another new start?

i hope this will NEVER happen.

had long chats with some friends this morning before i slept.

the conversations made me realise some stuff. maybe i just couldnt let the feeling go. maybe i dont really really like him that much.

i usually dont like to get help from anybody unless i really really need it. and someone made me realise i dont help people neither.

maybe thats just me. but.. as he said if you want people to help you when you are down, first, you have to also help people.

i guess i should take more notice into the problems of the people around me and try to do my best to help.

it may not work, but at least i tried.

went to bed around 5.30 a.m but i still couldnt sleep. so i had some time thinking. i guess i found out what i should really do.

it may bring unpleasant future with youu, but it is going to help on how i feel now.

i am tired and sick of being the person i am now. i need a change. a better change. to someone less emo.

now that i am kind of sure of what to do, i am feeling better. alot better in fact.

usually i will be gloomy and emo the whole day dont matter what or when. today seems to be alot better.

i guess it takes time.

went out to catch the movie Bolt 3D today with cherly and jia shen. after movie we came back already.

wei ping dropped by to get one tree hill and gossip girl from me while i was still halfway asleep.

i guess it was due to the late sleeps.

now, all i need is a drive out by myself. but thats not going to happen anytime soon. i feel like roaming around the streets of KL at night.

it feels better. at least it made me feel good.

ciao people! i am off to watching series. The Gem of Life and Devil Beside You or maybe some movies.

i watched Another Cinderella Story this morning before i slept. the show is not bad and the guy is not bad too. and the moves is quite good. (:

see how laa. i am in a mood to let go everything by tonight.

lots of love,

shereena.

music addiction : Selena - Dreaming of you

the heart hurts.

the tears that rolled is not enough to pay the feeling i am going through. i am feeling the pain in the inside.

and the worse part is you never know what i am going through and how i am feeling. although i dont want you to know but somehow there is a part of me inside that wants to.

woke up around 11.30 a.m because we were going out to digital mall around 12 something. but mana tau ferns only reached at 1 something.

reached there and walked around to get cherly's modem and some computer games.

then we went for lunch somewhere near paramount. that was also like 3 p.m already i think. then drove all the way back to cherly's place to get her modem done.

but ferns tried and tried it still didnt work. and we gave up.

cherly fetched me home cause she wanted to go out and buy duck rice. so went with her to taipan before she sent me back.

came home and slept. i barely have enough sleeps these days.

now, sitting in front of the tv watching the Gem of Life and blogging. it seems being rich is everything in the show.

i've been in my darkest days these few days. hoping that i would really stand on my two feet again sometime soon.

god knows what time i will sleep today. i am already feeling the rush of emoness in me. something is terribly wrong with me already.

bye,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : T.I - Whatever You Like

words.

its 5.30 in the morning.
and i cant sleep.

how i wish that your images would leave my mind.

i am soaked in tears just to fall asleep.
till my eyes sore so i would feel sleepy.

i am no longer who i thought i was.
i am someone who cant find her real self.
and i hate it.

unhappy.

and confused.

girl to girl talks.

my buddy, my girlfriend, my listener.

i could bearely sleep these days. i slept around 6 something 7 this morning. i cant help it. its taking over my mind.

was awake around 10 because of the texts. was chatting halfway with cherly which is around 11 until i fell asleep. i guess it was a good thing that i could actually sleep.

got up around 12 something.

mum was sick so i had to fetch her out to the clinic. and i was suppose to go out with cherly to yam cha after i am home.

came back and rested then cherly came. then i drove out to Oldtown for our yam cha session.

i guess the advice i got to have a girl to girl talk was probably something good. i said stuff that i wouldnt say normally.

it was better to open up than to keep inside.

i've got to know more than what i had to. had quite a long talk with cherly. and had some good advices and gave some too.

no doubt i did feel better.

around 6 plus i fetched her back home. came home and lazed around until i got a phone call from tim asking me to go out makan.

it seems that ferns was at his place so they came all the way from kk to taipan for dinner. ferns came to fetch and his honk is soooo funny laa..

he had to do it more than once. but well.. its amusing. soo okla.

was at station one for some catching up session. then jia shen dropped by, then enlin, then cherly and jo ann and her cousin.

came home around 10 p.m.

and now, i am doing nothing. i am bored and not feeling too well. my heart hurts.

its not like the real pain kind of pain. its something that i cant even describe. and my mind is like in this total shutdown.

everything seems so blank. and so numb.

i dont know what i did just now was something right or wrong. i cant say no but when i say yes, its getting worse.

i've never felt like this before. since when i cared so much about a person?

i love you as a friend but not as someone that i like. you are driving me up the wall and making me go crazy soon.

i care but yet i dont want to.

with love,

shereena.

music addiction : Boys Like Girls - Thunder

vulgar is the best expression.

i want it ALL to go away.

just leave and dont say goodbye.

i dont need it.

i just need you to get your ass out of my life.

i am being someone i dont know.

i want the old me back.

rather than being the one who is like that now.

fuck it.

and go away.

i dont like to turn to people who doesnt care.

because of that, i only keep it to myself.

is it that hard to find somebody that i can share it with?

is it that hard to find somebody to listen?

apparently it is that hard.

friends?

maybe.

but they have better things to do

than caring about it.

where did i go?

where is the once happy me?

woke up around 11.30 a.m today. it was because of the phone call from cherly. it seems that lunch was at 12 p.m.

went out to parade around 12 something. settled down at Manhattan Fish Market. was with cherly, jia shen, wey liam, jo ann and her cousin.

had the fried chunky mushroom because i was in need of saving the money in my wallet. there are more plans to come.

had some fun times chit chatting amoung ourselves.

after food we went to pyramid for a while. the initial plan was to go there and catch a movie but there isnt much show which is watchable.

me, jia shen and cherly met up with mun hoe and sean at the cinema cause they were catching Madacasgar 2.

sat down at A&W and had a short talk before their movie.

they had to leave and so did we. there wasnt anything much to do in pyramid anyway. i am too bored of it.

saw Michelle and Vincent. it is their first day working in TGI Fridays.

went home and sleep. but didnt sleep for that long. was about to for go the plan to go to 16 padang with the boys for their basketball because i was too tired.

since the smses already woke me up, might as well just go.

jia shen came to fetch. all together he picked up about 6 of us. one in usj16 which is ms cherly gan. so near also dont want to walk to the field.

