those funny insults people give you.

steph... make sure we are still close! i dont want this friendship we had all this years just go so cold and so flat after i leave. i'll really miss you alot. keep me updated and keep in touch please!

yao yun, i am going to miss you smarty pants! we wouldnt be able to joke and laugh around over something big or small. i wont be able to laugh about the funny yet sometimes lame things you say. i wont get to disturb you about how smart you are when you yourself dont like to admit it. we wont be talking so much about Jensen Ackles anymore.

i wont be here to see you doing all the absolutely random funny things anymore. no more Boob woman. no more weird things that i hear from you. we wont crap so much about hot guys anymore. i wouldnt happily volunteer to fetch you back to kk anymore.

we wouldnt go on trips together. drunk at the same time. going for the space shot for 3 times in a row. seeing you being exactly like jia shen. insulting me. those retarded faces. seeing you get drunk till you laugh and cry at the same time. asking us to keep you off the rail so you wont die. uttering out your weight proudly. ahah!

i wont force you to get into skirts or dresses anymore. i am sure you'll be glad at this. seeing you turning into another jia shen. the lessons taught. i'll just miss you la.

you also better get to Australia soon. get your ass there woman! it would be sooo fun to have you and cherly there together with me and refresh the good old times together.

please please get there soon enough! i'll miss you alot!!

qi hong, omg~! i will miss you so so so so much!! imagining the day where i wont text you everyday ranting about my life my problems or you telling me about your daily rants. i text you everyday but when i am there i cant. you also told me only limit to 5 texts per day. thats soo minimal to whatever the amount i texts you nowadays.

i will just randomly ring you up and talk. having you to make me laugh somehow yet sometimes piss me off. i cant go complaining to you about how much you go out with other girls but not me. i wont be here to disturb you about your taste in girls. i wont be here to whack you and disturb you and zha you.

i wont have you to text me in the morning to wake me up and complaining how late i wake up from bed. i cant go on shopping trips with you anymore. cant seat in your modified BMW 3 Series already. knowing that you will have sooooo much fun back here with your other girlfriends but i am not one of them.

i wont have you to lie onto when there is no one there for me to lie on. i wont have you carrying heavy stuff for me anymore. i wont be having a friend that drives me around and when i complain about the being cold, i have your jacket there for me to put on. ):

i will not see you for at least a year and a half. i wont know whether you've grown taller or became more man or something like that. i dont know how to put in words about how much i will miss you. i will miss my zhi mui, my heng dai, my dear and my darling which is you! sighs.

lim qi hong, remember this. you'll always be that friend of mine. the combination of everything. my heng dai or zhi mui or dear or the closest guy friend of mine. i will miss you soo much my dear!

ferng lin, get to melbourne laaaa. i shall pray hard that you will. i'll miss you laa stupid. we've never been close till last year's finals preparation. then to working together in the same mall. going lunch together.

going to jusco and ate cheap nasi lemak, mcd, ming tien, kfc. still remember i brought kfc into mcd just for the refillable drinks? ahaha!


you'll fetch me to work and also back from work. going to get ramly after work when i am hungry. whenever my computer is down, you'll always be called. and i always have something to ask cause i am no good at this. but you are very good at it, you computer freak! ahaha!

you influenced your manager to give me stupid nicknames. you've never stop insulting me. but yet you've been nice.

fetched me to ktm when i needed transport. going to random lunch together at kenny rogers and had me eating your muffin. i'll follow you to fetch en lin home to kemuning utama just cause i didnt feel like going home yet but ended up doing a good thing by keeping each other companied during the jam.


you offered to drive my mum's car back from kk when i couldnt drive back. you offered to come along with me just cause i wouldnt drive home myself. you've been my listener to all the problems i had with him.

just get to melbourne laa. even for the holidays or something. i want to see you there! i'll miss you laaa geek. ahahaha! no no 2gbs. wait 4 gbs! ahah!

and remember my windows 7. hahaha!

tang kah tim, i still miss you la bro. all the best yeaaaa for the uni and stuff. (:

chun kit, i'll miss you laaaa uncle!


jack, dont smoke sooooo much laaa no good for health. cut down somemore. i'll miss you tooo!

teck wei, stupid chinese~!!! unbelievable as it may seem, i'll really really miss you eventhough you insult me none stop. you've been a great friend. (:

adrian. bye blur dude! good luck in US!


jenn hsen. stupid MU supporter.


dickson! you stoooopid. ahahaah! i miss yelling at you.


walter, i'll miss you my dear friend. my high school buddy.

yew wei. bye my dear! i'll miss you.


bye liam! i'll miss you and your 'reena'. take care!


i'll miss you la sean.


khai shien, faster go melbourne laaaaa~! cepat cepat!!


wei ping!!!! i'll miss you!! (:


felix!! ahaah! i'll miss you la bro.

hong jiun. sei sor jiun!


keng yew. take care lo! (:

michelle malthew.

ee jun.

stupid wei jun!! HAHA.

shelaine and hau yang, i dont have a picture taken with the both of you. but i'll still miss you guys. (:

my dear friends, you'll always be missed.


even people i havent been seeing in ages or havent been talking to much. when i think back of the memories, i miss it all. those memories made me who i am today. and also my ex work mates. (:

goodbye everyone. i shall see you guys soon!

good bye malaysia! hello australia!!

in 12 hours, melbourne here i come.

leaving shortly already. i cant really put my emotions and feelings into words now.

have to leave the house by 7.45 and i will be going with qi hong. i am sitting his car since he also dont know the way to lcct plus my mum also asked me to follow him.

some of my closest friends will all be there.

thankfully i am not flying alone so even if they all come to send me off, i dont feel so damn horrible.

i know i am going to cry. sigh.

bye everybody! please take care people!! i will be back for holidays. just not so sure when yet. lets all hope for the best. (: (: (:

lots of love,
shereena.

less than 20 hours.

he was nice enough to make me not emo. his dp~
stupid chinese~! HAHA.

i am so damn tired. i was already tired since evening. maybe thats why the eye bag was so obvious.

out to pavilion today. had japanese food at ichiban boshi together with my grandparents. went low yat and saw the cuteee guy! dinner at sentul then came home for less than 5 minutes, changed and left the house.

drove to fetch steph, cherly and yao yun to yum cha with my cousin in the car then waited for ferns at ktm then went to old taste ss15.

ching teck wei came! it was my last time seeing him before i leave. i had a good time whacking him. he insulted me as usual. whack my thighs till red already. hid my slipper. knocking my head non stop. i will really miss him!