sat there and watched the guys play. was there till about 7 plus where it was already quite dark.

it was wise to go. at least it was better than dreaming about stuff i dont want to see nor pay attention on.

had some laughter and some emo talks.

its blardy reminded me of him. amd now i am reminded again. i hate you for being so much in my life.

not that much but it is good enough to drive me up the wall. making me go nuts.

there is a plan up to genting next thursday. lets just see how good this goes on. its no doubt that the weater is great and the environment too but the last trip i had was nightmare. i meant the experience.

if its happening again, i am sooo not going to genting ever again.

i still like staring out a windy window all by myself. its relieving and calm.

why is it that i even bother? i tend to care so much about everything. one is youu another is problems that has nothing to do with me.

i want you out of my life! please..

loves,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Bethany Joy Galeotti - Feel This

true love? bullshit.

currently watching Enchanted. :)

i love the dress. i like the concept of where dreams will come true. but there is never such thing. well.. at least for now none happen in the word LOVE in my life.

was out to Mines today.

first the Palace Beach & Spa Hotel. then, Palace of The Golden Horses.

was at Palace of The Golden Horses for a buffet lunch. i miss that hotel soo much. the things i had there was great.

played a grand piano, stayed in a 3 floor suite, eating abalone and sitting water taxis.

it wasnt cheap. if it wasnt a great relative that spend us two nights there i wouldnt have such memorable days.

it is 5 digits per night in the grand suite.

was out till about 5 plus. came home and slept so much. havent had alot of good night sleeps.

every morning if it wasnt 4 am then 5 am only i'll go to bed. i have no idea what i am doing also. watching series and staring blankly to my laptop screen.

sometimes some friends to keep me company till probably 3 am.

i dont like midnights by myself. i cant help but to feel that rush of quiteness and alone-ness. one word emoness.

i feel like going down to KLCC again on friday. they are having a per-sales for members and fragrances are cheap.

things are cheaper.

probably i'll get down by train myself. maybe.

blardy hell.. i am emo already. what the hell is wrong with me these days? why is it i cant be who i was before? when will it be over?

shereena.

music addiction : Jon McLaughlin - So Close

mesmerizing blue eyes.

woke up pretty late today. maybe because i slept abit too late. woke up by cherly's call. which was around 12.15 p.m.

went out to KLCC today with mum. i drove all the way down.

the main point was to watch Quantum of Solace.

i rate it a 6/10.

suppose to be a 5 but its Daniel Craig so an extra point.

the storyline kinda suck and i dont like the Bond girl. somehow Eva Green was alot better. compare with both of the Daniel Craig's 007 movies.

Daniel Craig is still hot to me. he may be old but his eyes are gorgeous. and he looks damn blardy good in suits. tuxedos, bow ties and ties.

bought another pair of heel from kickers. its actually cute and petite.

walked around KLCC for like damn long and only reached home around 10 something. driving is kinda fun in downtown KL.

i need new frangrances. i smelled soo many and there is a few that i like. can i have all? (:

will be out to Mines tomorrow. i dont really like that place. its deserted and dead.

but i love The Palace of The Golden Horses Hotel. i had the best experienced ever in that hotel. from abalone, playing a grand piano, staying in the most expensive suit with 3 whole floors to yourself, a personal boat ride.

it was an awesome experience.

i am trying so hard to be less emo. but nothing seems to work. if its not about this, then its about that.

i should just go with the flow.

much love,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Pink - So What

late night house visits.

its 2.25 a.m. just came back from cherly's place.

the plan was to go there and play cards and to kill time. only a few turned up. me, wey liam, adrian, sheng loong, sean, mun hoe and jia shen.

adrian and wey liam came to fetch me and liam spend me ramlee. (: i insisted on paying back but he dont want. thanks liam!

khai shien was suppose to make it but he was in kepong soo... he couldnt make it back on time. jo ann said it was too late and teck wei was in puchong.

sean and mun hoe left earlier since they didnt play cards nor drink. and jia shen came wayyy later.

the pictures.

cho dai ti and liquor.

the 'barry' statue and the nearly finish hennessy.

we actually opened a new bottle. and drank that much. more like 4 people drinking only.

cherly and her "barry" welcome statue thing.

wey liam.

he lost so he had to take one full pure shot.

me thinking hard so that i wouldnt lose.

kai kai half dead. (:

liam and me.

wanting to take this sunglassed picture since some time ago already.

liam and adrian.

liam and me again.

candid of liam.

liam, cherly and adrian.

them again. look at that adrian acting cool punya face.

the act cool pose.

the proper one.

not bad weih.. i am still surviving without any problem after god knows how many pure shots. first time that i actually had a proper drink.

genting's vodka is not counted.

couldnt go to bed yet. i dont want my mum to smell the alcohol.

tomorrow will be out to KLCC with my mum. she needs to get a gift and i need to watch Quantum of Solace.

eventhough people say it is not that good, i still want to watch. daniel craig. :D

probably i'll watch gossip girl and one tree hill episode 11 first before i go to bed. which is maybe 5 in the morning.

ciao people. (:

love,

shereena.

music addiction : Beyonce - If I Were A Boy

SAM Corroboree 08'

last night was our SAM Corroboree which is known to others as Prom~!

for the first time i got ready for something till like that.

cherly came to fetch me at 1 something p.m to fetch me over to jo ann's house because from there we will go to the hairdresser to get our hairs done.

reached the place, its at ss19. showed the lasy the picture of the hairstyle i want to do and i was the first to get it done.

the lady was real good. for me, she did it so quickly and i am satisfied. jo ann and cherly's also look so pretty.

audrey came to join us later.

then we went back to jo ann's house because the make up artist will be going over to jo ann's house to get our make up done.

cherly was the first to get it while i was the second.

both of us.

while waiting for the rest to get their make up done.

third was audrey.

me and audrey.

while waiting for jo ann to get hers done. (:

hehehe. how could girls resist to take pictures laa.

the boys was already at jo ann's living room around 6 i think. we were only done with our make up at like 7.30 p.m. or later but earlier than 8 p.m. la of course.

credits to ferns who took it with en lin's camera.

before leaving.

we were so late i tell you. because the time printed on the ticket was 6 p.m but we were only at the hotel at 8 p.m.

geng right?

went there and found our table. (:

oklaaa.. here are the pictures. too lazy to write so much.

behind L-R : khai shien, brandon, audrey and me.
in front L-R : ken, jia shen and wei ping.

behind L-R : wei ping, me, ernest and audrey.

in front L-R : teck wei and vincent.

our S9 shot.

another one.

with Ms Christine. our beloved mentor.

here comes some individual pictures with each and every friend.

ferng lin and me.

"hello shorty!" :D i know you wont mind laa ferns.

me and jia shen.

"my yeng friend." well.. he does look kinda good that night. just that the tie colour abit the off. but still nice. (:

me and teck wei.

"stupid chinese! i dont like you." :D okayy it was a wise choice to cut ur hair provided you had that clay or moving rubber thing. and you looked good.

jo ann, jia shen and me.

jia shen must have said something wrong about jo ann. (:

okayy.. now the decent one.

behind L-R : yao yun, me and cherly.
in front L-R : jo ann, jia shen and teck wei.

me, loong and jia shen.

loong and jia shen.

me and loong.

he looked like some kind of dai lou man. as though like he is handling the whole dinner. and his girlfriend looked pretty. (:

me, ernest, cherly and vincent.

me and cherly.

the best friends. now and always. :D

yao yun and me.

"omg girl you look so different." i barely could notice her. she came and stand with me, cherly and jia shen but it took us quite a while to notice that it was her.

you looked pretty my dear. :D

khai shien and me.

at least he didnt wear batik. so.. its a good thing.

me and Ms Christine.

my beloved Maths teacher. i am soo gonna miss her. (: she had been a great mentor all along.

me and wei ping.

she looks cute with the blue tube dress and the curled hair. (:

behind L-R : wei xiang and felix.
in front L-R : audrey, me and wei ping.

felix and khai shien.

wei xiang and khai shien.

me and felix.

ahhh this fella is a joker laa. damn blur and damn funny. i am goona miss him tooo. dont know when he'll be going back to Sabah.

and he damn yeng laa. wear jeans to a prom. damn funny~!

vincent, felix and teck wei.

me and vincent.

this fella is another joker. i am gonna miss him too. and will always remember that he broke my pencil. haha!

teck wei and me again.

he was the first stranger i talked to in S9. well.. it was fun knowing him and still is.

masyitah and me.

the cutest girl in class. and the funniest one too. i am gonna miss her perasan-ness. :D

michelle and me.

the smarty pants in class. (: plus the popular one. she's leaving to australia next year already. have fun there~!

michelle, masyitah and me.

me and ken.

i am gonna miss ken too! he is the one that enlights the class. the most hyperactive one.

"running on the same spot" thinking about it makes me laugh already. i am gonna miss you laa ken..

me and rohit.

the guy thats from Johor. :)

pavitran and me.

my chemistry lab partner. hahaha! :D

me and chee xun.

eventhough i dont talk to him much but he is still a very nice guy. every girl says that. plus his hair when he first walked into class everyday is soo funny. (:

and the dimples are nice.

me and yong shen.

another class smarty. the one who always argue with pn mahani in a very funny way.

wei xiang and me.

this fella also damn smart one. plus he is a nice guy. :D

siew yung and me.

i didnt know that she was 19 until half way through the course. eventhough i dont talk to her much, its been a great year.

me and Ms Phua.

my physics teacher. a very nice teacher. (:

vincent and jia shen.

trying to act yeng and cool. it was merely a success.

me and kylie.

i dont really know her but she was in my physics tuition last year and since then whenever we see each other we will say hi.

me and Ms Geetha.

my english teacher. after she left for maternity leave only i realise that she was the teacher that we all needed.

and her baby is soo cute.

rohit, masyitah and jia shen.

rohit and jia shen was trying to serenade masyitah with Kau Ilhamku from Manbai.

khai shien, teck wei, jia shen and me.

the 3 closest guys i have in class. i mean the closest. we go for break together everyday. (: dont know where itu jia shen looking at.

saw some girl in a pretty red dress?

behind L-R : khai shien, audrey, wei ping and teck wei.

in front L-R : jia shen and me.

me and en lin.

he looks kinda cool with the fedora. and its true that there is that Ne-yo style in that. plus he spent damn alot on that outfit tau.

and landed him a hot date. :D

me and jia shen again.

became alot closer this year. someone i could say ALMOST everything to. :)

ernest and me.

"i dont like you from the bottom of my heart." hahah! take care ernest peng ern as i wouldnt be seeing you anymore.

the ex USJ 12's.

khai shien, cherly, jia shen, jo ann, teck wei, me and ferng lin.

photo credits to ferns taken with en lin's camera.

we girls were laughing at jia shen's picture in my camera. HAHAHA!

khai shien, jia shen, cherly, me, jo ann and teck wei.

we left to Kim Gary after that to have a cup of drink. talked till like 12 something then we left for home.

jia shen was our (me, cherly, audrey and jo ann) chauffeur for the night.

he fetched us back to jo ann's house to collect our stuffs then fetched audrey back to ss 15 then fetch cherly home and lastly me.

thanks jia shen!

came home and had to remove all the make up and hair pins. i only slept at 4 something in the morning.

cause waiting for the hair to dry in very the mafan. plus i do not like hair dryer. :D

the plan for today was to go karaoke at 11 a.m at Neway. but i seriously cannot wake up. smsed jia shen to ask whether can i not go because i was really damn sleepy.

so the plan changed to 12 p.m. i had an extra hour to sleep.

went there, they said 1 clock cheaper so we waited till one. while waiting me, jia shen and cherly walked to ss 15 and visited two pet shops.

when it was time we went up to get out karaoke rooms.

well... the karaoke session wasnt so bad. (: at least everyone sang including khai shien and teck wei.

the time for the session was till 5.30 p.m but we left at about 4.30 p.m. jia shen and teck wei left half an hour before us.

came home and slept till 8.30 p.m. was damn tired laaa.

and started blogging because there were quite a number of pictures. and uploading it takes time.

mana tau my stupid connection really ada problem so cannot upload.

but the time now that i am done, its already 4.00 a.m.

sooo... good night people. tomorrow will be out for lunch with the friends and also catching a movie over at jo ann's.

ooohh yeahh. feel free to grab the pictures peoples. :)

goodnight people.

ehhh wait. good morning.~!

with love,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : Ronan Keating & Leann Rimes - Last thing on my mind

a first time experience.