the last thing i said to him was "ching teck wei, i dont like you!" but i know he knows i will never not like him. (:

yum cha was with my cousin, teck wei, ferns, steph, yao yun, cherly, jack, jiun, keng yew, hau yang and chun kti.

i am soooooo going to miss yc sessions. oh well... life goes on.

fetched yao yun back to kk. drove 145km/h. had a creepy lamp post that only lights when i pass by.

i am so stressed up now. really stressed up.

i cant find some of my things. my luggage seems to be over weight. my favourite shoe is not in the bag. i keep thinking that i left something behind. my stationeries are not in the bag yet. everything is in a mess. my stupid internet connection couldnt connect just now.

i just felt like shouting at someone or something.

stress ahhh.... emo ahhh... and also tired.

shereena.

overlook the city of lights.

just got back from look out point.

and went on a dinner date with qi hong. its not an official one but i went out with him only la. initial plan was to sri hartamas for dinner but it was full so ended up at jaya one at some beer bar.

it was qi hong's treat. (: thanks so much dear!

then went look out point with the rest. cherly, jiun, jack, kit, ferns, steph, yao yun, laine, keng yew, nic phun, jin ee, wei jian, jason, and nick lim. did i miss anyone out?

i am soooo sleepy now.

i realise today how much i am going to miss lim qi hong. i will really really miss him alot. he listens to my everything.

getting out of his car made me feel sad. made me feel that i'll miss him so much. sigh. a day left.

just had this really short voice chat on skype with tim. i miss the tall fella too. i am going to miss everyone. ): ): ):

ooo yea earlier today went lunch with some s9s, brandon, khai shien, teck wei, siew yung, wei xiang and vincent. i'll miss ching teck wei alot too. how can i not miss him? hoping to see him tomorrow la. i hope. dont know whether he wants to come out or not.

now i am getting really emo. sigh.

shereena.

some entertaining emoticons.

he had to do it.

just got back from yum cha with ferns, cherly and yao yun at oldtaste ss15. the group today was really small. i was only there for half an hour. me dont like the emo yy. or more like not used to it.

before that i was at Island Cafe near mentari court yum cha with nick and vanessa. fetched nick from pyramid then went to meet up with vanessa at island cafe.

it was nick's treat! (: (: thanks so much uncle nick!

i will miss them. i really will. they are nice people. seriously. working made me understand alot. dealing with different peoples. they've actually thought me so much.

i even had customers coming back to look for me. :D i guess hearing all this is the satisfaction of working.

i am glad i met mostly fun people at work. i really do.

went lunch with walter earlier today. i am going to miss that boy. really.... he had been a great friend to me all this while.

and thanks for lunch my dear!

then went pyramid lepak with cherly and yao yun. bought yao yun her present. glad she likes it. she bought shorts and a dress!! amazing huh?

HAHA.

the driving from here to kk was fun just now. turning on the music loud and singing loudly and cherly winding down the window and shouting. btw the songs played was Love Story, Somebody Call 911?, If I Ain't Got You.

the swerving, the jerking, the whacked up driving skills. i am so missing all this. 3 days left i suppose.

now i am getting emo again. ): ): ): maybe not so emo already. thanks sifu! and i am not making you not so low profile anymore.

much love,
shereena.

music addiction : Her Diamonds - Rob Thomas

my eye candy.

oh boy you make my eyes glued to you. i am practically sank in when i look at you. melted and carried away. the body is oh-so-gorgeous.

celebrity crushes are so typical. i mean come on.... when one doesnt have a boyfriend to look at, what other options are they left with when hot guys these days in malaysia are soo limited.

either they are owned or they are gay.

i am sure aussie will have more. (: (: (:

channing <3

if it includes today, 4 days left.

certify birth certificate, checked.

there is nothing else left to be done. i mean documents wise.

woke up at 9 something then went to pj to get the certify things done then went to one utama for late breakfast early lunch. had NZ grilled lamb at Dave's Deli. (:

came home and slept like a pig. got up only at 6 pm. i can seriously sleep. i know.

lazed around the house. was suppose to do somemore packing but i was just lazy. i am done with the clothes but there are still the small stuffs. accessories. and other things.

oh-m-gee~! the ktim emoticon is disgusting, disturbing, and funny at the same time! and ferns had passionate sex with photoshop. HAHA!

went out to oldtown yam cha with ferns, cherly, chun kit, hong jiun, jack, shelaine, keng yew and wei jun.

we were webcaming with jia shen and chatting with him at oldtown with wei jun's laptop. said all the stupid things. saw a stupid thing. laughed over something stupid. aiya, this is sooo us. we laughed over nothing and does random weird plus stupid things at the weirdest moments.

got back around 11 something cause ferns has the 12 oclock curfew today cause he is working later.

i lied to tim on the 4th day before i leave. and i called him a cheat on the 3rd day i leave. how cool is that? aiya we good friend ma. must leave great memories. i miss that tall fag. (:

was talking to nick. my ex-supervisor, uncle nick~! i miss them. work was fun actually. other than the two annoying girls. aiya cut them off. people like nick, vanessa, jia chen, ee von, bryan, issac, jun are people that i miss working with and hanging out together with.

should schedule a steamboat supper with them tomorrow. i hope they'll make it. all my other nights are occupied.

later lunch with walter. lepak at pyramid with cherly and yao yun. dinner with nike colleagues? not sure yet. friday with SAM friends? dinner date with qi hong. late night visit to look out point.

saturday day out with families to pavilion. yum cha at night. sunday pack pack pack. 11 pm fly.

wow. sounds so damn blardy soon.

off to some channing tatum. he is hot. :D very hot.

much love,
shereena.

music addiction : 坏人 - 方炯镔

the dailys.

passport size photos, checked.

tomorrow have to go and certify my translated birth certificate.

all i did today was getting up early to get some things done, went out makan with cherly, ferns and yao yun and sunway rock cafe, went pyramid walk around, bought my high waist belt, went to taylors, came home and packed, then slept till 9 pm, ate dinner, pack again, online, going to go pack now.

i have soooo much to pack. i am afraid i would miss out on certain things. i got alot of people i havent meet. alot of things to do but so little time left. ):

wanted to meet up with the SAM classmates. but i am not free on friday. morning what can we do? lunch with vanessa and may wong, ex colleagues. dinner date with mr lim qi hong. (:

saturday whole day out to KL. maybe yum cha at night. sunday, not planned yet then 11 pm fly off.

sooo soon. 4 days left.

loves,
sher xoxo.

i am crazy over it.

he is my love. <3

just got back home around half an hour ago from makbul. went yam cha with cherly, ferns, chun kit, jack and hong jiun.