since i am waiting for my hair to dry before i can go to bed, let me just post of short short post. (:

today was prom~!

it was fun getting ready for it. (:


well.. every single tiny detail will be up later. more pictures to come. :D took about a hundred pictures. <3

reached home about 2 a.m. and i was chauffeur driven back to my front gate. it was a not bad evening.

loves,
shereena.

music addiction : Run The Show - Kat Deluna

its all i need.

its better to let things lose.

i dont know whether whatever i've said,

it is understandable or not.

but i seriously need to say something.

keeping everything inside is making me worse.

recently, i dont know what kind of person i have became.

i became someone i dont like.

emoer.

a wonderer.

a person full of dislikes.

the first thing in mind.

i really really want to help you out but it is out of my league. i cant do much because i am not you.

i know that i have to care about this friend of mine. i am trying my very best to say everything i could to help. if you want to take my advice, take it. if you dont, go ahead with whatever you are going through.

if you think its best for you then do it. at least i know i cared about a great friend.

i really want to see you happy than being disturb by all this problems. i envy being treated so nice but its not me.

sometimes whatever i say may not be right but its what i think it is. its up to you to walk the path of your life.

i know i havent been helping much but i really tried.

be happy my dear friend and live your life well. hope that whatever your decisions and instincts are, it brings you far.

second thing.

smsing you everyday doesnt make us any closer. i admit that those sms i first sent to you was just to fill myself up with someone to chat with.

you are so committed in it but i am not sure if she does.

to make great decisions and a happier life thrust upon yourself, you have to make a matured decision.

dont go back to a past you hate. be proud of the present and future of yours.

but first, grow up a little. it helps.

third.

you have to realise about what is going on. how are people treating you. sometimes it is not a must that a good friend treats you more than a friend.

sincerely saying a thank you would be soo good. only these two words pays of all the hard work that is done.

people dont treat you nice for nothing. people cares alot thats why.

treating a friend too good is not a something that a person should do. its because they want to and thats why.

do not think its a should. think its a caring thought.

try to notice things around you. dont just live your life for the sake of living it. be observant of what is going on.

it'll bring you a better life.

fourth stuff.

i dont know why i still care. i really dont know why i chose this in the first place. you are every part in my life already.

every single tiny detail really reminds me of you.

i passed by a building today, and the words you said to me about it just voiced out in my mind. i was staring out the windows of the hotel in genting, i see your face. i see that smile.

i am trying so hard to really let go.

the advice i got was to control and forget. i know i should but i cant seem to do it. maybe a new lifestyle is really really needed.

finally.

jealousy is the big word. but why? and i have trouble letting go the feelings.

most of everything i have in mind is all here. i hope this helps me to be better.

i dont like being disturb by all this. i dont like being someone i dont like whenever i am alone. i dont like being that person that thinks about crap when i am alone.

i am losing everything.

hope it'll be fine. starting tomorrow at least.

tomorrow is prom. had to go and get the hair done and also the make up. just had the nails done just now.

i am still thinking too much.

love,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : Rihanna - Rehab

piece of my mind.

dont make me be someone you dont like me to be.

i wont say anything anymore.

because its not worth.

and.. be a little more wiser.

you might start to see things you never did.

and realise how much you had changed someone.

how much you've made someone suffer.

dont take things for granted.

dont be in the times when you were only six.

grow up.

its stupid.

and stupid to me.

there is no way people treat you nice for no reason.

there is no way poeple care for no reason.

and defintely no way that the world only goes around you.

if it wasnt because i care.

i'll never say a word.

S9's genting trip.

woke up early on sunday morning cause the message was to be at one utama bus terminal at 7.30 a.m.

and i drove to one utama.

since i was the driver, i had to wake up early to go and pick the rest. first, wei ping then teck wei lastly, jia shen.

reached one utama about time.

but the bus we are taking is at 10 a.m. and we were like there so early and we were hungry. and most of the shops in one utama are all closed.

it seems that there is a mamak stall in there which is 24 hours. roamed inside one utama awhile and ken found the mamak.

sat there and ate until it was time to head back to the terminal.

the bus ride was only 45 minutes up to the genting skyway. and the bus fare was inclusive of a skyway ticket up to genting.

so we had to sit that thing.

it was scary. alot more scarier than what i sat last year. because wei ping and teck wei are the ones making me scared.

reached First World but we cant go in the rooms yet because the check in time is at 2.00 p.m. so we went to meet up with wei xiang felix they all. because felix drove his car up. reason is he doesnt want to sit the skyway.

went to find food again. we went to the food court this time.

i think i ate the same thing as i ate last year. but its was kinda worth it laa. somehow. there isnt anything cheap in genting. so yeahh.

after food, the guys went rock climbing.


chee xun was pretty good. these two? HAHA! (: sorry ken and yong shen.

me audrey and wei ping went walking around to look for earrings for prom. i saw these really pretty one which cost RM79 from bonita. but it was too expensive.

it was time to go and keep our stuffs in the room already.

and the room was blardy small! and we have two rooms but had to accomodate 20 people. smart right.

its the so called VIP room.

rohit is "gifted".

i brought a sleeping bag and jia shen was intending to put the whole of himself in it. we helped him to get in but we were having a motive.

once he was zipped inside, all of us start whacking, tickling and poking him.

ahaha! and the way he fights with wei ping is soo cute. make me laugh like nobody's business.

we even slept for like half an hour.

then we went lepak around genting. walking to the main gate of the themepark then to some garden which has these feet reflexology thing.

you know all the bulged up stones which were meant to be walk on. all of us walked one round. and it was painful!

it was already at night before anyone knew it. so we headed to eat dinner at some canteen in front of the main gate to the themepark.

but there wasnt like any appetizing food so we went to Oldtown which was right nearby to the canteen.

after food we want to go to the main gate to take group pictures but it was damn cold. seriously damn cold. the wind was freezing. i started shivering.

vincent even smarter. didnt bring jacket and somemore wearing short pants.

after a while, it wasnt so cold already. so we took our group shots.

the so called "jia shen's group".

L-R : flix, khai shien, audrey, masyitah, jia shen, wei ping, teck wei and me.

the "michelle's group".

L-R : siew yung, ken, michelle, masyitah, rohit and vincent.

all the guys on the trip.

too hard to list the names. :)

the girls on the trip.

L-R : cassandra, masyitah, me, michelle, siew yung, wei ping and audrey.

everyone.

before dinner me, ken and jia shen went to the cinema to get tickets for
Quarantine at 1.30 a.m for the three of us.

after dinner, masyitah, audrey, brandon and his girlfriend, cassandra said they wanted to watch also.

so we had to go to the cinema and get the tickets for them.

while the rest was at Snow World, we were in the room. we as in those who are watching the movies ones.

i dont know why i dont like to go in the guys room. something about it makes me not like it. its the room i meant.

but we didnt have to key to our room so we had to bear with it.

i like standing at the railing beside the window at the lifts hallway. with the wind blowing at my face and staring out to a world dark place outside.

it made me thought. and i did some really bad thinking.

as time passes, the more i stand there the more i am feeling weird. feels emo.

jia shen came to join me awhile and had some great time talking. it was really quiet though. and was kinda cold.

then the rest came back and i finally got my bath. it felt great. after that we had some sessions in the guys room.

talked and joked. it was a first time experience for me but most wasnt.

after that, i was really in need of a cup of coffee so me, audrey and wei ping went down to starbucks to get a cup of hot mocha.

jia shen came down too. he felt dizzy and tired so he slept while at starbucks. we were waiting for the time to pass so we can go and catch our movie.

after the short sleep, he felt better but audrey still wasnt feeling so well. so the three of us went walking to get some fresh air.

i like that small little park. the lightings, the atmosphere was good. it is a good thinking place too.

movie time came, so we went to watch the horror movie.

and it played some other horror movie's trailer called The Unborn. that was even scarier. well.. it looks scary.

Quarantine was shocking and scary. i hold onto jia shen and started leaning on him during those really scary parts.

he had his jacket to cover his face. me and audrey had him to grab hold on during scary parts.

movie ended about 3 something in the morning. so we headed back to the room.

everyone was already asleep. but i seriously couldnt sleep. maybe it was because that bed was really hard.

and there wasnt much space. and i was feeling hungry.

and i blardy sprained my ankle.

then me and jia shen decided to go down to starbucks to have a drink and some food. that was like 4 a.m.

we thought of sitting there till 8 a.m where the rest get up so went can go up and sleep.

but sitting at starbucks for 4 hours abit the sad right.

so we went walking in First World Plaza. we walked every floor with all the shops closed.

walked and walked and walked. but only like half an hour pass of so. finally settled down at some bridge. sat there for a while and talked and then started walking again.

we walked down to the place that connect First World to the themepark. a whole flight of stairs downwards. and since i sprained my ankle, it was hard to walk.

then he came up with an idea to make time pass slower. which is count 10 seconds and then walk up one step.

it was abit the lifeless. and funny!

the more we walk, the more tired we were. so we went to the recpetion area a the hotel lobby and slept there for like 20 minutes.

then we continued walking. jia shen was complaining that he is hungry. but no shop was open. there was one but he didnt want to eat there.

so we walked back to starbucks and he had a muffin. that was already nearly 7 a.m. the couches in starbucks were taken.

so we sat there drinking and eating then some people left the couch.

since he had finished his muffin, we went to the couch and sit there. and we slept! it was comfy. slept till about 7.45 a.m, we walked back to the room.

finally we wasted 4 hours to keep ourselves partially awake. and i was already drop dead tired.

went back to the room but all of the were still sleeping. then michelle and siew yung woke up cause they said they had to wake up earlier.

and they were sleeping on soft beds so that means there is a place for us to sleep. so me and jia shen could finally get our sleep.

and he took the pillow all to himself. leaving me sleeping on no pillow beside him. luckily he didnt take away the blanket.

i grabbed another pillow from brandon for myself. and finally slept comfortably.

and jia shen took most of the space on the bed. thank god it was just 3 hours of sleep.

we had to check out at 12 p.m so we had to wake up at 11 a.m. so means we only had 3 hours of sleep.

the rest went off already to the themepark leaving me, jia shen, wei ping, audrey, brandon and his gf.

i was too tired to even go to the themepark.

yong shen, felix, chee xun, wei xiang and seng huei went to awana to stay casue wei xiang's grandma got them a room there.

we woke up and got ready.

since me, audrey, wei ping and jia shen decided that we wont go to the themepark, we wanted to go home earlier instead on going with the initial plan which was taking the 8.30 p.m bus ride home.

then teck wei said he wants to join us too. after meeting up with teck wei, we went to eat at kenny's roger.

after eating, audrey said that she'll go back with felix, seng huei and wei xiang by car. they werent going to the themepark either.

after food, we left to the skyway.

only the four of us. me, jia shen, teck wei and wei ping.

we took a skyway down and as usual we started talking about stupid stuff like "what if this thing fall" and stuff like that.

and as usual teck wei and wei ping was damn scared.

reached the station at 1.35 p.m and the 1.30 p.m bus just left. so we had to take the 2.30 p.m bus.

lazed around and took some pictures.

damn alot of monkeys man. it all looks so scary.

just part of it.

the mist look nice. and the weather was pretty wet.

me, teck wei and wei ping.

wei ping, jia shen and teck wei.

me, jia shen and teck wei.

bye bye genting. (:

reached KL sentral about 3.20 p.m and we went to get KTM tickets back to subang.

sat the super slow and not-so-air-conditioned train.

once we reached, while waiting for jia shen's mum to come and pick us, we went to carrefour.

teck wei wants to get his ruffles. i got scolded by him because the last time before genting i went to carrefour and i saw it but i didnt buy for him. :D

came home and bath.

then straight way fell on the bed and slept.

but only slept for one and a half hour cause me and jia shen is suppose to join jo ann and cherly for dinner.

had a cup of teh o ais limau at kayu while the rest ate.

tomorrow will be the last paper of SAM exams. which is the last paper for jo ann and cherly. after their exams, they are going dress shopping.

cherly is coming all the way from taylors to fetch me to go shop with them.

now, i am contemplating whether to go and sleep or to watch my series. (: there is the taiwan Hotshot, episode 10 of gossip girl and season 4 of the OC.

should i watch? or sleep?

arghhhhh... i am jealous. wtf. and i am thinking too much. why is it that everything still reminds me sooo much of him.

life isnt fair. nothing is.

ps: too many words already. these are the only genting pictures i have. sorry guys. (:

with love,

shereena.

music addiction : Finally - Fergie

fashion designers are damn talented.

genting.