8 something cherly already message me asking me if got yam cha let her know. just came back from singapore straight away want to go out already. ahah!

she got me a polo tee from singapore. so near she still want to buy us things. (:

i spent half of my day sleeping and the other half doing nothing productive. woke up and spend most of the time in front of my mac dont know doing what.

mum came home then went out to uncle's place to talk more about the australia things. i have to go take passport size photos and ceritfy my birth cert tomorrow. means i have to wake up early. ):

and then later maybe going back to taylors with ferns and cherly. hmmm..

there is only 5 days left. just now during yam cha they were already discussing about going to send me off at the airport. sigh..

and also about our yam cha group is getting smaller and smaller. sighs.

at least i'll have jia shen and loong there. and the other s9s. and also some ex schoolmates. not that i will see them often. but i am sure i'll see jia shen often. (:

i know i will miss my friends alot.

its just coming so soon. qi hong had to remind me that this time next week i already left. i know he'll definetely be one of them who i'll miss sooooo much.

lets hope the dinner date on friday is on?

off to some one tree hill season 1. :D it makes me happy compared to season 6. season 6 makes me depress and emo. ahaha! they all look soooo young and different then.

i am sure this will keep me entertained on the flight.

bye~!

with love,

shereena.

music addiction : Dreamer - Bethany Dillon

asshole friend.

happy?

came back from hometown around 1 pm then went for lunch at Maju Palace then went to uncle's house.

reached home around 4 something 5 and i slept off for about an hour. as i only slept for 4 hours cause i was staying up watching one tree hill in a complete dark living room at hometown.

ferns call and woke me up saying he'll come around 6 something after fetching yao yun cause apparently we are going dinner first before fetching jia shen to the airport.

fetched jia shen then went steph's house for a while then left to lcct. went with him to the check in counters and chit chatted there then hong jiun and keng yew came.

went to sit down at marry brown to get a drink and thats when he realised he lost the letter yao yun gave him. he went all over looking for it and finally the lady in marry brown picked it up. he was all sweaty.

sent him off. and i'll be seeing him a week! (:

went melur yam cha then came home lo. that was pretty much my day. my weekend was ok ok la. met some relatives before i left to melbourne.

talking about melbourne, 7 days left. hmmmm... so fast. really damn fast.

k laaa~! nights people!

ps : ferns, ask kah tim to show you the "fernlin" emoticon. super funny!! and then you can go kill him after that. :D

its 3.35 am. a new record that tim is actually still awake and i was chatting with him. now he went to sleep already. not bad huh.

love,
sher xoxo.

it seems to be bothering me.

woke up around 11 am today. thats because my grandparents were coming over from seremban. so yeaaa. i had to force myself out of bed.

they were here till 2 something. chee xun came over to with jimmy to my house to get the MU training passes from me. its been quite some time since i saw them.

anyway, i had it for free soo i gave it all to him.

was suppose to go out with jia shen, cherly, ferns they all for makan or something. i actually changed and prepared everything but suddenly i just didnt feel like going out.

changed back to the normal clothes and went to sleep from 3 something up to 7 pm. i was tired also la. waking up at 11 am is early for me. (:

around 7 something went out to pyramid with mum to go for dinner with my god mother. she treated us dinner as i am leaving soon already. and i got a RM 100 angpau! :D

as usual, ate at Sushi Zanmai. i loveeeeee japanese food laa.

after that i received a message from chun kit asking me to go to murni at ss2 for yam cha. anyway, mum had to fetch my god mother back to taman megah so mum dropped me at ss2.

on the way there, the planned changed to oldtaste ss15. jia shen and cherly was at curve so they came to pick me up from ss2 and mum went to yam cha with my god mother.

left oldtaste around 12.45 am. and followed ferns to kk to fetch yao yun home.

thats pretty much it for today. leaving back to hometown in 5 hours plus. the plan is leaving at 8 pm. god knows what time i'll wake up and i actually want to drive back since i dont have much chance to anymore.

sighs.

i feel angry instead of sad. i really feel very angry. maybe because i am still expecting something from you. i really hate you.

am i sooo not important to you? i have been living through all this problems for 11 years but this time i feel angry that you dont care anymore.

i mean you've never cared but i am leaving for 4 years yet it still doesnt matter to you?

i really really hate you. i feel like giving you a piece of my mind. but i dont want to have anything to do with you anymore. i've talk to friends about this. and what they say actually made sense.

sighs.

no ones life is perfect. in fact nothing is perfect.

Incomplete ..either perfect. But Its solid and its still alive even it had gone through so much difficulty. Fighting to be strong.

shereena.

i couldnt care less.

nothing much happened today though. went out lunch came home and then prepared to go out for movie.

watched harry potter and the half the blood prince.


it was just so so only la. i would prefer the first few chapters of it. but it is still not bad la. abit boring here and there but still bearable.

i hate the feeling i am feeling now. i feel like crap. i am not exactly good friend material la. it just never hit me so bad before.

fuck it la.

its none of my effing business and i dont want to care anymore. maybe all this while i have a problem of caring over someone. not someone, everybody to be exact.

and maybe i am too used being in my comfort zone. sometimes not caring at all saves you a whole lot of troubles.

shereena.

late mornings.

eating Lays' Salt and Vinegar and a 1000ml of cold water plus one tree hill season 1 at 4.34 am is a good combination.

its rather enjoyable.

yet, lifeless.

and and, chad looks damn hot in one tree hill season 1. DAMN hot!

i am going out every single day.

woke up around 1 pm today again. seriously lo i am always instantly awake around 1 pm dont matter what time i slept. hmmm..

got up and skype with en lin regarding our lunch outing then added yao yun and discussed more. initially we were suppose to go to one utama but plan changed. pyramid instead.

thanks to en lin laaaaa. supposed to come at 2pm ended coming around 3 something. and i was damn hungry already. he fetched yao yun, cherly and me.

went pyramid and settled down at Pommes Frites for lunch. jack, chun kit and hong jiun joined us as well.

the first thing chun kit said to cherly was that cherly's mum is 10 times hotter than her. what a good friend right??? and they were checking out aunties. hmmm..