tomorrow we S9(s) will be going up to genting. i guess its our first and last trip out together. (:

woke up at 10 a.m today. cause i had to go to bill keith's shop to get my dress. i drove all the way down to KL today. not bad huh. :D

went to get my dress and also he lend me own of his gorgeous dresses for free tau. and i like it plus it is a long one.

plus bill's shop is near sungei wang and i was really in need of a nice pair of silver heels. and sungei wang has damn alot of shoe shops.

i got myself a pair of shimmery silver heels for RM80 and its like damn high. i think its 3 inches plus.

i seriously DONT like to go sugei wang. damn alot of malays plus its damn messy and full of people.

but.. things there are kinda cheap.

drove back from Jln Alor till home. well.. KL's road arent so bad plus i actually do know the way. hehe. cause mum is sitting right beside me. (:

came home and then went out to Carrefour again. cause cousin wants to go get groceries for herself when she goes to work in genting.

and i saw Mrs Jill. she still looks so cute. had a short talk with her.

and she keeps asking me "why i didnt take nursing". damn cute laa. and i didnt know she retired. hmmm.. i gave her that shocked face. :D

after coming home from Carrefour i seriously cannot tahan already. slept like a log. (:

had to wake up cause we were going dinner at Teluk Gong so had to leave around 8 p.m. i only slept for an hour plus. ):

went all the way to Teluk Gong for dinner. and the food is not bad. plus i didnt eat much.

after these whole exam thing, my appetite in eating is worse. maybe its because of my very weird eating hours.

my stomach is seriously not good. after eating i'll have these cramps. something like gastric pains.

came home and busy smsing people about tomorrow's plan and packing my stuff.

i really dont know what to take. my bag seems so empty.

well... i hope this genting trip will be great. it should be. (: right right?

i'll be driving tomorrow to one utama. cause we had to take the bus from there. and i'll have to wake up early to pick up the rest.

cause the worse thing is, we have to be there by 730 a.m.

oh my god. the jealousy thing is getting out of hand. can you like go away from my life. go without even saying goodbye would be the best.

i dont like neither one of you for a certain reason.

with love,

shereena.

music addiction : Kanye West - Love Lockdown

last days of SAM.

its over. S9

credits to michelle.

today at 10.10 a.m was the last minute of my SAM exams. i've never felt more relieved before in my exams experiences.

after leaving the exams venues we S9 had to have a small meeting about our genting trip on sunday.

we will be leaving KL sentral at 8 a.m in the morning on sunday. it is set! (:

after discussing we left to pyramid for a movie.

watched madagascar 2 with cherly, teck wei, khai shien, audrey, jo ann, jia shen and ferng lin.

the show was funny and cute. (: had a good laugh also.

after show we went shopping around for prom stuff. cherly and audrey had to find their dresses where as me and jo ann and cherly and audrey is also looking for heels.

the guys went looking for their pants and shirt i think.

about 2 plus, ferns had to leave. and mana tau he left with teck wei and khai shien leaving jia shen there alone with 4 girls.

i felt pity for jia shen cause he had to walk with us all over looking for dresses. he had to stay cause we didnt have transport home. :D

we walked nearly the entire place yet we girls didnt find anything.

soo... we went looking for whatever-jia shen-is-going-to-wear-for-prom. and we went to parkson.

we saw this mannequin that look kinda hot in that suit on it.

we girls decided to make jia shen wear that. the shirt plus the tie and the pants. and he seriously looked quite yeng.

i am serious. :D

never seen him wear so smart before. quite hot. (:

and we burned a hole in his wallet. the shirt plus the pants is RM260. and they gave a free belt which he was in need of one.

but well... he looked good and thats the main point what right?

we had fun pushing open his door, kicking his shoes to the other cubicle, making fun of him about how he wears the shirt and helping him out to look good in those pants. (:

walked around a while more cause they were discussing which facial wash is good and stuff in guardian.

ferns came back again. so he walked with us a while.

but around 5 p.m we had to leave already. cause jia shen and jo ann had to be home early.

ended up we girls who wanted to find the stuffs didnt get anything. jia shen who didnt mind whether he gets it today or not, he got himself something.

came home and slept.

i was really in need of sleep. i slept like 12 something this morning and woke up at 3 a.m. i was struggling through to stay awake during the movie.

we were in pyramid for 7 hours. not bad huh. tried looking for adrian at nike but he's not working today. ):

saw a number of familiar faces in pyramid too.

wey liam's call at 8 p.m woke me up. (: asking me whether i could make it out or not. as usual, mum wouldnt let me to.

well... tomorrow i'll be going to bill keith's (the designer) place. i shall go see what other dress i can fit and look nice in apart from my own one.

prom is next wednesday. (:

genting is sunday.

great. SAM is finally over!

i'll watch my episode 10 of gossip girl and one tree hill later. and get all emo when i watch one tree hill. ):

oh please laa... i am having these kind of jealousy crap in me. how come laa? until now this effing problem isnt going away.

i still HATE it!

loves,

shereena.

music addiction : Britney Spears - Womanizer

my once favourite subject, chemistry.

i hate lying there while having all these craps in my mind.

what the hell is wrong. my dreams every night are getting weirder and weirder. not even those at night, those during the afternoon naps too.

every single day, every single dream, he is always in it.

the more i am trying to get rid of the feeling, the more it glues onto me.

and i am always a nobody to him so why did i even bother. every single thing, i come in the last. even the way he talks to me and treats me.

somebody has to come first. we were never close friends but still, its so different. i feel like some idiot treating him nice, while he doesnt care but treat others way better than me.

i really dont know when all this started. and since when i cared.

today's chemistry was okla. it was still affordable but yet, not that great. i am no longer what walter calls me a-chemistry-pro.

i sucked like shit now in chemistry.

came home after exam and slept till 5 something. after that went to coffee bean till 10 something.

wey liam dropped by too. he came to study. (: not bad huh.

good luck for your exams tomorrow liam! you will be able to do it. :D

had to leave at 10 something like usual because mum wouldnt like me being home later than that.

so i went off with jia shen. luckily i was home before mum was asleep. she had been complaining that she havent been seeing and talking to me much.

my episode 8 of supernatural is done downloading. and i am gonna watch it tonight. (:

spec maths on friday is like nothing to me now. i am seriously feeling that i already finished my exams.

now, i have to try telling my mum that we'll go to bill keith's place on saturday. so probably FRIDAY can go with teck wei they all to find their prom stuff.