after lunch, we went looking for hand sanitizer cause en lin needs one small bottle to bring over to new zealand. like a girl lo he.

finally found it in jusco. bought a packet of Lays chips with the favourite flavour Salt and Vinegar. i loveeee it!

and also tried abit of cherly's cereal that she just bought. oh-my-god. its soooooooo not nice. seriously man. maybe thats why i never liked cereal. i have been properly eating it for at least 5 years.

after jusco we went to sit in front of of speedy where jack and hong jiun was watching the michael jackson concert and started immitating his walk. funny man.

ferns and jia shen was suppose to come and fetch us cause lin is suppose to stay in pyramid for redbox with his ex classmates.

so they came to fetch us around 5.45 pm. fetched yao yun to parade and cherly back home, the two fella came to my house. dont know doing what also. reading the scary posts on live journal and talking craps.

they were hungry already so i tagged along with them to go out for dinner thinking that i will be back in one hour and eat dinner with my mum and then go yam cha. but.... the time was abit off.

so decided from dinner, straight to yam cha.

went pizza uno for dinner. it was damn random laaaa. me, jia shen and ferns. and we were soooo cheapskate. we didnt want to order drinks but lastly couldnt tahan and ordered.

i had mushroom soup, they both had carbonara.

fetched ferns back to get his car and pack his stuff after dinner as there are going to en lin's house for sleepover? sounds gay for guys.

and i followed jia shen back to his house which we suddenly bumped into jack, chun kit, hong jiun they all.

while we were infront of jia shen's house, i found out from either yao yun or en lin that yao yun is keeping the en lin's parking ticket and she's back at kk.

so i followed jack and hong jiun to go kk fetch her and get the ticket to en lin at pyramid as we were already going for yam cha.

on the way from pyramid to old taste ss15, we saw a jia shen look-a-like on the bus. it was damn funny.

was at old taste with julie, cherly, yao yun, chun kit, jack, hong jiun, jia shen, ferns, wei jun and en lin till about 12.30 am.

in between we went to buy ramly and bumped into chin yau and joel.

me and en lin. lin, i'll miss you laaa...

sigh.... lin leaving tomorrow afternoon already. i am not quite sure when will be the next time i'll see him? its too soon to tell whether i am coming back end of the year or not.

if not, i will only see him next year. ):

and you, i dont know anymore. it seems to be going away already. but i still miss you. so is it good or bad?

with love,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Touch My Hand - David Archuleta

dreams everynight with you?

woke up around 1 pm and went out to pyramid with cherly and jia shen around 2 pm for lunch. settled down at kim gary.

talked and then walked, went back to nike and talked to my colleagues and the General Manager, Mr Chim was there too. apparently my pay is already banked into my account. hmmmm...

went to buy movie ticket for thursday night's Harry Potter.

then talked to julie outside of nike for sometime and left to the bookstores to find some books. came home around 5 something and continue watching my A Cinderella Story.

i love the show. i love the guy. Chad Michael Murray is the first actor that i actually love sooooo much. he is darn hot laa!

somewhere in my dreams everynight, you are there. this morning's dream was you wearing a spain jersey with the number 44. for the first glance, you looked sooo like the player.

its sooo random but just felt real in my dreams.

44? why?

much love,
shereena.

music addiction : Sympathy - Goo Goo Dolls

randoms.

mum's going to kill me if she finds out i am still awake at this hour.

skype makes chatting easier. i dont have to type yet can talk soo much. hahahaha! and no conversation history. good eh?

ciao people! its 5.48 am.

a lunch outing.

was out to IDP today to get my visa done. i was the first person to pay my fees but the last one to get the visa done. had to wait till i am 18 thats why.

after getting my visa application done at IDP, left to pj to do my medical check up. did the chest x-ray and also urine test. i am soooo not use to peeing into that bottle. damn weird la.

came back and slept so much.

waiting for mum to come back for dinner and then maybe going yam cha tonight?? ooo yeahh and cherly said she'll be going over to aus for holidays! sometime in december or january. hahaha!

i havent been updating much these few days. the birthday post maybe later la. there is too much pictures.

i shall start with the lunch at Bangsar village II, Delicious.

yesterday, my 18th birthday we went for the lunch that we have been trying to go for so long. it was suppose to only be all girls but jia shen is leaving soon already so he needs to see cherly more. and since jia shen is going, ferns came along as well.

the dress code was dresses. yao yun wore a skirt. :D

delicious's food is good. i mean i like it. :D

the lovebirds.

cherly and ferns.

ferns and yao yun.

look at how bad jia shen is to his gf.

the mushroom soup is good!

the quiche lorraine. should have heard how yao yun and jia shen pronouced it.

my carbonara.

yao yun and her salmon angelhair.

ferns and his four cheese macaroni.

cherly and her salad. it is soooo green!

steph had carbonara as well. jia shen had beef lasagna. but.... i didnt take a picture of him with his food. sorry!

the food was all not bad. just that its abit too filling. maybe too much of cheese and stuff. jia shen forced himself to finish his lasagna. ahah!

ferns's macaroni was plain cheese and macaroni. soooo cheesy and filling.

the carbonara was good but i was just too full to finish to spaghetti. yao yun didnt finish her angelhair too. she just ate up all her salmon.

me and yao yun. she wore a skirt!!! and she looked good!!

me and steph.

me and cherly.

my girlfriends. i love them sooo much!

we wont have outings together thaaaat much already. i'll miss this sooo much!

after food we went walking around cause steph needed to find her ball dress. the toilet trip i had with jia shen and ferns was funny. my stupid bodyguards. and when we saw the white guy and that i said "he looks better from the back" made jia shen laughed so badly. cause i was saying it abit too loud.

and the video played on private structure made yao yun go gaga. it was guy models modelling underwears. ahahah!

then we went walking outside at the shoplots for the boutiques located upstairs. steph managed to get her dress and we had to leave already. jia shen needed to go back and ferns as well.

followed ferns back with steph and yao yun.

came home and went out to pyramid with mum for sushi zanmai. i wont have much of it when i am in aus. (:

thats about it for yesterday.

off to dinner. and then maybe going kk to yam cha. ciao people~!

with love,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Man in the Mirror - Kris Allen

sigh.

i've never cried this much.

its my day!

i had lots of fun just now. lots of fun. i had people who i havent been seeing in ages to come over. thank you sooo much everybody.

walter couldnt make it. tim also couldnt make it. ):

at least i did get the wishes from them. thanks alot everyone for jamming my phone up. ahha! 6 texts from jia shen? i mean 3 from him 3 from cherly. 2 from wei jun? ahahah! and everyone else.

all of you, thank you~!

it would have been nicer if everyone was here.

love ya'll.

happy birthday lin!

woke up around 1 pm today. messaged ferns to get a favour from him cause i needed transport to ktm as i have to go downtown to look for my mum.

and he is kind enough to be able to fetch me. since we both havent had lunch, we went to kenny rogers in parade for lunch.

had a nice chat during lunch then he fetched me to ktm. reached mum's office around 4 something. sat in the office for a while then left to mum's customer's house at imbi.

customer became friends. they know i am leaving so they wanted to treat me dinner. went to Ah Yat Abalone Restaurant at Avenue K.

i had a great dinner. small cute abalone, one whole piece of shark fin's. they were all really nice people. even his mum was so friendly. and also got me a Longines pen for a leaving gift.

thanks so much for dinner and all the advices.

after dinner which was around 10 something, i went over to itallianies at pyramid for en lin's suprise party. i was very late la but at least i went right...

was there for a while then left for home. went back with qi hong and jenn hsen and en lin. followed qi hong to fetch en lin back to kemuning utama.

received a message from walter saying that he cant make it to the party cause he is very sick. he even thought that today is my birthday instead of tomorrow. i mean he dont usually make such mistakes. soo i guess he is really sick?

i even had a 'happy forwarded birthday' wish all the way from china. fine laaa i gues i'll just accept it for the time being. i am still waiting for a wish on the day itself. lets hope i'll get it.

anyways,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EN LIN~!

this fella here had been a great friend la. the girly guy. ahahah! and a very vain one.

enjoy yourself today! its your day laaa. sooo go have fun first then only come for mine. dont make me feel guilty. hahaha!

happy birthday once again.

lots of love,
shereena.

music addiction : Taking Back My Love - Enrique Iglesias

i love the beat and the moves and the guy.

when i am sad only two movies cheers me up in some way. Cinderella Story and Step Up. i purposely downloaded both so that it'll keep me accompanied in melbourne.

i just finished watching Step Up.

i love them.

whats more to say. i love it. i think i've watched it over 10 times yet i still love it and still laugh and smile over the little parts. i just love the show. (:

you wore something like that before right?

and channing tatum is the bomb. i cant get my eyes off him. i am serious. my eyes are literally glued to him. everything fell right into place. the eyes, the smile, the laugh, the body, the moves, the height and the look.

as i said, seeing a hot guy keeps my mind off things for that particular time.

ahhhhh.. channing~! he is acting in the coming up G.I Joe. so i'll go and watch. chad micheal murray. channing tatum. chace crawford. josh duhamel. jensen ackles. my 'it' celebs that i absolutely adore.

its getting so late. coming to 4 am. but i am not quite in a mood to get myself a nice rest. the birthday is coming in two days. the party is tomorrow.

everything is coming so soon. sigh.

i miss you. i really do. somehow. people have been asking me about you. my mum. friends. will there be a day that you never involved in?

good morning peeps~

much lovee,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Drew Sidora - Till The Dawn

another day at home alone.

nowadays there is like an automatic alarm clock in me. it will ring once at 12 something and around 1 oclock for the second time. it just depends whether do i want to get up from bed.

3 hours just passed like that. all i did was reading blogs, checking up on my downloads, ate a little, watched a bit of nanny diaries, lied on the couch, thought too much, emoed, listened to some songs and reading a website published by gay writers.

i suddenly felt that my house feels so quiet and empty. i am just like a nobody that sits in the corner that taps on the wireless network.

i feel that my back pains are coming back on me. just some slight twitches.

my mind is wandering so much. thinking about my birthday whether will i have the wishes i want. thinking about the day i leave. thinking about my life is melbourne. thinking about you.

everything about you is suppose to fcking leave me. but why? i've been nagged soo much, lectured, telling how much it is not worth, telling me how pathetic i am, how stupid i am, wasting 2 years, wasting my youth BUT it doesnt make much difference to how i am now.

as much as i know all those are true, my heart just doesnt want to say goodbye yet. i've felt foolish. i've felt stupid. i've felt unworthy. i've felt unbothered and uncared. so?

i've never been dreaming so much.

i guess at this point of time, hot guys are the only ones that will keep my mind off certain matters.

i dont know.

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?

I hate being on my own

Somebody dreams about you every single night
That Somebody's Me

Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory

-bits and pieces of Somebody's Me by Enrique Iglesias-

everything leaves a deep mark in me.
that takes a long long time to be removed.

music addiction : Somebody's Me - Enrique Iglesias

dailys.

i said it. but i dont think it is helping.

jia shen's call at 12 something asking me to go out for lunch woke me up. and we went to the hawker behind melur. en lin and jenn hsen was already waiting for us.

i didnt feel like eating so just sat there and talk with them then left to jia shen's house cause he needed to go back and bath.

after that left to school cause cherly and jia shen needed to go back and get their spm certificate. en lin and jenn hsen actually already went back to school this morning and did all the visiting and stuff already but also went back for the second time with us.

i was wearing cause have no idea we were going back school. and cherly was wearing the usual cherly outfit la. ahaha!

we werent allow to walk around but the office lady only comes back from lunch at 2 pm and we had to wait for half an hour.

was at the lobby area talking to puan salasiah and puan evelyn until they had to go already. puan salasiah was asking about everyone well practically our group in 5 browser. walter, tim, qi hong, michelle? ehh dickson tak ada one? hmm..

sat there till 2 pm, went in to take the cert and jia shen realise that he already took it a few months back. hmm..

the weather this afternoon was killing. damn hot man. i decided to go back home. i really cant stand the heat. came home the first thing was switching on the air cond.

lingered around the house for a bit. sent some smses then talked on the phone a while then i fell asleep.

about 6 something ferns called me regarding going wei jun's house dinner thing but i cant go. one thing is it was too last minute and i had to eat dinner with mum. anything thing is i dont really feel like going out.

woke up around 7 something and mum came back. had domino's for dinner and just sat there like a lord. watching tv, chatting, blogging.

should be going out soon for yam cha with the rest.

sigh. why am i dreaming about it every single night?? i think thaaaat much till i dream about it every night? this is killing me slowly.

with love,

shereena.

music addiction : Michael Jackson - I'll be There

cheung k?

woke up around 12 something today. we are suppose to go redbox at 1 something so around 12 plus cherly already message me to wake me up.