tomorrow will be out to coffee bean the whole day too. had to just struggle through one more paper then i am free!!

sighs. i still hate whatever i am thinking now.

its really disturbing me. until now it still does. and i usually get all emo in the middle of the night. i dont like being alone.

love,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part Right Here

chemistry ahhhh!

but i am facing sudden speechless.

i really really have a lot to say. but i cant put it out to a complete sentence to even let anybody know.

i am perfectly fine in front of people or friends. but i dont think i am fine alone. when i am alone i seem to think abit off track and get myself all emo.

i really dont know what i am thinking so much about. i am mainly thinking about okay-fine-only-something-i-know.

and other stuff too. other stuff like whats going on right now. but well... this is more like an on and off thing.

the real main problem seems to get more into the way.

was out the whole day at taipan. from 11 a.m till 10 something p.m. studied for my freaking chemistry paper tomorrow.

i dont know how am i going to do for it. shit.

while waiting for cherly to buy her KFC stuff which took damn long, left me and teck wei in the car.

i freaked him out.

about moving the car in front abit. i was horrible. and he was good. hahahaa!

we have the same opinion on the same person. anyway, no one likes her. so whats the difference. wait wait, her boyfriend does.

ahh whatever. none of my business.

tomorrow is chemistry!! i really hope that i'll do fine.

wish me luck people. (:

with love,

shereena.

music addiction : Emmy Rossum - Slow Me Down

friends or more than friends?

i somehow liked being alone.

its better to think.

woke up at 10 something because initially it was said that the plan was to go to coffee bean at 11 a.m.

was there the whole day. left for home at 6 something with jia shen because i was in need of a bath. i felt sticky.

i feel that i was studying better out there.

around 8.30 p.m jia shen came to fetch me back to coffee bean. (:

going back out again was like not going back there. i didnt even study. went back and stared at the chemistry book then jia shen said he wants to eat ramlee.

me and ferng lin went with him to go buy. (:

then moment i was back, sat down for less than 15 minutes, cherly said she wanted to go home already.

i had to go back with her cause it was running late already. i had to be home before 11 p.m.

i guess its another day out tomorrow to coffee bean. chemistry is the day after. and chemistry usually sucked badly for me.

i doubting soo much on my decisions. i am staring more and thinking more.

i rather isolate myself to say i am studying, so that i can sit down and try to study while having time to let my mind wonder.

since when all this started? i hate that i am not able to diffrentiate how i feel.

i dont like being in all this. but i like the way i am being called. its feels like i am needed.

love,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : James Blunt - You're Beautiful

i am bumped. i cant differentiate anymore.

never even had the chance to write on the flowers because i never dare to even think about it.

got up at 9 plus this morning. because cherly said breakfast was at 10 a.m. went to some mamak at usj 9.

went to cherly's place after that till about 4 something in the evening.

came home with jia shen. and slept till 7.30 p.m because the plan was to go to coffee bean at 8 p.m.

remember i said i was suppose to go and catch Quantum of Solace? mum didnt want to go out soo.. i had to for go the show.

probably this saturday la.

went out to coffee bean and came home at 10 something.

watched Game Plan. i like the show. its cute, funny and nice. (: and some other reasons.

shit man. this diffrentiating between friends and feeling more than a friend thing is getting more and more into my head.

every single time i am asleep something has to appear about him.

there is soo much i want to say but i just cant. i cant put all the feelings i am having into words.

my heart feels weird and my mind is like clogged up with flashes of images or everything that happened in between.

i am trying so hard to avoid. the more i am, the more i take into count of every single detail that is happening.

i cant get rid of it. i hate you.
shereena.

music addiction : Rihanna ft. Ne Yo - Hate That I Love You

pretty lil' fairies and roses.

was out to whole day today. got up at 9 a.m. slept quite late yesterday too. it was quite hard to wake up.

drove to cheras to look for a mum's friend. along with aunty jaime we went to another mum's friend's place in jalan ipoh to get their stuff from hong kong.

stayed over for lunch then headed down to jalan alor in KL. i had to go and alter my dress at the designer's place.

anyone heard about bill keith? he is like super talented. his dresses are so blardy great. he designed for the miss india one you know.. and that gown was damn pretty!

it looks way better than those at the bridal houses.

i am even allowed to go and borrow the dresses for my prom for free. provided i can fit in. i tried two and i can fit. but... its kinda low.

everything seems to show out. (:

after jalan alor, we went to parade. cause mum had to meet a customer there. went to visit steph too cause she asked me to buy her a strip of panadol actifast.

walked around parade a while and went for shoe hunting.

after parade we left to amcorp mall. as usual i only go there to get one kinda of things. my beloved accessories.

its soooo damn pretty.

this is how much i bought today. (:

two necklace, two pairs of earrings, one handphone strap and one sitting fairy.

its really damn nice. i can just stand there and look through everything and then persuade my mum to get for me.

actually i only wanted one item. then as time passes it gets more. thats how all those came out.

this is the one i bought the last time. <3

one necklace and one pair of earring.

its damn good i tell you. and the lady is such a nice person and a talented one too.

had dinner in amcorp then fetched my mum's friend, aunty jaime back to cheras. and then went over to my aunt's house.

around 10 p.m only we reached home.

currently watching invasion.

tomorrow i'll be out with the rest for study at coffee bean i guess. breakfast first at 10 a.m. i feel like driving out tomorrow. doubt mum will let.

most probably i'll be out with mum and cousin to watch james bond tomorrow evening.

i've been wanting to watch that show for god knows how long. daniel craig is hott. (:

omg laaa... cant i be like a normal friend to him? it makes me doubt so much and eventually having him to invade my mind.

i can even diffrentiate anymore between a friend and someone i like.

its annoying and frustrating.

love,

shereena.

music addiction : Estrella - Stay

ahhh.. i wonder how.

so much for just being friends.

woke up at 10 plus today. mainly because of the message cherly sent me. slept about 1 plus in the morning the night before.

got up and watched some show on tv. i cant remember what already.

watched episode 9 of one tree hill and episode 7 of supernatural. i am sooo into both of the shows. but more on One Tree Hill of course.

then went out to lunch nearly 1.30 p.m to Mcd. cherly came to fetch. (: met walter there too. like damn ngam right.