jia shen and cherly came to pick me up then went to jia shen's house to wait for him to bath which only took 5 minutes i think. me and cherly was waiting in the car.

then we left to pyramid as ferns and en lin was already at redbox waiting for us. yao yun couldnt join cause she went for CF camp at PD. she'll be there till friday. ):

cherly and me.

sang some emo songs and some weird funny songs and also michael jackson's songs.

smooth criminal.

this song made me think of sunday. think of the time at jusco. when tim was around and they were all singing it. "en lin, are you okay?" because of their gaming sessions. i miss tim. ):

was at redbox till 5 pm. i guess this cheung k session was kinda fun laa. had alot of gay singing tones, screaming, shouting, changing lyrics, emoish. ahah!

and then went walking around for a while and i decided to follow ferns's car home and let jia shen and cherly go back together. :D

before leaving me, en lin, ferns detoured somewhere else first. en lin to renoma. ferns to machines. me to nike. (:

followed ferns to fetch en lin back to kemuning utama. the whole way was jam and was also damn jam on our back after dropping en lin.

had ferns accompanied with lots of topics. peoples to talk about. ahaha! reached home 7 something. 7.30 like that. the moment i came home i lied on my couch and fell asleep till 9 something.

and now here i am. watching Burning Flame 3 and blogging. and hearing to 原来我最爱的人是你不是他 - 林健辉.

当你离开的时候没有任何的理由 心里有一点痛
如果时间能回头多想抓住你的手 不要让你走
突然看见我和你的照片 彷佛一切回到我的身边

原来我最爱的人是你不是他
心里的无奈多希望能够对你说明白
原来我最爱的人是你不是他
对你的思念永远都看不见
到底爱要怎麽说

我一直以为时间能够把一切都带走 不曾想过要回头
如果我们的爱还没到尽头 只想靠近你我不想放你走

i love this song so so much. and burning flame 3 got hot guy. Kevin cheng!!

k laa~! that pretty much summed up what happened today.

sighs. 19 more days. i am not ready to feel what i felt on sunday again. it was sad. seeing someone leaving me was already so sad. leaving a whole big bunch of people would be worse.

i am just making myself feel sad. ):

much love,
shereena.

music addiction : 原来我最爱的人是你不是他 - 林健辉

goodbye. no?

8/10.

just finished watching Taken. the show is not bad. kinda good. when parents watch it, especially those with daughters, they'll get paranoid.

shows makes it so scary. but i know somewhere in the world things happens like that. the world is so huge, once you are gone, you might not be found forever.

traveling in a group would be less scary. as much as i want to travel around the world, i'd rather not by myself. they drug young girl travellers. sell them away for prostitution. drug them again so they wont know whats happening and then give men their pleasure. fucking sick.

btw, the main actor's voice was sooo familiar until i wiki-ed it i found out he was the voice of Azlan in Narnia. and one of the actress acted in supernatural. the hot demon. :D

this shall be a goal to myself. i'll get a good job, earn alot and then go traveling. all over Europe and the States. i will. one day. but not alone. :D

i thought i finally could cheer up. but it seems no. i am still caught up in that own world of mine. the world and the thoughts that i somehow couldnt say bye to yet.

sigh.

i was reading someone's blog. she was blogging over germany. the thought of you instantly appeared. sigh.

i thought this time it would be simple. just by saying goodbye and talk about it and then i could just let go and move on. but apparently its just not that easy. i find it so so hard. its going to take me lots and lots of time to pull this through.

you are almost in every part of my thoughts. whenever i say something or think about something, you'll somehow be remembered.

i hate how much i like you.

i had no one else to talk to this to. i just didnt have that guts to talk about it to anyone close. until a point where i couldnt take it, i told someone. someone distant yet cared in a way. the stupid chinese. ahah!

but yet, it still bothers me.

sigh.

shereena.

life.

its the 6th of july~!

happy birthday cousins!! (:

woke up around 1 pm today as i only went to bed at around 5.30 am. i just couldnt sleep and wasnt tired. so i stayed up to get nearer.

i had a talk with you. after all this while, i finally had the guts to discuss with you about it. i am sorry i've put you into all of this. my emoness and all. it feels better after talking about it.

you dont have to be sorry or to feel bad. its just a phase. and its not really your fault.

remember the promise you promised. we will try to keep the distance between us close. i cant guarantee it a 100% but at least we try okay?

went out lunch with jia shen, cherly, yao yun and ferns to parade's mcdonalds. i had to get out of the house for a bit. its not really a right time to stay at home alone with these kinda moods.

was in parade till 3 something 4 then left to taipan's oldtown for a drink. talked abit more then left back home.

went to jia shen's house to get ferns's car and then left with yao yun and ferns with the intention of accompanying ferns to fetch yao yun back to kk.

when we are nearing school, yao yun's mum called saying that she'll come out from kk so we dont need to fetch her all the way back.

we detoured to SMK USJ 12 to get yao yun's SPM certificate. i walked into school with a pair of short shorts. ahaha!

came home and ferns dota-ed with my macbook. gamers. i watched my tvb drama on aod while ferns playing his game.

till mum came back ferns was still playing. around 8 something he left cause he is going dinner with jia shen. they just cant get enough of each other. they played game together and then went out dinner together. ahah!

and later, i just basically rot around the house. now still rotting. i downloaded Taken. i shall watch it soon. :D i wonder how late i'll sleep tonight.

i am already missing tim. ): well.. as he said, chatting is the least we could do now. sigh.

oklaa. ciao first~! off to some movies. nights people.

loves,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Michael Jackson - Man In The Mirror

goodbye my dear friend.

was out with ferns, tim, cherly, jia shen, wei jun at pyramid for a dinner with tim. i guess the only dinner till i'll see tim next for dont know how long.

had to fetch tim from kk and mana tau this fella havent ready. call his phone no one picked up, rang the doorbell no one answered. so ferns tried to pull the gate and it opened the went in, the doors can be opened to.

went all the way up to his room and found out his was bathing and knocked on his toilet door. this fella ah home alone also so selamba with all the locks.

lingered around the house for a bit. then talked to sue yee a bit. it seems she'll be going over to melbourne and she said she'll go find me. soo see how la.

then left to pyramid. went back nike a while and realise how much i miss nick. i dont miss working i just miss working there. the environment and staffs. sigh

ate japanese food and tim belanja-ed me. there goes his 50 ringgit. thanks weih!

then went old taste ss15 for yam cha and talked soooo much. was there from 9 something till 12 am. not bad huh.

talked almost about the most random things. horror stories, horror games, sick pre-war german human experiment thing, matrix, naked keanu reeves, SM, mum's friend's daughter.

had to leave already cause it was getting late and i still had to fetch tim back to his apartment to get his guitar bag and then only left back to kk.

sent yao yun home and then it was tim. i felt the hit already when i was turning into the area.

that was it. my goodbyes. a goodbye hug and the tears. i couldnt drive so ferns drove back and i drove back from ferns place.

sigh.

tang kah tim, i will miss you so much. i am already missing you. it was hard seeing you for the last time. the final goodbye hug just hit me. the feeling of it sucks so badly.

although, we dont see each other often nor communicate thaaaat much but you've been a great friend to me. i remember i used to be the only girl that you were close to from USJ 12 school till today. but i am leaving... leaving for good or at least long enough to not meet for a damn long time. and you are leaving later in 6 hours. sigh. ):

you've been in my most enjoyable days yet you've been in my deepest and unenjoyable and sad moments. but we've made it through. we are still friends. good friends i suppose. you wont be there letting me laugh at your lame jokes and your looks and whatever about you. suddenly saying that you've got fatter.

i wont see that look on your face when i give you a look. i wont see that face when you give me while saying "sai mm sai ah?". i wont hear that laugh. i wont hear that sarcastic laugh that comes after zhaing me over something.

i wont see you doing that innocent look with the two big eyes of yours. i wont see that "whatever" or the selamba look of yours and asking me "ssup?". i wont be here to fetch you from ss15 to wherever for some yam cha session. you just wont sit on the passenger seat beside or behind me anymore.

i will never get to whack you anymore when you join the rest on the joke of me being dark. i wont be there to scold and whack at the same time. sighs.

remember the trips we had. genting the water polo game where we worked together and shot in a goal? penang that stupid chlorine thing ferns said. memories.

you will never show up infront of my house suddenly after calling me 5 minutes ago asking me to go out. i wont seat in your car anymore. directing you to the destinations as your directions sucks. (: wont have you suddenly whacking me and telling me that there isnt a uni that wants to take you in. sigh.

you've been an awesome friend. i enjoyed every single moments of the friendship that we had together. but... i wont be seeing you much already. i guess this is it huh. the TT was the last present i could ever give you straight from my hands. i mean birthday present.

maybe seeing a TT in australia would just remind me so much of you. i will really really miss you!

i just dont know how to imagine anymore for not seeing you thaaaaaaat long. its going to be so long and hard. you'll always be that one friend i will always remember. somehow. the memories i had. ): but i guess people moves on. i will. but still some things are always there and will only be remembered always.

HAHA. the lamia dance. sigh the last stupid thing i'll see from you till anytime soon.


as written on the keychain, always will be the best of friends. honestly and sincerely meant it. i really do.

have a safe journey later. writing all this brought back so much memories. making me cry so much and my eyes hurts so badly. i feel a sudden numb.

i dont know anymore. there isnt anything to be sorry about or to feel bad about. so yeaa.

just good luck and take care! will be missing you.

loads of love,
shereena.

i can't control.

it was soo hard for me to sleep this morning. was on the bed for 2 hours yet i couldnt fall asleep. tossing and turning. i was soo disturbed.

i had to reply smses acting that i am so fine when i am not.

finally managed to sleep at 4 something in the morning. till my eyes was so pain and tired, i fell asleep.

went to the salon today and had a hair makeover. i needed some change to my hairstyle. well... just a slight change. i havent been doing much things on my hair for quite some time.

since that i will be leaving soon, i guess i need some change.

the new look.

not really that new. it used to be like that last time. laaaasst time. should gave seen the first round of dye on my hair. it was shit. i looked damn lala. i had to ask them to get me another darker colour on it again. wayyy too much chemicals on my hair today. alot.

the internet connection is sooo damn sucky man. i am sick of going to the switch and switching it on and off few times till it gets connected.

its not fun to do especially when the mood is bad.

i am so tired of all this shit. i am running away from it. i am just hiding. i never wanted to face the damn fact over this. breaking down, making a whole damn mess for myself, bringing the worse thoughts to my mind and get myself all emo.

wtf. 22 days? the last day?

i really feel so jumbled up. i need a nice loud scream or shouting almost anything to somebody annoying.

i cant control. it flows and dries up and then something comes up again and it flows again. its getting tired and painful.

it sucks.

shereena.

its shit.

just got back from kk awhile ago. qi hong fetched me. its been sooo long since he fetched me around. well its been kinda long since i last went out with him.

earlier today i went lunch with yao yun, kah tim, en lin and ferns at strawberry fields, taipan. was there till about 3 something then came home cause ferns had to come over to help me with my notebooks and yao yun needed to get some stuff from me. so they all came.

jia shen was already outside of my house before we could reach. damn hot and he can sit there and smoke.

all of them was at my house lepaking till about 4 something yao yun had to leave to pyramid so ferns fetched her there and the other 3 remained in my house lazing around.

they all left at about 5 something cause they had futsal at 6 pm. i slept till mum came home and greeted me with a loud "bitch". my neighours are stupid indians. no offence la but house street has alot of indians and they are asses.

went out around 9 something to old town taipan with qi hong and ee jun and jia shen came later then around 10 something left to kk's old town. hahah! abit lifeless la.

was at kk till 12 something. talked to qi hong quite some stuff. i will miss him soooo much. sigh. came home and mum is angry with me.

she says she gave me too much freedom. sighs.

24 days? 2 days? does leaving had to be this hard. and does seeing someone leave be this hard?

i feel horrible. i dont know why. i feel heat and blood rushing up my head. my eyes are getting so tired and watery. there is sooo much things running through my mind. the mixed feeling i am having is soo fucked up.

sigh.

shereena.

last minute late night melur session.

just got back from melur a while ago. went with steph, yao yun, tim, ferns, cherly, jia shen and en lin. the usual yam cha sessions.

talked so much, laughed. the typical mamak sessions. crapping. talking horny jokes. stupid racist jokes on me.

i will really really miss all this. australia is coming soo soon for me.

sigh. i am so disturbed.

i dont know what to say or what to do to make things better abit. it really hit me when i read those words. i really really felt sad for him.

i dont know why but i've always took notice of this matter. i always try so hard to think of a way to make things better but i was just never able to.

as much as i look i didnt care, i really do. just that maybe its in a different way. i dont know. since before, i always cared in a different way.

everything seems so fine on the outside but in the inside, its not. its sad. sigh. i really dont know. i cant be asking cause i wasnt informed. i can only be worried of her.

i guess my problems were never near all this. this is sad. i dont know laaa.

tim is leaving in 3 days? another friend leaving. then once and for all i'll leave everyone. i had a dream earlier this evening when i fell asleep for only half an hour.

it was unpleasant. that feeling at that moment in the dream was horrid. but how.. its coming very very soon. sigh.

screw it la.