i just chatted with him yesterday night cause he is in desperate state to stay awake so he asked me to talk to him. (:

ate at Mcd with jia shen, cherly, ferns, and teck wei. around 2 something we left to jo ann's house.

khai shien and en lin came to join later.

was there till like 9 plus. had dinner there too. i tell you, jo ann can cook man. like seriously can. the pasta and the mushroom soup tasted good. (:

it wasnt productive. seriously. imagine having some people singing horny songs, doing stupid stuff and figuring out a blardy spec maths question which got all of us so depressed!

had quite alot of laughters.

came home and did nothing but onlining while staring at the chinese drama that is showing on tv. (:

yay.. gossip girl episode 9 is done. (:

sien laaa.. nowadays i am not so emo already. but seriously lorr.. i have issues man. i cant even tell what i am feeling as this weird kinda feeling is creeping more than abit into my mind each day.

these weird feelings was already there when the word youu always appeared. but its not about youu. somebody else seems to bother me in many ways.

and it just exploited my dream this morning. and a few ones before.

its confusion. its freaking whole lots of feelings getting mixed up. its damn annoying and making me emo.

but exams seems to be getting more and more into my mind as days pass. chemistry is coming up on wednesday and spec maths in on friday.

much love,
sher xoxo.

music addiction : Bethany Dillon - Dreamer

meteor shower?

hoping for the stars shower from heaven.

this morning at 7 a.m was the maths paper. and guess what for like the first time i got up late for an exam.

i remember i did set my alarm at 4.15 a.m but it didnt ring. or maybe i teroff it. luckily i had a reminder for exam at 6 a.m and khai shien messaged me saying that he was already coming.

and my phone was in silent mode and i somehow felt the vibration.

i had like nearly 15 minutes only to get ready. for the freaking first time this happened.

today's maths paper seemed okay to me. just that i really really didnt have the time to finish. the time was horrible.

went for breakfast at the shop behind melur till about 12 something then we came back.

came home and watched the ending of charlotte's web and the starting of stomp the yard. then i fell asleep till like 5 p.m.

around 6 p.m only went out to coffee bean. was there till about 9 p.m then went out to buy ramlee with jia shen.

i was craving for ramlee so the both of us went to the ramlee stall near his place. not bad le the burger.

then he let me drive his car. to be honest wasnt really ready for it. dont know laa. maybe i am just not to driving yet.

and i drove back to taipan to meet up with the rest of them. seems that HE IS ACTUALLY A GOOD FRIEND to sit beside me and teach me the right stuff. (:

went kfc cause the rest wants to eat. then about 10 plus i left with jia shen. cause its not too good for me to actually be home late.

tomorrow i'll be out again for lunch with the rest and then to jo ann's house to study. not bad huh. (:

ohh yeahh.. ferng lin helped me out with my laptop. something is still wrong with it but yet, thanks so much computer freak. hahahaha!

i still have to take it over to jo ann's place tomorrow to let him check it.

loves,
shereena.

music addiction : Sarah Mclaughlan - Ordinary Miracle

stupid physics.

TRYING to smile.

sorry people. i said that i would at least update everyday but i was really really too busy studying.

too busy studying in coffee bean and by the time i am home, its late already. then i need to get my sleep so i was too lazy to on my laptop.

yesterday's english paper was actually not too bad. the listening part was actually quite good. because the speaker was a lady, her aussie accent seems to be quite understandable.

around 5 p.m yesterday, i went out to coffee bean to study studied physics like crap. seriously studied and discussed so much.

came home around 10.30 p.m and rest and the got up at 3.30 a.m this morning.

studied one whole textbook of physics. and reached college around 6.20 a.m. the physics paper was supposed to start at 7 a.m.

physics paper was like crap! seriously like shit.

everything we studied at coffee bean, nothing came out. nothing!

after exam, we went melur and eat. came home and slept till about 4 something. then we went out to coffee bean again.

got back at about 10 p.m.

tomorrow no exam. so i should be somewhere out studying.

maybe i'll blog the day after my maths exam. which is on friday. cause the exam is on thursday at 7 a.m.

loves,

sher xoxo.

music addiction : Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel

moodless and senseless.

i am moodless.

and i cant think still.

okayy... now i am scared of the coming two weeks of exams. i am really really scared!

whole load of anxiety is rushing through me now. its not tomorrow's paper that i am really afraid of, but its the day after tomorrow's paper.

physics is like crap. like shit. i cant do it.

the whole exam thing that starts tomorrow is making me moodless.

i will have no time to take a nap after exam tomorrow. i need to concentrate on my physics dont matter how long it takes.

eventhough its only going to make me have 3 or 4 hours of sleep. or maybe lesser. then i can sleep all i want the next day.

but now i need sleep for my revision for the day after tomorrow's physics.

goodnight people and wish me luck! (:

plus i just saw a movie that has this hot fella. well... its makes me feel better now. :D chris evans*hot*

with love,

shereena.

music addiction : Jesse Mccartney - Because You Live

real love?

eternity love?

where you vow to each other,

and hope things will turn out amazingly great.

just finished watching Preminition. i like show. its alot of figuring out the term of past and future kinda of thing. but its sad.

imagine seeing someone you love sooo much die right infront of you, when you were already trying to stop the tragedy to happen.

its another great piece of work by sandra bullock. i lover her shows!

woke up at 7 a.m this morning cause there was tuition at 8 a.m.

came home was suppose to continue my sleep but i went out with mum for breakfast and to get her haircut plus going to amcorp mall and see accessories again.

girlfriends, now i know where and what to buy for you guys for any occasion.

studied physics. more like reading but yes i studied.

was wondering whether should i come online and blog. but well.. blog nowdays for me are like an online diary.

its sort of better if its updated everyday.

for myself to know whats my daily stuff and what i am exactly thinking about. so yeahh. it only takes me like 15 minutes for a post.

so.. blogging wont affect my upcoming exams. why because of exams, i should stay away from it right?

monday is the first paper!

i'll keep my fingers crossed and hope things do work out. (:

shows makes me wonder. wonder whether will some part of it actually happens to my ownself. i can't stand guys that cheats on yourself.

if it doesnt work, say it out. dont keep people thinking you love them when you dont. its going ot make things worse.

especially finding out the truth yourself. it hurts. just tell the honest truth!

dont make it look happy when it doesnt anymore.

lovee,

shereena.

music addiction : Oliver James - Greatest Story Ever Told