*edit*

luckily around 3 am like that i had yao yun, en lin, and tim to chat with. they were all at yao yun's house doing stupid things and i skyping with them.

tim was too afraid to go home since he will be home alone and we were talking about ghost and horror movies before we left melur. that explains why he is in yao yun's room but en lin???? aiya finding an excuse to go yao yun's room only la. stupid fella. :D

but the stupid skype on my mac cant take snapshots of the conversation. luckily yao yun's can. dont matter how stupid the pictures look, i still want them.

i dont do this often and it occupied my quite emo moments. its a good thing though. slept at about 5.15 am?

i now have one picture though. my shocked face is soooo fake. the boys flashing us with their half exposed underwear and boxers.

this is what we people do at 4 something in the morning.

shereena.

musicians. music. love. leaving.

woke up around 1 pm by jia shen's message. asking me to go out for lunch with him and cherly. while getting ready tim called. he wants me to go to school together with him to collect the spm certificate.

i told him to wait so that i could jia shen to tell him i will join them for lunch later and before i could put down the phone, tim was already outside of my house. expecting that i would go with him.

went to school and tim just drove in without filling up any sort of form or whatever. its weird that the guard didnt stop us. saw puan teo and puan choo. puan choo was a damn nice teacher la. those were the old school days.

seeing the place where i usually stand to wait for my bus on thursdays and where i usually talk to walter, tim. high school days just went pass like that. its already a year and a half. its been long.

met up with cherly and jia shen at a penang cuisine restaurant nearby old town. ate and talked and then left for home. tim fetched me back cause the other two went to get some stuff in watson or something like that.

kah tim is leaving soon. wouldnt be able to attend my birthday plus farewell party. leaving soon means next monday morning. how sadd huh. i wont be seeing this friend of mine after sunday night. sigh

came home and lazed around and then watched August Rush.

10/10. it was meant to be a 9. but the guy gave it am extra point.

i love this show. a show where music means so much to someone and that love will never change. bond between mother and son will always be there. inheriting the genes from both parents. having your own dad telling you that your child died but actually he gave your son up for adoption.

took 11 years to find him back and having the love of your life standing beside you and holding your hands watching your son perform.

its good. love do last that long even if you guys were only together for one night? that one night spent together is remembered and always cherished forever? such thing exist?

oh and ya. i never actually knew jonathan rhys meyers is thaaaat charming. and he sings? i really didnt know.

i find him rather hot as a musician.

hot and sexy in a way. and his accent makes him even hotter. :D

i continued writing the post again today. 25days left? one week passes so fast. there is only 3 weeks left. its so soon. and i really ready to leave?

i'll miss you friend.

much love,
shereena.

music addiction : Kris Allen - No Boundaries

bitch, jerk, ass, and dick. so typical from supernatural.

the winchester brothers. hot hot hot. (:

hot guys only appears on screen huh? romantic, great, sweet, nice, hot, sensible and all those good guys only appears in books or on screen.

real life? there may be some but its sooo hard to find. and some people have them but dont appreciate their presence. what the hell right.

i just had three episodes of supernatural. i just cant get enough of the two of them. i guess girls will always drool over hot guys on screen. its known and unchangeable fact.

okay fine. not all girls but i am definitely one of them. (:

jensen ackles? somehow perfect in my eyes. and i know yao yun agrees with me. hahahaa! jared padelecki? i still like him somehow. the height, the body. just something about him.

i will miss times like this. staying up till 4 5 in the morning for series. drooling over hot guys on screen. getting emo over a sudden thought that came by.

when uni starts, i am sure life like what am i having now will be less. i'll be too tired to stay awake so late and i cant do it everyday. ):

was out with jia shen, cherly, ferns, and the "special guest" today. umm.. yesterday since it is pass midnight. caught a movie together at pyramid.

ice age 3. 6.5/10.

it was funny la but i am still not the cartoon comedy sort of person. so yeahh.

i have 18 minutes before the battery drops dead. i lazy walk towards to charger and plug it in. ahaha!

went present hunting today. i guess i got what i wanted to get for them. and i swear i saw it as a plane at first. now it looks like a fish to me. sorry qihong! :D

and you too.

came home and slept till 8 something for dinner and then watch my series on aod. i like this particular hong kong actor, patrick tang kin wang. (: he is cuteeee.

sigh.

the days are getting nearer. to be sad or to be excited? i really dont know.

loves,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Eminem - We Made You

i hope so.

i really really hope you know and you will take care of yourself. i dont want to see you regret and being unhappy.

i hope the talk really worked. i am trying to mend things and also give some awareness.

whatever it is, i am always here for you. i may not have been the bestest friend, but i dont want to see you get in any sort of troubles.

sigh.

i really hope it will be as promise.

i'll always love you.

shereena.

we are still the best of friends. at least in my eyes.

looks can be sooooo deceiving.

on the outlook you seem perfectly fine. but i really can sense that things are so wrong for you. i dont know how to help cause i suck at it. but seeing things going like this for you is not any better too. you've always stick with me through my down moments and was always there to help.

this time, i dont know what to do to help. i tried to. but it doesnt seem to be working and i dare not ask much cause i am afraid i am bad at the words i use. sighs.

just be strong my dear. i can only hope things to turn out better for you.

now my part, eventhough i've made that decision to let go to change to forget, you were still "the person" for so long. even the memories may not entirely sweet, you were still apart of my soo many things.

i am soon not going to see you for a long long time and will only hear stuff bout you from people or maybe yourself and thats if i start talking to you first. thinking about it, its sad.

whatever it is, i'll still miss you la friend.

the days are getting nearer. i am leaving in less than one month. its sooo soon. i called qihong a couple of months ago right after jia shen left and started crying cause of leaving. and the day is reaching soon.

i wonder how much i dread the moment of leaving to come.

life.

much love,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Avril Lavigne - Anything but Ordinary